I hate the way I just binged about 2.5 calories (I estimate) I never ate so much in a long time, but it just got to me today really bad about how much I suck really.

I feel like I been on this track of going up and down 190-200 for the past two weeks, well I guess I weigh 194 pounds right now after that binge in real weight, since this morning I weigh 193.

I am going to have to fast tomorrow to feel better about myself.... but I am sick of this constant battle of being overweight for the past 4 years. Enough is enough! I want real control over my weight!

I need to get this off shoulders because I am going to be self-defeating myself, and I have to go back to believing I can stop this tomorrow.



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