Hi Mary!

Welcome to our site, glad you found us. I totally know what you mean, I'm the same way up down up down. It's so difficult on our bodies, and mind, but luckily its great having an online family of support that understands how hard it is to lose the weight for the first time or the 100th!
There is so many different forums to look at, and alot of great information from real people on different diets. In the beginning I checked around all of them reading through chats until I decided on what I wanted to try, and then joined that chat! Everyone is very welcoming and understanding.

You can do it!!