Newbie Introduction
Hi everyone.
I'm Jenn, 25 yrs old, full time mom, college student and work 2 part time jobs from home. I also take on odd jobs, like babysitting, pet sitting and house cleaning.
I've always had weight issues. Growing up I wasn't a big girl in any way, but I was never thin enough, never pretty enough. My dad would degrade me alot, telling me that all my friends were prettier or skinnier then I was. So I used to run 6 miles a day, do 300 crunches and 300 push ups a day. I had a 6 pack and my arms and legs were nothing but muscle. I became that girl that every guy wanted to be with, and every girl hated. But it still wasn't good enough for my dad to tell me that I was pretty, there was always someone better. So I became anorexic. I trained my body and mind to ignore the hunger pains and work out more instead. I would wake up 3 times a night and get on the floor and do crunches and push ups. I would have 1 snack size pack of pretzels and 1 can of Sprite a day, that was all the "food" I would eat a day and some days I would not eat completely. I would get sick many times and pass out while jogging or just taking a hot shower.
I went on like that for 3 yrs like that, till I found out I was pregnant in 2004, I knew that I could put my unborn child through that, but then I had to go on 6mnths of bed rest, because of major complication with my pregnancy. While on bed rest I gained almost 75lbs, after having my child I went through a devestating divorce and custody process, I lost custodial rights to my daughter. I became depressed, and ate away my sorrows. In 2005 I became pregnant with my son, and didn't gain any weight during that pregnancy, I was actually 5lbs less the day before I delivered my son then I was when I got pregnant.
My son is 3 yrs old and I'm still the same weight I was when I gave birth to him. There have been many times that I've lost 30-40lbs but then I go through something stressful or emotional and I gain in back...or sometimes I just give up because it's too much work. But this time I'm determined to lose weight, I've decided recently that I need to focus on myself, I need to do what makes me happy. I hope that I can find some support and tips through this forum.
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