[just for me]

I found this site today after determining that I am depressed about loosing weight. my journey started 2 months ago when I found out that my blood presure was elivated and blood sugars were out of control. my family doctor put me on a high protien diet and the drug adepex. I have found both to be very effective. Now going into my third month, I feel worse about my appearence than ever before. I hear from everyone how great I look and I play the part of a success story, but really don't feel that way. I have been arguing with my husband lately because of all people he doesn't seem to have noticed that half of me disappeared. I have found myself trying to sabatoge my own success by eating what I shouldn't and not walking or being as active as I was when I first started loosing. I am not sure if should go back to my family doctor or what at this point. Anyone else experience this or in the process of dealing with it?

[Holdensmom]

I have battled depression most of my life. I know now that I'm losing, I'm angry with myself for waiting so long. I'm also more aware of the fat if that makes any sense. I never used to look in the mirror (below my neck) very much, now I do all the time to see if I can tell where I'm losing weight. I have more of a heightened sense of self awareness if that makes any sense. So sometimes I do get a little down, but I try to focus on the positives- losing weight and being healthier. That's really exciting. Depression can be very serious and if you are depressed see someone. If left untreated it only gets worse.

[fireflytrance]

If you don't want to lose anymore weight you could talk to your family doctor about it and tell them you want to stop. It may also be the high protein diet that is making you depressed so maybe a different diet would work better? I would definately talk to your doctor though.

[tooaud2]

I also have battled with depression most of my life. I would definetly talk to your doctor about it. However, if he decides to try you on an antidepressent be aware that most of them cause weight gain. This doesn't mean you shouldn't take them. You might want to weigh the pros and cons with your doctor and there is one wonderful drug called Wellbutrin that does not cause wieght gain. But different people react differently to different drugs. I love Wellbutrin but alot of people have bad reactions to it but that's the way with all drugs.
But drugs aren't the only option it sounds as if you may have a lot of resentment towards your husband and sharing with people in this forum is a great way to release some of that. You may also want to consider a support group or an individual conselor. Remember that there are a lot of issues that we as dieters have buried under food and now that we are losing weight they are coming to the surface. We also had a layer of fat to hide behind allowing us to not have to face ourselves or the world.
When you are trying to sabatoge yourself ask yourself if you will really feel better if you eat that food or if you don't go for that walk. In the long run you are only punishing yourself not your husband.
Hang in there and keep talking about your feelings.