[VirgoChic]

Hey guys! (Sorry, after I finished typing I realized how long it was!)

So I'm not exactly new here but I've been lurking a LOT over the last few weeks and figured I should just do an introductory post. Maybe it will be an actual catalyst to my weight loss journey since I'm coming up short on motivation to get started lol.

So for starters, my name is Tisha and I'm a 26 year old RN in New Jersey. I've been overweight pretty much as long as I could remember. My lowest weight that I remember was 150 and that was like in the 6th grade or something. Since then it's just rocketed up to where I am now (345). When I was in high school, I was right at 250, and after I graduated I gained 100lbs in a year. Not even joking. I guess it didn't help that my days consisted of chatting away on yahoo then going out to get dinner consisting of fried shrimp with french fries - and that would be my only meal for the day . I'd follow that up with going straight to sleep. I know, super healthy, right?! lol Anyway, I always figured once I started a full time job as a nurse the weight would start coming off since I'd be fairly active and running around for 12.5 hour shifts. Yeah, so far that plan has failed because the weight is staying put lol. A couple of weeks ago I decided I'd try WW and I did it for a week (coupled with eating something every 2 hours) and I was so surprised when the scale said I had lost 11 pounds! Sadly, in my usual fashion, I must have regressed and now I gained back about 8 of those pounds.

Anyway, point is I need to lose weight and I'm tired of trying and giving up EVEN THOUGH I GET RESULTS. I don't understand why I do that. It has happened every time. When I first moved from the islands to NJ, I lost about 50 pounds in 3 months just by going walking at night. Then I stopped and ballooned back up to where I am now. Then I bought a treadmill and used that for about an hour a few times a week and lost weight easily. Again, I stopped and ballooned back up. I no longer have a treadmill, but I bought an elliptical a few years back and now it sits in the basement collecting dust. In the last few weeks I've bought a WATP dvd and Zumba for my Wii (a Wii in which I bought several months ago in the hope that having a video game for fitness purposes would help and now it collects dust too ).

Well, enough rambling... My name is Tisha, and I have a problem sticking to weight loss with an even bigger problem of being morbidly obese. lol I'd love a few buddies or more to chat with. I always find it so hard keeping up with the new threads. It would be awesome if this site had a chat room but oh well.

Nice to meet you all!

[lagorditadecolorado]

Hi Tisha,

Welcome, I'm new too and just getting started. I don't know, but it might help to put some thought into why you're quitting when it's working? It's almost like you're self sabotaging?

It took forever for me but I finally figured out that I gained most of my excess weight after a couple of bad break ups and realized that I was hiding. It's easy to avoid a relationship, and thus a heartbreak, when you're fat. Despite thinking that I wanted/needed another relationship, I realize now that I wasn't ready for one and wasn't in a healthy place (emotionally) so subconsciously I was protecting myself from the possibility of one. I still don't feel ready for a relationship or really even want one at this point, but I've come to realize what I've done to myself and the consequences of what I have done, and it's not what I want anymore. I want to feel good about myself (all of myself) and I've made a commitment to myself that I won't get in a relationship until I feel ready, but that I need to go about that in a different way.

The point of all that rambling was that I was sabotaging my previous efforts at even considering losing weight because a) I didn't believe in myself but more importantly b) I was protecting myself. So maybe you're doing something similar but with a different reason? It just seems odd that you would quit during success, ya know?

Anyways, again welcome and I wish you success

Shiloh

[VirgoChic]

Hey Shiloh!

I'm sure there's several deep-seated issues that I haven't even discovered for my quitting during success, but since I haven't really thought about it I'll just chalk it up to laziness for now.

I definitely do understand where you're coming from though. I haven't had a relationship in a really, really long time and like you, I don't think I'm ready for one right now because I'm not comfortable with myself yet either. I'll definitely work on figuring out why I keep quitting.

Thanks for the welcome