Hello From Canada!
Hi everyone, let me introduce myself and tell you my story. My name is Jodi and I have struggled with my weight since I was a teenager. I dont even know how I was overweight as a teen, as I walked EVERYWHERE. I walked so much and although I wouldnt say I ate healthy, I ate like any other teen out there. Fast forward to when I was 18, I met my Ex Husband and couldnt have been happier, I thought wow I found a great looking guy who actually likes ME! Everything was great, after 4 years we got married, had another good 2.5 years, but then something changed....
My Ex hubby had a VERY obese younger brother(He was 350+lbs at age 15) and the little brother went to my ex for advice on how to lose weight. Now I might add my Ex was in very good shape when we met and after we were married became anorexic, I dont know what caused him to be anorexic but he became anorexic and as much as I tried helping him, he wouldnt eat.. He became Very thin and at the thin point his brother asked him for advice. My Ex knew his brother wouldnt be able to just not eat, as his bro ate ALOT and alot of junk, it would be to hard to just stop, so my Ex suggested Atkins to him.
After about 8 months on Atkins his brother lost a tremendous amount of weight, so at that point I asked what atkins was and he told me. I thought wow I can eat all this food and lose weight? I just dont have to eat carbs? It sounded great to me(I guess I didnt realize how much i liked carbs) I started at 325lbs and in the first 2 weeks i lost 22lbs, and I wasnt even working out. I thought wow this is awesome imagine what I could lose if I did work out. I started working out right away, and the weight fell off.. after 3 months I was down almost 70lbs and was feeling great.... but I was starting to miss carbs.
I told myself I would eat carbs 1 day a week and that would be my treat, but when I told my ex he freaked and told me to stay on plan, i then was finding it harder and harder to stay on plan when I felt deprived, I found myself(With the help of my mom)hiding carbs in my guest bedroom and sneaking off once a week to eat some. The end of my Atkins diet, as well as the end of my marriage came almost a year after I started atkins.
My mom was hospitalized and my in-laws were coming to visit and we had a trip planned, I didnt want to go as my mom was in the hospital.. this caused a huge blowup with my ex and he insisted i still go. I talked to my mom and she told me to go, even though I didnt want to, i did... I thought to myself this is a holiday and I want to eat what I want, in moderation. We were on holidays, went to a bakery and everyone got something and I wanted a cookie and all **** broke loose with my ex, he took me aside, forbid me to have the cookie etc etc, i ended up in a bathroom crying my eyes out and knew I had to stop the diet. We got home from the holiday and i told him i was not going to be forced to eat a certain way. i went off the diet and 2 months later our marriage ended. I went off atkins and slowly gained all the weight back... and then some.
Now here I am, 7 years later and ready to lose weight. I am NOT going to do atkins, thats not for me and Ive realized there is no way I can eat that way for the rest of my life. I do know I can eat healthy with some "treats" here and there in moderation.
My plan is to eat healthy, smaller portions and work out. My #1 issue is the working out.. partly due to a very bad ankle(Had a fall and its filled with metal now) and partly due to laziness. This is the thing I have to do to lose weight and whats the hardest for me. I hate working out, have no one to really work out with(My live-in bf works ALOT so no time to do with him) I also hate veggies, and the few I do like are the ones that you shouldnt eat(potatoes,peas and corn)
I have cut out sugar but I do eat fruit. Ive been doing this diet and working out for 3 days and I know from my atkins days the first 2 weeks are the hardest. I hope to be able to stick to this and lose weight. Im 33, Im 5'7 and weigh about 330lbs. My goal right now is to get under 300, then go from there. I feel dedicated to this and glad I found this site, Im hoping it will give me not only the support I need but also some motivation.
I look forward to meeting all you fellow "Losers" and being able to help you as much as I hope you can help me!!!!!
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