Oh, Candy...I totally relate. I think any diet/fitness program is difficult past the initial commitment stage. We have to rethink things...relearn things...and in most cases, rid ourselves of some habits which feel like home to us--even though they hold us back. This isn't easy. Many of us have been behaving this way for YEARS.
This is all to say that you're not alone and I appreciate your words. I'm right there with you! Welcome!