Don't you hate those wake up calls?? LOL! I was the same way, I didn't think I was *that* big until I took a 'before' picture of myself and was shocked....uggh....
At least you have made the decision to change, that is the first step! And this place is awesome motivation.
I am also a calorie counter and am finding it to be very successful. There's a lot of menu ideas on the calorie counters thread too!
Best of luck to you, hope to see you around!