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Originally Posted by Sansfilter
You are all so helpful. I just need to get this out to people who will understand. I'm having a rough couple of days with my mom in the hospital. I am responsible for making medical decisions when she can't, and she can't right now. I really, really wanted to pick up fast food for comfort and because I'm just spent. I didn't. I went home and made pork loin, couscous and corn for the man, and cauliflower for me. But - I just ate a snack off-plan. I don't feel better. In fact, my tummy is full. Despite that, my brain keeps saying, "go get more". I am going to bed soon, which will turn off that emotional eating voice. I wish I would have done it earlier. I'm in P3 and so close to maintenance. This moment has reminded me of just how important this group is for support. I know I could do better. I also know I could have done worse. It's my goal to be conscious but kind to myself during this time. Thank you all for your honesty. It makes a difference.
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I seriously understand where you are coming from. My mom has been the hospital 5 times since November, three times in rehab. She lung cancer, recurring breast cancer and dementia. She is home alone and not a mement of the day I am not worried about her. It is the absolute worst stress I've ever been through!
Hang in there! If you need to vent PM me. Let me know if there is anything I can do to help! Stay strong.