[wearestardust]

I say that because I haven’t been living. Some guy, whose name I can’t remember, once said, “Death is more universal than life. Everyone dies, but not everyone lives.” Being the dramatic, depressed-ish soul that I was, I cried when I first read this, in middle school. There are still times today when the meaning behind these words still brings tears to my eyes. I am not living. I’m simply going through the motions, existing, hiding from life in my oversized sweaters and long sleeved t-shirts, waiting for change that will never come if I don’t work hard for it. My weight is a key part to my non-living existence, and the issue of obesity has been something that stretches back into my childhood, the result of extremely poor diet and nutrition, allowed by my parents, and this depressed state of mind that gripped me by the throat at a young age. The laziness and procrastination that contributes to my weight problem eventually crept into other aspects of my life, and here I am now, a senior in college, with a staggeringly low GPA, which portends some frightening circumstances for my future, especially in this economy. I knew the consequences of my actions as a kid, but at 21 those fears are now materializing before my eyes, pervasive and horrifying. I still have hope, though. I can still see something bright in my future, but that will depend on the decisions I make today.

Now, I’m trying to finally get down to a healthy weight so I have a higher chance of being healthy in my old age. (Yup. I think about this a lot lol) I think becoming healthier physically will inevitably help me develop better habits in other areas of my life as well.
Sorry for the rambling. I do that.

On to the numbers. I joined Weight Watchers and started this past summer off at 245 lb. and now I’m at 226. I’ve gained 4 pounds (I was at 223 before a serious binge on pizza recently, put me back at 227), but no worries, I’m just going to keep on keepin’ on.

And here I am now...

Oh, and Hi.

I'm American, I live in New York City right now, originally from Baltimore City, I'm a vegan (ironically lol), I need to start exercising regularly, and I love to stuff my mouth with edible things. Lets be friends.

[sandcar150]

That certainly is a very profound and thought-provoking saying. I certainly can relate to it as well. Another saying that is quite similar and that I often quote on here is one that stuck in my head for a few years and was from Dr. Phil (who I normally do not watch but, for some reason, tuned into that day). He was talking to an overweight man who was crying to Dr. Phil how he couldn't lose weight and wanted to be around for his young children. Dr. Phil asked him, "Would you die for your children?" Of course, the man did not hesitate when he answered, "Certainly!" What Dr. Phil asked him next blew my mind. He asked, "Then...why won't you live for them?"

The saying you quoted and this one run along the same lines. Like you, when I was heavier, I was not living...not for me, nor for my kids. I need to repeat that quote to myself now if ever I need a reason not to reach for something I know will not get me closer to my goal weight or when I don't feel like exercising. I want to live a life of joy and health. I want to easily be able to reach down to paint my toes. I want to have the energy to play with my future grandkids. And do so much more.

You are still so young, but you have the right attitude. Keep on doing your Weight Watchers and, before you know it, you will be at goal and living life to your fullest.

LOL...now whose rambling? I tend to do that, too.