[momto1plustwins]

Hi everyone,
I am glad I found this site. I am the 35 year old mother to three. My daughter is 11 and my boys are 6. I have been overweight since I was 9 yrs old. My mom constantly told me I was fat and needed to lose weight. The irony of it was..SHE HAD THE SAME PROBLEM!!! My addiction to food began when I was 7 and I was being molested. This continued for 3 yrs because I was scared to tell my parents. If my mom fussed about my weight or an "incident" occured...food was my fix.
Fast fwd to 2003. I had RNY gastric bypass. At my 6 month checkup I found out I had lost 145 pounds but I was also pregnant. A couple of weeks later we found out it was triplets. One of them stop developing but 8 months later I gave birth to my HANDSOME baby boys. But because I was only 6 months post op and carrying twins my drs were making me eat more often to keep us all nurished. I gained 20 pounds while pregnant and never lost it.
Late night bottles=a late night snack for me. When my boys were two one of them was diagnosed with type 1 diabetes. We no longer have late night bottles but we do have "all nighters" where I have to check blood sugar as often as every hour. This again = all night snacking for me.
I had gained back 50 pounds of the 145 as of 2009. In 2010 I began having major back issues. Within 6 months I went from perfectly capible of walking to almost wheel chair/bed bound. The weight quickly began stacking on due to lack of exerise, depression and over eating. In Aug of 2010 I had a a microdiscectomy. It helped NONE at all so in Dec 2010 I had a fusion. It was a LONG recovery which didn't allow exercise other than Physical therepy. I am now 13 months post op and I am back 80%. I have arthritis VERY bad in my back and I am hoping to be cleared at my appt in 2 days to have injections because NOTHING else is working.
I have tried MANY diets but I have NO willpower. I also eat out of boredom, nerves, depression, anxiety....you name it....food makes it better. I know that unless I work through my problems I will never be successful.
So today I am starting to live life. I am working on myself from the inside out. One of my big problems is sodas. I cut down to 1 glass/can a day two weeks ago and lost 7 pounds just from the soda/fluid. I also began to cut back on my snacking. I would eat sunflower seeds and it helped though I know the salt is not good. Today I am starting to really watch what I am eating. I am starting out at 308. My first goal is to be under 300. The thought of that is easier to swallow than the big goal of being under 200. Preferrably 150......

[andrew80k]

Welcome. Remember to be patient, your journey will be full of ups and downs. As you've started out, look for smaller goals to help you stay motivated and feel you are progressing. There are a lot of support groups here so look around to find something that resonates with you and make yourself at home. There is lots of great advice and support.

[patchworkpenguin]

Momto1plustwins, welcome, glad to have you join us. I like that your are focused on a small goal first rather than letting yourself get overwhelmed. I suggest you look for a Challenge or Support group to join; small check-in groups make it easier to connect, get involved, and be accountable. We have groups centering around specific diet plans, themes, or age groups, find one that inspires you and just post to join! Be sure to check out the 30-somethings and Dieting with Obstacles. Breaking long set habits can be hard, but like everything it takes practice and persistance.