girl81- Thanks so much! THings are still frustrating... back up to 199lbs.... At least I am less than 200? I feel like I am eating very healthy and exercising like a crazy person only to have my weight stay the same! VERY hard to not start on a binge.... I'm not losing any weight, might as well eat cookies right? NO! I have starting crossfitting 5--7 times a week and running as well... maybe the using the weights at the gym have made me put on muscle mass? I was still hoping to lose a lot more fat...

how are you doing girl81?

nic,

I bet you are gaining muscle with crossfit. Congrats! :) And forget those crappy cookies; you deserve yummy fresh good fuel after all that hard work.

I am feeling very blessed and taking it one day at a time. Are you a Christian if I may ask?

girl81 currently I do not consider myself a Christian. That being said- I was raised in the united church and was baptized by a catholic priest

I too have struggled since I was 13 yrs old with self image based on the scale.
I have been close to anorexia at age 19 (117 lbs 5ft6") then occasional bulimia until at age 27 got pregnant with my daughter and never did that again,happy
with my 140lb weight after my daughter and even after my son was born 6yrs later,then through much stress at age 35-38 went into complete menopause and gained 25lbs now I yo yo and I just dont want to be controlled by food anymore.I want to figure this out for good and be free from any kind of binge eating and I believe only with GODS help I can do anything. May God Bless ALL of you in your journey to not be controlled by food

I am so happy I found this thread! I have been struggling for years with binging after I do so good for weeks just to gain back everything I have lost. I know the binging makes me feel horrible (mentally and physically) but I can't seem to control myself. I am so close to my goal (10-15lbs) and just want to stop this cycle. I will definitely be reading the older posts and checking in here often for support.

I lost 60 pounds from december, im so close to my dream weight (only 15 pounds left) but this last week i have been binging like crazy, i even considered purging (luckily i was't able to throw up so i gave up).
I need support from you guys to get back to my diet.

i may suffer BED, i have an appointement with a terapist next week, i hope i cant get past this last step.

ups, double post :(

I'm quite glad I found this thread. I was anorexic and have always had a bad body image. As I child, I was grwoing very fast until I was 13, then it more or less stopped. But I was bad at PE-classes and the teachers in elementary school dealt with it badly. I also developed early and even though people say I'm rather delicate today and I don't have a lot of curves, I still have the feeling of being "too voluptous". I could never make myself throw up, so for a few years I did "chew and spit".
My eating is normal now, I don't binge, but my body image still isn't good. It was better for a few years, until I had knee surgery in 2012. Now I would at least like to get down to 110 or 108 lbs because I used to be that weight for quite a long time. However, I can't tell anyone here because nobody would understand it. I don't want to be anorexic again, especially since we want children, but I would like to be a little slimmer and more toned.

I have let my weight slip again to below 95lbs. I refuse to accept that. I am going to trample this demon and live a normal life with the Holy Spirit in Jesus' Name. What a waste of time it is to worry about number of miles run. I get so obsessed. The amount of exercise I do doesn't determine my worth; the amount of love I give to God, others, and my self does.

Goal of the week: 5 miles/day MAX.

I have been way overexercising and I am ready to love my temple and be kind to it.
Anyone else want to post a goal and hold eachother accountable with encouragement? :)

Hi I'm back again after jumping off the wagon. I've gained back 8 of the 17 lbs I've recently lost. Having some motivation issues here. I have binged crazy-like during the last month. SO MANY FEELINGS! I hate being controlled by food, obsessed with food, worried about food, consumed with food. If I am to be successful at removing this bad habit (binge cycle) then I have to replace it with a good habit. But what if my unhealthy food consumption serves a purpose - to calm anxiety, soothe fears, comfort loneliness? What do I replace that with? Not drugs, not alcohol (I don't drink but if I did I'm sure I'd be an alcoholic by now.) What then? Or, if I just need to feel those feelings - yikes. I am seriously considering going to OA. I'm in the pre-contemplative stage. There are all sorts of body types in OA. Anyhoo. Even though I don't know you ladies (and men?) I love you all. Sending hugs.

Redon, do you exercise? I find it is a great outlet (when done in moderation).

Yes, low intensity walking with dog 5x/week, 45 mins. But my stress eating cancels out all those calories I just burned lol!! Just started DD in preschool today... Hopefully my stress will go down. She is very spirited, and not always in a good way. Demanding, screaming, oppositional. She has sensory defensiveness so I need to help her regulate her emotional responses to perceived threatening stimuli. I end up being her emotional punching bag during the day. She sees an OT 1x/week, but wow! DD's anxiety issues are running me into the ground.

*hugs* Redon.

anyone still here?