I'm beatific and i'm going to try to lose weight with some support this time. Don't get me wrong, my friends and family don't want me to fail at whatever I put my mind to, but losing weight is something I can't talk to them about. Either it's too emotionally charged, and nothing productive comes out of talking to them, or they've never had a weight problem and don't understand my specific issues.
Some background: I'm 22, graduated college in the spring and just landed my first 'adult' job. I've always struggled with my weight, in a sense, because I've felt fat for most of my life (even when I most definitely was NOT). In college, I avoided the Freshman 15, I even lost about 20 pounds. It came back with a vengeance, however, when I gained back 50 (!) pounds, including 10 of them in one month. July 2008 marked the first time I had ever weighed 200 or more pounds. Near the end of senior year, the scale read 210. July 2009 marked a change in my mindset. I can't explain it, except to say that felt a peace and control over myself that I've never felt before. I lost about 10 pounds this summer, (but gained some of it back when I moved back in with my parents
), and I'm sitting around 200 lbs. Anyway, enough of my rambling. I can't wait to meet people here and share our stories.
