Hi everyone!
I spent most of yesterday and today lurking around this board, and I must say there are so many amazing stories and the amount of love and support here is so attractive! I often find forums that I'll lurk around, read what I want, and then leave but I felt different about you all so here I am as a newly registered member.
I have battled with my weight for pretty much ever... I was a chunky girl in Catholic school, feeling out of place around my skinny classmates in our uniforms... during my teenage years I go heavily involved in an alternative music related scene and used a lot of drugs--this kept my weight down around 125-130, I was 117 at my lowest when I got clean at 18 years old. I've been in recovery for nearly 5 years now and have managed to gain (I could throw up right now, thinking about/confronting it) 60 LBS!
I am a full time student, about to graduate in May (ohmy!); I am in a long-term relationship (a little over 4 years now) and we live together. My family is, well, dysfunctional. I've basically been taking care of myself for a long, long time...
Last year, I realized one day how sick of myself I was and at about 167 lbs I got my *** to the gym and started logging my food... I lost 20 lbs in about 6-8 weeks... then I took a vacation, got out of my habits, then when the fall semester commenced, I got "too busy" to work out. I gained all of that weight back, plus the rest...
I just finished this semester (now a year later) and went back to the gym yesterday... and I went again today... and I'll go again tomorrow. I know what it's like to make progress and I want so badly to feel good about myself again...
::sigh::
Ok-- that was long winded, I know... but I wanted to give myself the chance to let some of that out.
Thanks for listening!
for how you are feeling about yourself right now. 
to help you stick to your new resolve to get healthy again!
