Hi,
Just want to introduce myself and let you know I'm here. This site is impressive but lots to figure out.
I'm 42, happily married for 19 years, 5 wonderful kids (ages 5 to 18 yrs), and I live in Alberta, Canada. I am a stay at home Mum with a Network Marketing Home Business. Also, have lived with Fibromyalgia for the past 12 years and am surviving!!
Since our youngest daughter was born in 2001 I've gained 32 pounds and am tired of feeling exhausted and being sick. My ideal (healthiest) weight is 160 pounds and when I am there I have fantastic energy and my health is more stable. Right now, I'm really struggling. I have very few clothes that fit, I am uncomfortable sitting (because of all the abdominal fat), my asthma is aggravated (always worse when I weigh more) and climbing the stairs causes me to be breathless! I am a former WW Lifetime Member who has tried just about every diet out there. (I've learned they all work if you follow the system!!)
I've realized that the reason the weight keeps coming back is because I need to deal with underlying issues, the reasons why I binge, make poor food choices, and don't exercise, etc. I think for me it is a combination of low self-worth and lack of self-discipline. (I want to take the easy road of eating whatever I want, whenever I want...Unfortunately this is only making me miserable.) Historically I've used food to nurture, reward, punish and mostly to stuff down uncomfortable feelings. Learning to 'Be' means allowing my feelings to 'Be' and NOT stuffing any more (feelings or food, that is!).
I'm here because I choose to be honest with myself and I need accountability to others about the lifestyle choices I am making (or not making). I've struggled with a negative self-image and weight for 30 years and I'm not going to spend the next 30 years doing the same! Now it is time for me! I'm really excited about what's ahead of me; a new chapter is starting in my life and I can hardly wait to get writing!!
Thanks for listening,