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I have been struggling with my weight for my entire life when i got pregnant with my son i weighted 150 and wore a size 9-11 juniors, did not look too bad dressed but in a swiming suit it was another thing, horrible legs full of celulite, my lowest weight has been 110-115 and i loved it looked awesome but it did not last, after starting birth control my weight skyrocketed, and after a year and a half i stoped the birth control, 4 months later i finally stoped gaining weight and have been able to loose some , when i decided to take off the birth control i was gaining about 3-5 pounds a month and ended up at a wooping 175 pounds and could not take it anymore, nothing fits me, i have a closet full of cute stuff and nothing fits and my self steem is terrible, that is more than what i weighted when i delivered my son, i have done rapid weight loss diets and it always comes back and i look worse, so this time i have taken time to do research of healthy eating, metabolism and excercice, started walking last week feel great, have lost some weight not much but i am thankfull i feel bether, i want to loose 58 pounds, by my birthday in december and my short term goal is to have lost 40 by august the 30th my sons 3rd b-day, to be a size seven will be great and not have those horrible love handles, i know it takes work and courage and i want to do it for me, for my family , iwant to be fit and healthy, i only have two size 17 pants and a size 18 i am twice as big as i used to be and want to reclaim by body, will be posting my progress, i am very proud of all the ladies in this forum and you are my inspiration, everytime i want to give up i will come here to read your stories and continue.