Hi Sue!
Welcome!
It sounds like you need to take a DEEP BREATH and just R-E-L-A-X! You have a lot on your plate at this moment and may need to take stock if whether this is a good time to take on weight loss, too! I say this because I KNOW that my previous weight loss efforts stalled because I just was NOT ready for all the extra effort that they entailed! I was stressed out from work, from my family, from LOTS of things! To add attempting weight loss on top of all those things was a recipe for failure!
I found that I really needed to get selfish for the first time in my life in order to do this weight loss thing! I'm 55, and I knew that it was now or never for me if I was going to begin to stand up for myself and do what I needed to do to get the ball rolling!
We're here for you no matter what, but you may want to get a piece of paper and a pencil and write down why you want this. Writing down your reasons can help to solidify in your mind how committed you are and also if you have a plan.
Read the many, many posts here from all of us! I'm sure that they will help you come up with reasons to lose weight but, more importantly, WAYS that will help you to be successful at it.
Good Luck!
Cheryl