I figured I would start off my journey with a general first post thats talks about who I am and what my goals are. This is the first time I have tried something like posting on Forums to motivate myself and i'm hoping its the emotional key to finally sticking to my weight loss goals!

So, Who am i?

Well, My name is Jillian and I am 22 years old. I just celebrated my 22nd birthday on March 23rd and i'd have to say it was a bit disappointing. Although i'm really good at portraying myself as a confident and content person, the truth is that I am growing tired of feeling out of place in my own skin.

Even though I have been overweight MY ENTIRE LIFE, I have always felt like it is not really who I am. I don't want to be defined by my weight or how I look anymore. I want to be known for me first and then if my looks happen to enhance that, then I'm okay with that.

I have really great friends that know me inside and out and I don't think that they even really understand how trying it is for me to be constantly dragged down by my weight (figuratively and literally). And my boyfriend of 3 and 1/2 years who is amazing and loves me for who I am doesn't really undestand why I want to lose the weight. See for the first time in my adult life, I am actually happy with who I am and I have my boyfriend to thank for that. He is the first person who was ever actually able to beleive when they tell me they loved me for who I am. And I do believe that he loves me, and I even believe him when he tells me he thinks I'm beautiful. So, if anything, that should at least put me in the right state of mind to get healthy physically.

I have always been the giver in relationships. I am the one that everyone comes to with their problems and I am always there for the people in the my life when they need me to be. So I think its about time i do something for myself for once. Losing weight is no longer what it was when i was in high school. I don't need to do it to fit in or feel liked. I just want to take control of my life for once and make a change that will make me happy about who I am on the inside and out. I want to be that active person I was when i was younger and enjoy everything life has to offer and I just can't do that being almost 100 pounds overweight! So here's what I plan to do about that...

Goal: Get to or around my goal weight by my 23rd birthday!


My goal weight is a number that i have had on my mind for a long time: 125 pounds. I dont think i've been close to 125 pounds since i was in like middle school (which is sad....). But that doesn't matter. When i think of what 125 pounds means, i think of a health and athleticism, vitality, and comfort. Even though I know its a bit extreme, I would love to be as close to my goal weight by March 23rd, 2012. That will be my 23rd birthday. I want to lose weight the healthy way so i can make it into a lifelong habbit of healthy living and maintain my weight loss. I also plan on going on a cruise next year for my birthday so this would be a perfect time to show off what i hope to be a brand new body! However, that is a big goal of losing 90 pounds is about 9 months. That being said, if i dont hit exactly 125 pounds by then that'll be okay but i am very determined and like to set my sights high in hopes that it will be all the motivation i need to shed as much weight as i can. I think its realistic to push myself to lose 10 pounds a month but i understand it takes time and hard work.

Change of pace...

After saying what i have said so far about my negative perception of myself and the hard times i've encountered in the past, i'm turning over a new leaf and getting into a positive mindset from here on out. I can't be successfull with a downer, sorry for myself attitude so i'm moving forward with my life!

I see this as a new beginning and i'm ready to change my life! I'm hoping this forum will give me the motivation and confidence i need to make a real change and I look forward to talking to new people who understand what i'm going through and that i can turn to when i need more support!

Thanks for reading!






Starting weight: 215 lbs (or so)
Goal weight: 125 lbs
Goal Date: 3/23/2012 (9 months)
Pounds to go: 90
Official excercise start date: 4/25/2011!

Good luck!

thanks!

Good luck! It's amazing to have someone who makes you feel loved especially when they love you without having lost the weight (I used to know that feeling but it's gone now but I remember how awesome that feels ) This site's awesome to for motivation and ideas. We're all rooting for you!

I want to wish you the best of luck and throw myself out there as a supporter if you need it!

Im in a very similar state of mind that you are and I am also always the one people turn to and Im always helping other people. Its time we do something for ourselfs.

Good Luck

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Thanks for your post on mine, I thought I would return a favor! I do the same thing, present myself as really confidant but...I am just...not...

We can do this together, because our goals seem very similar (though I do want to lose more) and in around the same amount of time!

so what do you plan on doing to kick things off?

Hi Jillian!
I read your post and like you my guy doesn't care about what shape I'm in. My guy offers support because he knows I have a goal of getting fit, but never has he once mentioned my weight. It will be a journey with ups and downs I am sure.

I have off of work tomorrow and on this day I will start off with an aerobic workout. I'm hoping my area won't get the predicted heavy rain because I'd like to go get some protein powder to add to make my own shakes. In any event, my fridge is stocked with fruits, but I need more veggies than salad. Tonight I went to trader joes for portioned controlled sizes of nuts. Snacking is one of my downfalls so this helps keep me in check. Any way....lots of luck to you on your journey and I'm sure we will cross each other on the boards. I plan to become very active on here.

Chris

Good luck with your efforts!!