It's me Chrys again. I fell from my path and wandered away from my true goals letting things get in my way, ruin my days, weeks, months. Letting me destroy myself from the inside out.
I have trecked through the jungles of my own insanity and found my road again. And it brought me back.
I am Chrys, I am a compulsive over eater, 292lbs. And a horrible wreck. I cry myself to sleep every night because I can't stand who I am anymore. I am bi-polar but as of late, only extremely depressed. I feel myself slipping, spiraling down toward something I hate more and more. The pain I bear, both physically, emotionally, and mentally is nearly unbearable. But i know there is only one answer, and it's not at the bottom of this pit I have dug.
It is time for me to climb once again out of this pit, and this time fill it in for good. bask in the light that is my hopes of a future I can face, and love. I've come back to try again, and to find help and support I so desperately need.
And I know i sound jumbled, I still cannot put my true thoughts into the words that would do them justice, so they come out sounding like rants and ramblings or an insane woman. Sorry I'm working on it. And thank you if you read this far