I posted a big, long message yesterday, but it's disappeared!
I wanted to come on re-post what I had sent yesterday, so I will do my best to put all the points in I wanted.
First off, congratulations on coming back and thank god your health scare/issues are somewhat resolved and that you survived.
Your story really struck a chord with me, as we have very similar stories. I had a major car accident a year ago that really shook me up, made me realize that my life is so precious and that I need to ensure I am doing everything possible to be around for myself, my husband and most importantly my two beautiful children. I also have a very beautiful 4 year old daughter who I fear is following in my footsteps, weight wise and I want to be a good example to her, to do my very best to ensure she does not have the same problems that plagued me as a child.
I started taking a hard look at myself in March 2012, I was a very similar weight to you and was just overwhelmed by what I had to do, it was difficult to be so discouraged and I had spent years being discouraged. My weight is the one area where I have NEVER been successful, but closing in on my 35th birthday, I knew I had to do it now. Between March and August, I was able to lose about 40 lbs through various methods, but it wasn't until I found IP in August and decided to finally take control of myself and my life that I really noticed changes.
I've lost almost 100lbs over the last 9 months and feel great. I'm smaller than I've ever been and I'm healthy. I'm 20 lbs from my goal weight and I NEVER, EVER expected to be successful at weight loss, yet here I am.
You can do this! And to be honest, the title of your post really hurt my heart. There should NEVER be a walk of shame and one of the things I'm trying so very hard to overcome is the negative self talk. I've always said that as long as I keep trying and never give up, that there is hope. And eventually something will click and you will do and achieve what you want.
So please, don't ever be ashamed. You've made the biggest step and for that, you should be proud.
Let me know, as someone who has been in a very similar situation, if you want to chat further. I'm only a PM away and good luck.
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