
KSS ~ there are many ladies here that know how easy it is to gain weight with children and you've had five ... and the grieving process can take its toll on all of us too! Take heart that all is not lost and you can start again, one step at a time, one day at a time. You have started on a very low calorie plan; if you find it too strict up it a bit to about 1400-1600 or even 1800 caloreis a day instead. It is easier to come down from there than start too low and hit a wall ...
There are lots of great people here that can offer you support and encouragement too; come back often as that really helps!
PS ~ we have a Faith Forum here; and a daily thread there called Christian Encouragers -- if you are interested ...