PART 2
THINGS I LEARNED…
By early to mid 2008, I was right back where I was in 2005. After enjoying over a year of compliments on how much weight I had lost, I got lazy, complacent and ultimately miserable. I must say though, I did pick up some good habits from my initial weight loss journey from back in 2005/2006:
1. I cut waaaaay back on sugar, fruit juices, white wine etc
2. Cut back on simple carbohydrates (White bread, white pasta etc)
3. Learned to ‘enjoy’ running
4. I CAN work out regularly – there are relatively few reasons for NOT working out which are actually valid (too busy, too tired, bad day, no time)
CHALLENGES…
Obviously, however, all the things I learned DIDN’T stick
, which is one of the reasons I’m back to where I started. I have a few specific challenges/issues which some of you may or may not share:
1. I have a ‘treat’ mentality – if I have a good day food wise, I believe I should be ‘entitled’ to treat myself. I know this is OK from time to time, but for me this became too frequent!
FoI need to learn how to eat a meal and be satisfied.
2. Eating/snacking in front of the television after work – I once tried eating at my dining table with the TV off and it actually does work – I just need to do this more often
3. Binging – I live on my own so I don’t have any real ‘accountability’ to anyone but myself
4. LOVE good food (I guess we all do
); good wines and cheeses, ‘proper’ Caribbean food (rice and peas, jerk chicken, hardough bread etc)
5. I HATE weighing myself or knowing how heavy I really am, and really get discouraged when I have weeks where there is NO or very little weight loss. It is also for this reason I HATE going to my GP. Therefore, even when I was losing weight back in 2005/2006, I asked my PT not to tell me my actual weight, but just tell me how much I was losing by. I do know all the reasons why we shouldn’t weigh ourselves too often, and I concur, but I was/am simply in denial. One thing I have noticed with all the members of 3FC is that people display their weights. I know it can’t be easy, but it is one of the best ways (I have come to understand) to chart progress. Therefore, if I do have a bad week because perhaps I know I’ve gone slightly off course, I can be accountable for that and make changes where necessary/appropriate.
6. I am an emotional eater. Seriously. I used to hear/read about people saying this but didn’t realise I was exactly the same. For example, I was really pissed off after my fitness camp last night because the instructor just kept shouting at me (so it seemed) and didn’t seem to recognise when I am working hard. Plus, I have had a cold this week and dragged myself there even though I was coughing quite a lot. I know I just need to suck it up and get over myself because I need to lose the weight; not him, but it made me cross so for the first time in about 4 months I ordered a pizza, dough balls, toffee/apple cake and diet pepsi. I instantly regretted it the minute the delivery man came to my door (no doubt assuming he was delivering for a group of people – it was a LARGE pizza) but ate some of the food anyway. Well, half way through I realised it didn’t taste that good anyway and stopped because I was full. I only had about 4 slices. I threw away the rest of the food but kept the diet pepsi and ate some of the toffee cake. Destructive behaviour really. And I was disgusted with myself but pleased I had the good sense to ditch the rest of the food. All because I was feeling a little sorry for myself.
7. Discipline/motivation. Once I really start to see results, I have tendency to become slightly complacent...