[Annita]

hi everyone,
i've been lurking around 2 weeks ago, but just now decided to post an introduction thread.

I have to say, i'm so glad i found 3fatchicks. I've been addicted to this forum since the 1st time i walked my finger in here and thanks to this website, i can keep up my challenge everyday because i know there are ppl watching over my progress, and besides, i wouldn't want to disappoint myself if i lose track. (you know, where it's only in your mind, you probably don't notice that you lose track - or not really guilty, but if it's written down and you can actually see clearly that you're doing wrong with your plan then it's another story )

Anyways, my name is Ann and i'm a 20 year-old girl (gonna turn 21 in this NOv 2008). Honestly, compare to other people, i don't have much to lose (or actually as some can say i don't need to lose any -.-). But here's my story.

I've been doing diet (actually, starved myself - like, eating 1 time/day) since when i was in 7th grade (jr.high). The reason is because i live and grew up in an Asian country, where every girl around me is just super skinny (plus short). If there is someone who's same my height, they probably are models (so needless to say, they are skinny =.=). Since when i was in jr.high, everyone arounds me said something like this to me "wow you're fat" "you're so huge" just because i'm taller than most of everyone (even boys). (My height is 171 cm, not super tall, but definitely can't say that i'm short - especially compare to asian). Even my aunts would everytime comment my weight whenever she saw me ("are you gaining ? you probably shouldn't gain any more" (when my weight was only like 114 pounds). That idea has been imprinted in my head that i'm fat. (my aunts are still saying things like that to me now).

And because of everyone kept telling me the same thing, I just can't help it but think that way too. I can't see in the mirror that i'm perfect and have nice body. I've never wore a bikini (my swimsuit are always t-shirt + skirt style), never feel confident when wearing sexy clothes. ANd, well, here i am, here and being on a diet again.

But this time, i'm doing it differently. Thanks to 3FC that i can see my wrong doing of starving myself. I will eat normally, small portion, and do more exercises. Thanks to 3FC that i can keep track and stay on doing some sit ups and hula waist everyday (been working daily for 3 weeks now), and remember myself to eat (i still have little bit of eating disorder when i forget to eat, but i'm changing). So i hope i can stick to this habbit and have my confident on my future tone-up body (lol).

Sorry the post is quite long. I just want to get this reason out because i've been struggling on it for over 10 years now >.<

btw, currently i'm 127 pounds and my goal is 115 pounds. I just set it as my goal, but actually what i really want is my body to tone up and more muscles instead of some fat area. I have pear shape so my lower part is quite big so i want to tone up my thigh and ab. ^^ I hope everyone will be on my side and cheer for me =^^= TY all <3

[bargoo]

At 127 you are not overweight, if you reach your goal of 115 you will be underweight.

[Annita]

^^ 115 is just a number i think it's cool and i probably would feel confident with it. (0.5 underweight i don't think it's really matter besides i'm not really believe BMI is exactly for everyone's situation XD)

[vixjean]

Well we welcome you regardless if you are trying to be healthier. No one wants you to starve and be sick, but we all want you to eat well and healthy.
I think we should still welcome you because you have dealt with the same comments that we have, and feel pain just the same.
Anyway, have you thought of your ideal body? Maybe you want to lose those darn 13 lbs or maybe you just want to tighten up with workouts. Either way, no reason to be underweight, but your right about fluctuations being different for each person.
Just don't forget that we are here to support health! WELCOME!

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[chick_in_the_hat]

Are you already doing weight training? Muscles take up less space than fat per pound. And they look hot, too.

[vixjean]

yeah, what she said!

[Cmint]

Welcome Annita ! I'm sorry that those close to you ( and others) placed it in your head at such a young age that you are fat. Because at 5'7 clearly you can NOT be. I'm glad that you are taking charge of you eating and want to eat healthier. We all need to do that.
Muscle do rock ! Remember if you seem to weight more when you are weight training it's because muscle weight more than fat.

[djay]

It is good that you want to eat healthy. Continuing to starve yourself will actually hurt your matabolism and make it hard to keep your weight down. I don't know if you are being realistic about what your weight should be. You might want to stay off of the scale. Work on getting your muscles tone and the weight won't matter.