Hello.... where to start? lol. my name is sammie, i'm 20 years old from Iowa, and i currently live in ontario canada with my boyfriend of 2 years.

i'm joining to help get some support and hopefully some encouragement with trying to get back to my normal weight. i know it's going to be difficult in the area of motivation, but i'm long past due on being ready to do this.

i'm 5'9 215-ish right now. at my peak level of physical fitness from my activity of choice (horseback riding), i was a healthy 175 lbs. i get my build from my father who is not really 'fat' per say, but built like a tank if you will. i am a work-at-home self-employed social media manager right now. after i quit high school and lost my horse to theft, my weight went up pretty fast i guess. at 175 i had a flat stomach and was a size 12-14.

my weight gain went up a bit after i lost my first pregnancy at 9 1/2 weeks back in february. thankfully i lost all the bloat quickly to realise i was 215 lbs (it was my first time stepping on a scale at the hospital when it happened since high school... ouch)

i am hoping to get back down to 175 through a good exercise routine that could spark into a new hobby for me because i really need one, but being a work-from-home girl, it's hard to find the motivation to do this lol. i want to lose the weight to get my confidence back at to be able to shop at normal stores at the mall again. this body just isn't me. i am currently a size 16, 18 on a bad day. hopefully joining this community will open doors to me for new ideas and support to lose this weight and get back to the real me.

Welcome! Have you decided what type of weight loss plan you are going to follow? Count calories, weight watchers??
It is hard for me to get motivated to exercise but I force myself to do it at least three times a week.
Best of luck on this journey!

Welcome, there is plenty of support here. Please feel free to ask advice anytime!

i'm not following a diet or plan, just portion control and cutting out complex fats like greasy food and anything not fresh or homemade + exercising =]

Welcome. I'm sorry for your loss. Actually, I'm sorry for both of your losses. Best wishes as you start this journey.