I have lost control of myself, if I ever had it.
I don't typically just feel sorry for myself. Here I am this morning feelinf stupid, embarressed, humiliated that I can't regain the control I once had to lose and maintain my weight. Food has become my comfort. It's difficult to find a salad I can take comfort in, so last night I ate 14 cookies and a pint of ice cream.
I'm mortified, and what's worse-scared. I see myself getting bigger, don't feel good, have high cholesterol, not proud of my body, not as social as I once was, and now am beginning to see my 10 year old develop some of the habits with food that I've modeled for him. I am so ashamed.
I don't know where to start today, so I'll start here. I'm looking for a community that understands to surround myself with while I figure out the physical part.
I'm typically upbeat-I know hard to tell here-I just can't get there today.