[JNW]

Hello to everyone.
I have been looking online on a lot of sites, and this seems like a good place for me to start. I am looking to lose about 40 pounds, which I know won't be easy. I have lost a lot of weight in the past, but it slowly (actually, rapidly) piled back on. I have a very all-or-nothing personality, so it is hard for me to give myself a little bit of slack without just letting loose and falling off the band-wagon completely. I am not sure how I feel about the fact that I am convinced that I would be totally happy if I were 40 pounds lighter. Why can't I just be happy with me no matter what??? I need to find inner happiness and be certain that I can be happy with myself no matter what. I think if I felt that kind of peace, then I would be able to be entirely committed to losing the weight. Until then, I will keep engaging in self-sabotaging behaviors and will continue to isolate myself from my friends and family because I feel unhappy about the way I look and feel.
Here's to a new year, a new you, and a new me!!

[ellencrn]

i know how you feel. you must feel good to yourself before you can obtain your goals. that is my goal for the year. i think the weight will come off easier and that will be a bonus!