So I've been reading this forum for about 2-3 months now and I finally decided to join up. I mean, if I'm going to secretly scour up all the advice I can, you should at least be able to get to know me. Here goes!
Long story short, I have always blamed everything else for my weight gain. Today, I really need to stop this. It's not hurting those I blame, it's only hurting me. I was always around 150 pounds, definitely not thin but not too bad for the majority of my teens. Then I went to college, the pizza and beer that I consumed in mass quantities started to effect me. My freshman year, I got so sick that I dropped down to 142 and felt better than ever. Sadly, this was due to my not being able to physically eat solid for for 2 months. Within 6 months I gained it all back, but still wasn't too bad. Then the bad food of the college life set in, I ate anything and everything and drank my way to 190. After graduation two years ago I promised myself I'd try to loose the weight, and try I did. Gym membership, expensive personal training sessions, supplements, etc. In one year I lost 10 pounds, but for the money I put in it wasn't worth it. I lost my job and became very depressed about my future. I ate to make myself feel better.
A new stressful job and a year later and I'm at 194. The only big support I have is my boyfriend who suffered the same depressing fate as I last year, with no job and added family stress. He surpassed 270 two months ago, and as his family has bad hearts and his Dad (300+) has bad sleep apnea, I fear he's going to end up like him. Our relationship is tanking due to our lousy attitudes about life. I need to turn mine around and hopefully motivate him to do the same. We want to get engaged in the next year and marry in about 2, so if I'm ever going to step foot in a wedding dress, I need to start now.
My first goal is to loose 25 pounds by 6/9/12. Why this date you ask? This is my best friend's wedding date and I'm terrified to stand up in the wedding being the 2nd heaviest person there next to my 5'2" 110 lbs friend!
If you've made it this far, I thank you! Any advice or encouragement would be great! My first step is to actually exercise 3-4 times a week at the gym that I pay $40 a month to be a member of and to stop myself from binging when I'm upset. (Just last week I ate buffalo chicken strips, cheese curds and a shake all in one sitting because I was crying! No more food for comfort.)
Thanks Again and I look forward to many a post with you all.
First Post!
I'm def lacking on the food front too. *sigh* Bad day today 
