Firstly, welcome!
To me it sounds like your biggest thing is time. In this case, my best suggestion is to prepare and do what you can with what you have.
One thing you said is that you don't have time for a proper breakfast. If you absolutely must have a quick breakfast, don't eat something like pop tarts or donuts or something. Good alternatives are things like wholesome granola bars with lots of different grains (not the mostly sugar and granola kind), or a handful of something like nuts, they have fat but they are packed with protien. Another good quick breakfast is a banana, its kind of like nature's 100 calorie pack (depending on the size but on average...) and you don't have to 'make' it you just grab one and eat it.
You have established that you can't control what you are given for lunch at school, and I don't know how meals compare in the UK from US, but really, it is up to you how much of it you eat. In my opinion however, US school lunches were puny and tasted icky, so I didn't eat much of them anyway. However going on what Aclai4067 said, one thing you might be able to do is find out the foods and their servings and look up the common calorie content for them online.
The one thing it does sound like you have control over is supper time. I don't know your living situation, but one thing that has helped me is letting my family know what I am working towards and asking them to work with me. I got my mom to mostly stop buying pop (for a while anyway, my dad wouldn't put up with it) and my mom does tons of home cooking, so I have no idea sometimes what all is in the food, so I have been using portion control as my main plan for now.
As for exercise, I know just what you are saying about it being dark out early etc. I am in college and my classes go until 8 in the evening sometimes. My problem is opposite yours, I live in rural country land, so I don't go running because it is so sparse that it's not likely that someone would see me if something happened. I am guilty of not being very active as a result, but others advice to me that I will pass on to you is to use all the time you can. You don't have to have a gym to exercise. Did you know cleaning is one of the most rigorous/calorie burning home activities you can do? Also, little things add up. Someone told me that they did just small sessions of say 10 mins of exercise in the house and held canned goods as weights for example. Anything that keeps you moving.
You said you would be afraid what your mom would think if she knew how much you weighed, but really, you and your mom are two different people. With everything being said, if you are 5 foot 7.5 inches, that is a very tall frame, and 135 is pretty darn slim! I can understand the stress of gaining when you are used to a certain weight, but you have to be careful about distorted body image, and I think that you pretty clearly pointed out that you might be going through some of that when you said you dont look fat but you feel fat. My thought, is that you are only 16. You are still growing, and you are still changing and you are still learning, (I don't think we every stop doing that) and please please PLEASE don't ever think that what is challenging you now defines who you are, or for that matter, that your weight defines who you are. If someone told me at 16 what things would be like for me now (I'm 21) I would call them crazy. One final thought for you, I would look into some of the many support groups on this site...There are a LOT of support groups and TONS of information on this site that you can use to your benefit to find out just what you want to do for sure.
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New...I want to be able to do this so much.
