[EveLHaelf]

Starfish

aphimira

Jacquie

dragonwoman

Thank you!!!!!

It's so great to hear from other gals about this topic. And it makes total sense that looking at that crap usually isn't something personal or 'intimate.' I've been trying to take it more lightly and we even do watch it together sometimes. ::sigh:: It's going to take quite a while, but I feel I'm making progress. I know my man is faithful to me, I am just so insecure on the inside and that is majorly something I need to work on. But thank you ladies for your input it really helped me feel better and get a better grip on the situation!

[GradPhase]

I have an empty whiney weight related rant too.

I'm doing SBD *though not ENTIRELY OP, it's just too EFFING difficult to buy fresh produce in this town and I can't bring myself to eat out of a tin can daily, knowing the carcinogen side effects of aluminum* as well as the C25K and the 100 push up/200 sit up challenges. Though I only started the work out regime today -- I've only lost TEN lbs in TWO months. I'm 20 years old, and I can't wear tank tops or short sleeve shirts at all because of my AWFUL stretch marks down my upper arms. Every time I shower all I see is STRETCH MARKS. My BREASTS, my SIDES, my THIGHS. It just absolutely breaks my heart to even think about it also being what DBF sees.

I just got out of a long shower after our 4th of July festivities, and all I have to show for my hard work so far is STRETCH MARKS, and SORE CALVES! I just want to CRY!

It feels like this is never, ever, going to actually happen. I will never, ever, have that 20 year old, young, fit body I would love to deserve. I feel it's holding me back from a social life - and from being myself. And tonight it's just sooo overwhelming....

[dutchgirl]

Originally Posted by nooch

Also, I have family members who were perfectly content with the status quo of me as the black sheep fat girl and they are now very unhappy. Apparently I'm a big snob because I go to the gym and I am eating less fast food.

That is their problem. Don't allow them to make it yours. You are doing great and you are doing it for you and you alone. It is your body, your health!
Most likely they are very jealous, you are succeeding at something they wish they could.
And they can, if only they put in the effort and dedication you are bringing to this.
You go, girl!
Don't let the small minds get to you!