A journey of a thousand miles begins....
with apparently a step, and then sitting down, and then a stumble, and then a huge fall, followed by getting up and brushing yourself off, and then another step....As with everyone this isn't the first time that I've tried the weight loss route. This is however the first time that I've really taken it seriously and asked for help. I'm a 35 year old 5'1" woman who has weighed up to 240lbs. I believe my current weight is 230. I wasn't an overweight child. I was very active and thin. However, I'm truly big boned so always felt like I was fat. Now that I am fat I didn't realize how good I had it. In college through many reasons, most of all depression, I skyrocketed from 135 to over 200 lbs. Over the years I've gone up and down but settled around 240. I've had a lack of relationships, general feeling of being achy and tired all the time, feeling unattractive, embarrassing incidents related to weight, and then more recent diagnosis of hypertension and diabetes. However, nothing really made me serious about weight loss until I woke up one day and realized that I was 35 with no husband or kids and no positive outlook on my future or what I wanted my future to entail. I basically realized that I had a choice. I could either submit to my stagnant existence for the rest of my life or I could get myself to a point where I actually saw a future for myself and looked forward to it.
Now that I've begun to take this seriously I've had several false starts and set backs on my new journey. So after my latest binge fest I decided to throw something else into the mix which includes actually talking to people about it this time. My weight and weight loss troubles are something that I've been ashamed of and always keep to myself. But sometimes the first step to recovery is admitting that you have a problem....out loud...to people who are not yourself or your mother. So here I am. Hopefully this will be one more piece in the puzzle to helping me continue on this path to getting healthy. Time will tell...one day at a time....throw in any other relevant cliche as you see fit
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