August Feather's Chat
 

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This is going to be a busy month for me. I have three parties to prepare for my son's birthday. He has one big party, a family party, and a bigger family party. This year we also took the summer off from school, usually we homeschool year-round. We will be starting back-up mid August.

Anything big planned for your Augusts?

Hey everyone, thought I'd join in with the new thread. I've felt kinda homeless on the forum this summer and have just been lurking, since I've had a put up a bit of a mental block about pretty much being a featherweight and a maintainer now. Still, I really miss posting regularly in the 'getting out of the...' threads and I figured it was time to get over it and accept that I'm a featherweight now, no matter how strange it seems.

Aspen13, wow, three parties is a lot to plan! Good luck with that. Lol, I mainly hope to spend August recovering from last month. I took two trips (one for two weeks) and getting back into the grove can be hard. Its amazing how quickly things pile up at work and how easily you can end up a bit above your red line (In the low 140s now :o, going to work on that).

Did my eighth 3.1 mile jog today - 29:07, woot! On a wounded big toe, no less - tore it a bit yesterday doing lunges I guess. It feels like some kind of a milestone to be able to stay committed despite a mild injury; that or I've lost my mind! Managed to do two strength workouts this week that were very challenging without overdoing it.

Our anniversary was very nice, indulged in a dessert of deep-fried bananas and vanilla ice cream - so what?! It was worth it. ;)

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@aspen13: Oo, birthday parties! I love making the cakes.

@flashfacts: Welcome to the thread and welcome to being a featherweight! You've done an incredible job with your weight, kudos! I read your post about being in the land of the unknown; I can relate. Maintaining is a full-time job and we have to stay in the game to keep with it. That's why I keep logging in and posting! I don't know if I really belong here or in Maintainers, but whatever. Being here somewhere is important, I think, to staying focused.

ack, I've been quiet because I haven't felt very successful lately and am waiting to get back under the "high" weight that's listed on my ticker, lol! Mostly because of a TON of social events and I haven't been able to get my "diet groove" on. My weight is a few pounds over my high weight on here. Weighed in at 152 this morning, but at least I had lost a pound since last week. AND I'm going on vacation in a few days for a week, so I don't imagine I'll be doing any active losing (I'm going to work hard not to overdo any eating so that I don't gain at least and I'm going to be able to get exercise in).

Hope everyone is doing well! Everyone is so quiet these days!

Hi everyone,

I am back in NY for less than 24 hours before I head to Cape Cod.

Tennessee and Georgia were lots of fun! Went sailing, boating, to the Chattanooga aquarium, had a picnic at a park, had some drinks, caught up with old friends. I went to Planet Fitness w/my friend and ran on a treadmill at the hotel last night, food has been whack, but pooping has been INCREDIBLE. So much poop. No idea what I weigh. No real desire to know either. I doubt I have gained much fat.

Hello there! I'm back from Disneyland. We got home Friday night and I weighed in at 141--6 pounds more than when I left. The weight has been steadily coming off and this morning I was 136. I can handle that, but the initial gain was shocking. Of course, it had to be mostly water. But I ate all kinds of delicious, junky amusement park food. Got in lots of walking though (who am I trying to kid?) :dizzy: I go back to work on 8/21 and am just trying to relax and enjoy the last days of vacation. I also need to get shopping done for my kids to go back to school. I hope everyone is well and enjoying what remains of summer.

We sure are quiet lately on this thread! Must be having too much fun. ;)

We're overcome with tomatoes right now - literally hundreds in the field! I've been enjoying yummy Greek salads with delicious tomatoes and cucumbers most days. Ambrosia melons are now coming ripe so my house is very fragrant - plus a few neighbors keep bringing us peaches from their yards, yay! Now if only I knew somebody with kiwi vines...

I'm trying to stay consistent with my exercise routines. I did my 11th 5k run (at home) yesterday, taking nearly a minute longer to complete than the previous run, for whatever reason. But I completed it, that's the important part, right?

Today my head's been a little floopy - feeling a little burned out, almost, on focusing on my health stuff so much. Not sure how to back off without losing too much focus; slippery slope and all that. I'm nearly down to the weight I was pre-kids at the moment, despite a few more indulgences than normal - how screwy is that?! I think I need to go shopping; shopping cures all ills.

Remember to look for the meteor showers!

Hey Feathers,

Back from vacation, WI at 120.6 today which is one pound under my last WI 10 days ago. Interesting.

The Cape was fantastic. All we did was laze about on the beach and eat. I read a Star Trek novel and we watched seals playing on sandbars and ate tons of sandwiches, seafood, ice cream, rotisserie chicken and salad bar from the supermarket, lots of fruit and stuff too. Feels great to be back from camping with hot showers I don't need to put quarters into and clean (non-sandy) hair. I am looking forward to getting back to cooking and going to the gym - feel a bit flabby after a week off, but nothing I can't return to!

Cattails - we missed the meteor showers, agh!

Moving Forward - welcome back from Disneyland! I miss the excitement of back to school - as a working adult with no kids it's all the same old, same old...

olehcat - hope you've been enjoying all the social events!

flashfacts - you are most definitely a featherweight, time to own it!

aspen13 - three parties is massive. good luck with that, I'd be going nuts!

Krampus--Welcome back. Your vacation sounds wonderful. Wonderful you only gained a pound. It has felt scary stepping on the scale after each of my trips. I think you hit the jackpot. How is the new apartment?

Cattails--All of your tomatoes, cucumbers and peaches sound yummy. An abundance of healthy food isn't too bad of a crisis. Sorry you're feeling floopy. I agree that shopping cures all ills and ought to be in the plans.

Olehcat--Sorry to hear you haven't been feeling successful lately. It's tough with social events and vacations. You need to live a little still, otherwise what's the point? You'll get back at it when things settle down.

Flashfacts--Welcome! I agree with Krampus that you are definitely a featherweight now. I can relate to your "homeless" feeling on the forum. I felt the same way until I finally decided to jump in here and stop lurking myself.

Aspen13--Good luck with all the parties. My son is turning 13 on 8/26 so we have a party to plan for him too. I'm surpringly unfocused on it. Probably need to get at it. I'm not sure how you can do 3 parties. You're a better woman than me. :D

The weight from vacation is coming off quickly. I was down to 135 this morning, which is just fine with me. Such a relief. But--I haven't worked out in over a month. I've order the New Rules Of Lifting For Life and have committed to get going as soon as it arrives. I desperately need to get back into an exercise routine. I'm also starting to feel mild depression since my vacation is ending. Trying to remind myself to be happy that it happened, rather than to be sad that it's almost over.

I got back from vacation yesterday! Had a fantastic time in Arizona near the red rocks with my bff - lots of hiking, lazing around. We mostly ate our heavier food early in the day out at a restaurant but we did actually make an effort to be pretty healthy! We ate light salads in the evening with vegetables from the garden (we were staying at her dad's house).

Still, I don't feel like I lost any weight, but I don't think I gained either, which is a plus from a vacation. I didn't weigh myself this morning because when I got back I had to get carryout food since I had no food at home (must grocery shop this morning!) but based on how my clothes fit, I think things are around the same!

I did have a horrifying clothes trying on situation though. Oh, it was horrifying. And a real wake-up call. My friend and I went shopping for clothes at an outlet store that was near where we were staying because there was a major clearance and it was work clothes that we both needed. I was trying on stuff and there was a three-way mirror just outside my dressing room. It was a real shock to see myself up close and personal as big as I am right now. I seriously almost cried. I guess I'm still in some sort of denial that I still look as small as I did 20 to 25 pounds ago, lol, even though I know I weigh more. My friend chastised me for being hard on myself and saying awful things about my body and reminded me that I would never say that to her or any other friend, so why would I say that about myself? Good point and a good reminder!

So anyway, back from vacation and still have some social stuff to navigate, but I need to make the diet (diet as an lifestyle change, not "diet") a priority and somehow get around social stuff!

Oh, and I got really sick on the airplane yesterday. That's something that's never happened to me before, but I don't know what it was. I've flown a million times and never had an issue with motion sickness or anything like that. It lasted too briefly to be food poisoning or flu. But it was scary. I started to pass out and broke out in sweat all over and was really sick to my stomach. I worried for my seatmates! :D Anyway, that's like one of my big fears about traveling, is getting sick en route!

@Krampus - you rock, girl! All that fun on the beach and still maintained a low weight! I bow to you!

@Moving on - I have New Rules of Lifting for women and am intimidated by it. I feel like I need to start with something less advanced (for me) because I'm such a newbie at strength training. Let me know how it goes for you! I also am not a member of a gym anymore so I am totally at the mercy of my dumbbells. Great that your vacation weight is coming off quickly!

@Cattails - wow, you've really gotten down to a nice weight! I forgot how you said you lost it as my senile self is sure I've asked you before, but great job! And yummy tomatoes!!! I LOVE garden tomatoes!

118.8 this morning after the gym and a good BM. I am becoming what I used to envy - someone who sits around on a beach eating all day and inadvertently loses weight! It felt so good to get back to running and lifting, I wore myself out pretty well. Will go back for more this afternoon I think, maybe a jog on the bike path.

olehcat - Aside from fitting room woes (no one likes it! I commend your friend for being supportive and cutting you off and not letting you dive into self-hate!) it sounds like you had a good trip. Funny enough my biggest fear of flying is being near someone who is sick. I have horrible emetophobia/anxiety when it comes to flying and I would need months of therapy to get over it. Flying to NYC from Taiwan via Alaska was the WORST - tons of families with little kids puking into paper bags at 3 AM in the waiting area of the airport, my worst nightmare.

Moving Forward Haha I actually lost a pound, and dropped 1.8 pounds overnight (I had fish fry and onion rings the last night of vacation). Glad your vacation weight is falling off so quickly - I'll bet exercise will help ease you back into "horrible boring daily existence" after vacation, too!

Krampus--What a careful reader I am! :dizzy: Even more impressive! Good for you for getting back into the exercise so quickly. I think you inspired me to get moving again. I'll put in a workout tomorrow.

Olehcat--Your plane situation sounds scary. I'm glad that was short lived. And it doesn't really sound like you know what it was. Weird. I'm glad you're OK. And I'm sorry about your horrifying clothes experience. Your friend was right on. I'm glad you listened to her.

So I changed my ticker to reflect post-vacation reality. I guess I did gain a few vacation pounds, although wow, I guess the damage would have been way worse if I had eaten/drunk like I normally do on vacation! This time was pretty light for me! You guys, I didn't even have wine the whole time I was on vacation! Also we hiked a lot. But I guess I wasn't careful enough during our heavier lunches.

The bad thing about all this is that I feel heavy around my gut. I really hope I can move this extra vacation/summer weight fast. I feel a bit humiliated because I told people at work that my goal for this summer was to lose weight (from 149 at that time, derr!) and instead I managed to gain since May. D'oh! Oh well, most of my colleagues are too self-absorbed to possibly remember me saying that, I'm counting on that at least.

My plan for right now is to primarily eat protein and veggies and healthy fat. I had eggs and veggies for breakfast (fried in olive oil). Plan for lunch is some kind of salad with chicken in it. Plan for dinner is a veggie/shrimp stirfry. One day at a time!

@krampus - 118!!! That's really awesome! Okay, I will freely admit I envy this, lol! Kidding, I know you worked hard to get to that point. Oh, wow, I had never heard of that fear of vomiting before I once taught a little girl who started crying a lot because she was afraid one of her classmates was going to throw up on her. I remember thinking that was the most bizarre thing until I found out that it was a real phobia that a lot of people have!

@moving - thanks, and I feel perfectly fine now, so some people have suggested that it might have been some weird vertigo/altitude reaction, although I've flown a million times and never had that kind of reaction.

@ krampus - Welcome back and kudos on 118.8 - you've got your body well trained to stay on track!

@ Moving Forward - Welcome back and kudos to you as well. Hope you're getting back to a 'happy place' - it's tough to come back to reality after a fun trip, isn't it?

@ olehcat - Glad you had such a great vacation! (Except for the plane ride, of course.) Regarding mirrors, they are evil lying things. Your friend is so right: it's important to be kind to yourself. There's far more to you than weight, size and shape. :hugs: Your plan sounds right on; eat and move for health and your weight will work itself out.

On that note, that's been my method - for the past 16 months I've been eating in a lot healthier way, mostly following the SB principles, along with some loose calorie counting and intuitive eating. That, along with trying to get in regular exercise, is my big secret! It's a constant challenge though; just hope I can keep vigilant despite life happening.

Today's not a very good day for me, I'm afraid. Arthritis flared up yesterday and has me achy and so stinkin' tired now, and that messes with my head - it's easy to get feeling really sorry for myself and tempted to indulge. But excess weight does NOT make dealing with this one bit easier, so I must take care of myself and maintain. Okay, venting done now.

Gosh, vomiting phobias? Growing up with two older brothers kept me from developing (or at least admitting to any) fears; they'd have had a field day with a phobia like that, harassing me on a daily basis!

Everyone enjoy your weekend.

Hi all, checking in after about 6 weeks away from here.

I've been away from home absolutely heaps with 2 weeks in uk catching up with family then home for 1 day then off to a mine in west Australia for 10 days, then home for the weekend then off to a mine in South Australia for a week then home 3 days then been in Melbourne this week and next week I'm away working away again all week.

So after all that my weight has stayed steady and in fact I've lost about a pound.

This is an absolute miracle and makes no sense other than it seems to show me how much the body will dampen inputs and stay steady! In other words I can go pretty hard on the dieting and my body hardly changes and losing is so slow for me, but on the upside I can have 6 weeks 'off' with about 50% more calories, and not change either.

Anyway the fact that I've 'got away with it' has inspired me to get stuck in to the discipline again and try for some more losses as I still can't fit in to my old work trousers.

Exercise has been bad with all that travelling too, so feeling quite good weight-wise but unfit and untoned....

Anyway, it's good to be here again and hope to check in more regularly after my trip next week.

Good to see you others on here but the thread looks quite quiet at mo!

well, I've done well the last few days! Not only that, but I feel good! There seems to be a click or a shift in my mind and I hope it continues! It's like I'm trying really hard to eat in a way that makes me feel good inside. So what I know works for me is eating a high protein breakfast of eggs, for example. Then eating tons of vegetables the rest of the day in the form of salads/stirfries/soups. With some protein and definitely healthy fat, etc. So my high vacation weight is dropping (3 pounds in two days) and that's with having some wine at night (which does help me from eating other things).

But my big triumph is that last night I went out with friends and it was supposed to be for dinner, but I wanted to eat my healthy dinner first (on a Friday night! Yes, I didn't give into the "I deserve a treat because it's Friday night" loop). So I had a veggie stirfry and some homemade guacamole (yum, avocado). So when I went out, all I ordered was a little side salad and had a glass of wine and I was FINE. I didn't want more, even when people were offering me nachos, etc.

Maybe something has clicked at last? We'll see. I need to give it more time and make sure the momentum continues. But once I get into the thing where I'm losing weight AND feeling good inside it will be easier to stick with it.

I do need to get my exercise really going again, though. Geesh. It's all about the laziness of changing clothes and getting outside or whatever.

@ange - welcome back! Wow, that's a lot of traveling! And congrats on maintaining your weight!

@cattails - sorry about the arthritis stuff. :( THat is so hard to deal with stuff like that (pain) and not want to eat pleasurable stuff. Yes on the eating for health. When I've shifted the focus to eating to FEEL good, something seems to have clicked more. I hope it continues, because I am feeling good right now and not tempted to go off plan. In fact, I'm looking forward to my vegetably lunch and dinner!

Oh gosh feathers! So much has been going on and I just got back from a week long cruise. I daren't even step on the scales after a week of constant food! yikes. Maybe at the end of the month I'll be brave enough to look...

wow, the vacation weight is falling off me so far during the last four days of eating really healthy. I get that it's impossible to lose almost 5 real weight pounds in four days, but it's great that the water weight is exiting at least. It makes me feel way less bloated. I'm .8 pound from my first minigoal, haha! (I made the first one easy because I knew it would be pretty easy to get back there, that's where my body has wanted to settle during the last year or so, alas).

@Leaves - whoo hoo, welcome back. I would give it about five days of really healthy eating. Then you'll give the water weight a chance to move.

@ Leaves - Omg, cruise food is the best AND the worst, isn't it? Fingers crossed that the damage isn't too bad. :D

@ ange - Hi there and kudos on maintaining so well - that's really encouraging!

@ olehcat - Woo-hoo, good going on shedding vacation weight! It seems like once your body starts losing, there's a momentum that can carry you along, for a while at least; hope you can ride the wave to some of your minigoals! Kowabunga!

I'm continuing to eat as normal, though trying to cut back a little since I haven't been exercising through this flareup. That's the worst part, really; I hate having things interfere with my routines. But such is life, and this too shall pass. This 'life happening' is why I work hard when I feel good, so when I don't, I can afford to take however long off of exercise. Sure would like to get back to jogging and strength training, though, before I lose much condition - little that there is!

Hope everyone has a terrific week. :)

well, I'm up a little today, back to 151.2, but I'm not changing my ticker because I know that it's water weight. Yesterday I did well, but I did have stuff that was higher in sodium, and I did have a handful of potato chips with guacamole. However, I did avoid an ice-cream situation and I didn't have any sweets except for a piece of dark chocolate.

Ugh, I can't seem to get back into running (schedule-wise). My routine is changing right now because I'm back into "school year mode" instead of summer mode. I have to get that under control. Normally I would exercise after school, but today we have a special event in the late afternoon/evening, blah blah blah. I do have a "date" to meet a friend for walking on Tuesday after school. We usually walk around 4-5 miles. I need to get my strength training back up again, too.

@cattails - I hope your pain goes away really soon so that you can get back into your fitness! That would be so frustrating!

Two more days of vacation left for me. :(. I'm wanting to really relax for my last few days, but I do have some things that need to get done too. My plan today is to take care of some errands then go for a mani/pedi. My exercise routine is waaay off (i.e. nonexistent for the last month). I just got out of my routine because of my vacation. I promised myself that as soon as my new book arrives, the workouts will start up again. Like Olehcat, I'll be getting back into a routine again once I'm back to the school schedule. I'm not sure why, but I'm sort of dreading it. I know I've lost some of my muscles and feel like I'm going to be starting over. :^:

ugh, I meant to run as soon as I got home from school yesterday but I was so wiped out I couldn't think of it. This will end as I get used to the new routine but I'm still disappointed. Today I have a "date" to walk with a friend after school, so at least I'm committed to getting out there and moving.

I'm so frustrated that I am 151 this morning. What? I ate perfectly yesterday so why is the water weight from Sunday's dinner still on? Why does it take so long to get off and so easy to put on? I wouldn't be so anal about speed if I wasn't so close to minigoal #1 and wasn't so grossed out by being in the 150s (which is VERY high for me). I need to get through today with all engines going. I WILL break through that. I never want to see the 150s again. I am fully to blame for it. I let myself creep up this summer, but I really want to leave it in the dust. Am determined.

@moving on - good luck with getting your new routine going, too!

Olehcat--Hang in there. Today is my last day of vacation. We are both going through that start of the school year settling in phase. Be kind to yourself. My new book showed up yesterday and I haven't worked out yet because "I'm reading it first. Ha!". Thanks for the encouragement. We can do this!

Hello Feathers,

So much has been going on. First of all, I made it down to 137.2 lbs a couple of times, with 137.0 lbs being my lowest weight since 2011, which means I have considered myself out of the 140s. I've been eating enough of the right food and I try not to restrict myself when it comes to sweets. So far it's been working very well for me. Also, I've been exercising with our weights at home. Luckily, we own enough heavy barbells! I made stretching part of my exercise routine (wanna be able to do a split one day, HAH!) and I go for the occasional jog (need to work on that..).

DH and I celebrated our first anniversary on Saturday :) We went to a breakfast buffet, BOY DID I EAT A LOT! - croissants with Nutella, pancakes with cherries, rolls, cereal, scrambled eggs, bacon, vanilla pudding, mmhmm, I know! It was delicioso though :) And then we had dinner at a fancy Greek restaurant. It was awesome! Unfortunately, I forgot to take my birth control pill that night. I noticed on Sunday night when I was about to take the BCP for that day, so I had to take 2 at the same time. Needless to say, I was having HUGE and I mean HUUUGEEE cravings on Monday. I managed to stay strong until we went grocery shopping. I picked up so much junk food and continued to eat rolls with Nutella and jam and coconut macaroons at home. TMI - I was bleeding that morning and felt really bloated.

My weight went back up to 142.2 lbs this morning which obviously comes from all the food sitting in my belly plus no BM plus feeling bloated, still. I told myself, I have to stay OP today! I can't screw everything up now that I've been doing so well. One of my goals is to make it to 136 lbs before the month ends and I won't get there if I continue to gobble down so much sugary stuff. So, even though I had cravings again, I managed to eat well and workout. The cravings went away while I was eating lunch after work and I was very thankful for that.

I'm hoping to get back down to <140 lbs soon. I despise the 140s!

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I have read up on everyone and will catch up with personals soon. I have to get up at 4am so I'm gonna eat a little post-workout meal, hop in the shower and then it's time to get some sleep.


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Woke up feeling better, yay! So I pulled on the old walking shoes and went for a mile and a half, then strength trained. Feels so good to use my body again! I'll do more walking tomorrow and take up jogging again in a couple days so as to ease back in gently.

@olehcat - I hear ya on the water weight; sometimes it does take two or three days to shed that off. Patience and clean eating will get you there! Trust the process, as they say - with your determination, you've got this.

@Moving Forward - Nothing wrong with getting psyched up by reading about the routines first - you'll be back to it just as soon as you're ready. ;)

@Hoopty - congrats on your first anniversary! Mm, sounds like an awesome buffet, wow! I think I just gained a couple pounds reading about it. Here's hoping some of the good stuff has gotten out of your system by now. LOL

Heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeere's new cat!

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krampus - Look at that little thing, so frigging cute!! And that's coming from a person who hates cats because I'm scared of them, lol!

Cattails - Doesn't it feel amazing to slowly get back into exercising? I just started running again myself, went again today, and it just makes you feel so accomplished. The breakfast buffet was so amazing that we plan on going back in about 3 weeks from now :D

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Happy to report that my weight went back down to 139.8 lbs this morning! :cheer: I was OP today even though I was a little high in carbs. I did go for a 3.2 mile jog though, so all is good! And I managed to have 2 BM's, oh yeah. My boobies are super sore, cravings are still there and I can't wait for this hormonal roller coaster to just END! Hoping to see another low(er) number on the scale in the AM.

Okay, I need, need, need to get a good exercise program going! I have not been able to get it going since I got back from vacation. That's not to say that I've been inactive. The first week of school is always very active, lots of walking around. Plus I've met a friend to walk one day and I've gone swimming in my pool a few times after school (it's super hot here). But it's not sweaty, lifting, muscley working out, if you know what I mean and it's probably not for long enough. I MISS my running and want to get back to it but it's hard when it's in the 90s, even for indoor running.

Ugh, I'm still hovering right at that 150 border. I REALLY want to break 150 again and permanently. Like as in forever. I mean I'm 1.4 from my first minigoal. Why is it so hard, ugh. You have NO idea how many things I have turned down this week. Doughnuts almost every day this week, FRESH doughnuts, the kind I like, freshly made chocolate chip cookies, other random temptations. I've turned them ALL down this week so I expect a bit of reward for that! ;)

@krampus - CUTE CAT OMG!!!!!!!! What a darling! I really adore my two cats and they are excellent entertainment and company! You're gonna have a good time!

@cattails - so glad you're feeling better!

@hoopty - sounds like things are going really well in general for you! Excellent!!!

kinda good kinda bad, measured myself on the wiifit (so not totally accurate) and i'm up 6lbs. Feel gross, but know that it could have been a lot lot worse after two+ weeks of gorging! Gotta get back into things but it's hard when I'm staying at my parents. They have so much food and I can't resist! Hoping to be back properly next week :)

Holy cow, that cat! :D

oh man, I was SOOO hoping it would be today that I would get under 150. I mean, I did oh so briefly last Sunday, just barely, caught a glimpse of it at 149.8, and then it just popped up again and all week it's been 150.this and 150.that. *frustration* Normally I wouldn't need things to be so fast, but 150's is a new and horrifying territory for me and I really want it to be gone and fast. Once I get back in the 140s I'll calm down a little. :)

Okay, I didn't run yesterday either because I got home and literally felt like I'd been hit by a truck. This first week back is so tiring physically and mentally and last night I went to bed at 8:15.

I hate being an emotional eater. I had it under control until this afternoon. I overheard a conversation between my mom and dad about how i always have an attitude and how im always so snippy and pissy and how my DH and i are not getting anything done. Now i usually dont care what people have to say about me, but not if its coming from my family. My dad is a money-hungry man who doesnt care about my future. He seriously asked me if i was going to go to college, not because he was genuinely interested but because he wants to get money from the state (in germany your parents get money for every child up until theyre 25 and still going to school/college). What a greedy, greedy person. All he does is complain about everything i do. Its like hes watching every step i take just so he can jump at me and tell me im doing something wrong. Thats why none of his kids talk to him, ever. One of my oldest half-sisters hasnt talked to him (or seen him) in 23 years, can you imagine? And my mom is the typical asian mom who becomes more and more selfish the older she gets because she feels like shes been through so much already that everything is gonna have to go her way. Im grateful that we're able to stay here for now, but we need. To. Move. Out. As. Soon. As. Possible. When i overheard them i got so angry and upset at the same time that i didnt know how to let it out. I didnt even tell dh about it. I just went and grabbed chocolate and made mug-brownies and bought junk at the grocery store. I was able to talk to my sister about it afterwards but it doesnt change the fact that i gobbled down so much crappy foods. And seriously, right before all this happened i was gonna get ready to go for a run. I feel disgusted in myself. And on top of that i gotta get up at 4am and work until 3pm wwwuuaaaaahhh i just wanna cry. I weighed 137.6 lbs this morning. Now its gonna take me an extra few days to get to my august goal. Sorry for the rant. I need to go to sleep or something. And im not going to weigh in tomorrow :(

And by the way, dont get me wrong, i love my mom but theyre making it so damn hard for me. I didnt wanna go too much into detail because i dont wanna bore anyone but i just had to let some of it out :(


olehcat - i feel you. It sucks being so close to your first minigoal but it somehow feels like it takes an ETERNITY to get there. Hoping you will break the stupid 150s soon! :hug:

Aw, Hoopty, I'm sorry - family, huh? Can't live with them, can't kill them without ill consequences. That is great that your folks have given you a place to stay for now but hope you can hang on until you get your own space. Never mind about the mug-brownies and junk, that's in the past - keep moving forward! :hug:

olehcat, you hang in there too! You're gonna whoosh out of the 150's any moment now! :yes:

I had an "aack" moment when I stepped on the scale this morning - 125?! Huh. Must be a fluctuation, can't have anything to do with the chow mein last night, the brownie and Fritos the day before, or the glut of fruit the day before that, I'm sure. LOL Guess I'd better stick to the high road a little closer! It is kinda cool though to have 125 be my redline number, when it's a weight that I previously hadn't seen, much less been under, for 20 years or so. That's progress, right?

I'm getting back into my exercise routine. Went jogging yesterday, first time in a week, and it wasn't bad at all. Actually it was really good to feel my quads working hard again. Did some strength training today after a brisk walk and really pushed my muscles. No doubt I'll be feeling that tomorrow!

Have a great weekend, feathers, and remember: life's not about staying out of the storm, it's about learning to dance in the rain!

hi, guys. 150.2 AGAIN. What? Okay, well last night I ate a lot later than usual. I was meeting friends for dinner. I tried to pick something as small and healthy as possible without it being a salad because I have been eating salads non-stop lately and am getting a little tired of them. I got a small black bean soup. I did have a small slice of someone else's pesto pizza that was fantastic. But yeah, I had 2 glasses of wine. So maybe I would have whooshed to minigoal 1 by today if I hadn't gone out last night? WHo knows. I guess people who really lose weight just don't have a social life? I dunno. And today may not be that much better, *sigh,* I have an event this evening, too. But here's the problem. If I'm not under 149.8 by tomorrow, that means I'll have had NO loss this week. Which is really darned discouraging. I'm not sure what to do because I'm eating SUPER healthy now in just the right balance that I can live with (I incorporate a treat a day) long term and food is enjoyable and I KNOW it's darned healthy, lots of vegetables, eggs, protein, healthy fat like avocado, etc.. So I don't want to have to make it so I'm eating really bland food that I hate. That is setting myself up for failure. So I'm really, really praying for a whoosh by tomorrow because if I am under 149.8 tomorrow (which is where I was last Sunday), that means I can lose and still enjoy really yummy (albeit healthy) food!

I did go running this morning for the first time in a few weeks. Man, my muscles felt weak!

@cattails - oooh, I would LOVE to have 125 be a redline right now! I can't even believe I'm where I am right now, but I remember being at 125 and LOVING the way my body felt and looked in pictures, etc. Thank you! I am STILL waiting for that whoosh. And we're back to running twins! Today was my first day since before I left on my vacation! It did feel good, but man, I feel weak!

@hoopty - wow, that really sucks about your family. Due to crazy circumstances about 5 years ago I had to live with my parents for a little while and oh boy, it brought me back to my teen years when I was irritated with everything they did! Hang in there! You're doing great with your weight loss. One binge won't put you back too far!

Cattails - Thank you so much for your kind words. I read your post this morning and it helped me a lot :hug: I cannot wait to have 125 as my redline number. I remember weighing 123 lbs and LOVING it! My baby steps will get me there eventually :)

Olehcat - Thank you girl :hug: Being here really sucks 99% of the time but now I just gotta try harder to stay strong and not let it get to me the way I did yesterday. Honestly, I think you would've reached your first mini goal today, I mean you had soup (sodium!) and a little bit of pizza (sodium!) late (!). Wait it out, just a couple more days, I know it sucks but you're doing everything right!

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Well, I wasn't gonna weigh myself but I did anyways. I thought I needed to just suck it up and do it. And to my surprise, I wasn't up by THAT much. I weighed 140.2 lbs when I honestly expected to see 142.x lbs. I immediately felt much better and relieved.
So far I've been OP. I only got 2-3 hours of sleep last night, worked from 6am-3:15pm and now I'm digesting my lunch. I might take a nap but I am definitely going for a run later. It's beautiful outside. I also plan on doing weight training and stretching and I wanna try to be all showered and bed-ready by 8:30-9pm since I have another 6am shift tomorrow.

Today is another random shark-week-day if you know what I mean. This whole forgetting the BCP really screwed with my body. I feel super bloated and I haven't peed at all though I drank so much water already. I'm gonna take the numbers on the scale more seriously when I start the new BCP pack in about 1.5 weeks. Who knows what the actual TOM will bring scale-wise, you know.

Hoopty--Living with your parents sounds tough right now! Hopefully you and your DH will have your own space sooner rather than later. I remember the days of the BCP. Ugh. Hormonal roller coaster is right! I'm glad your weigh in wasn't too bad. Good news.

Olehcat--You're eating well AND you went running. Those 140's will come soon. :)

Cattails--I've never even considered that my body could get to 125 and if memory serves me you're taller than me. You must be tiny. Inspirational!

Leaves--It's really hard when you're out of your element and there's lots of temptation around. That was basically the story of my summer. You'll get back into your routine soon enough.

Krampus--You're new kitty kitty is soooo cute! What did you name that cutie?

My son turns 13 on Monday and so far we've thrown two parties for him. I've been eating pizza, cake, sugary drinks and various junky snacks every day since Wednesday. I'm baking another cake for him tomorrow and we'll be going out to dinner for him on Monday. Ummmmm. Anyone see a problem? Lol. I'm not too stressed. I'm taking the approach that it will all return to normal soon enough. I hope I'm not just kidding myself. And I still have not started up my workouts. That needs to change very soon. My congrats to those of you who have recently started up your workouts.

My goal was not fated to be for me this week. Ugh. My official weekly weigh-in was today and I'm not even at 150.something, I'm up a pound. I guess I have to change my ticker. I was at 151.4. I know the main problem yesterday was that last night I was out (again) and while I didn't eat much at all, I did have wine and I did have some sodium-filled appetizers (it was one of those fancy affairs where people carry the trays around and you have little bits here and there).

I don't know what to make of it all except I need a "diet" survival plan, I suppose for a social life. I have to get better at this! When I'm at home, at work, etc. I do great, I can resist anything. To me, it's evening socializing that gets me. So...I obviously need to tweak what I'm doing for this week since this past week didn't yield me a loss. Last Sunday I was 149.8. Today I am 151.4 (with some sodium bloat, i would assume). So I don't think I actually gained this week, but I do think that I basically just maintained a weight that is too high for me. So must tweak, tweak, tweak for this week.

Why can't it be a bit easier, eh? (sorry for whining, I just had to vent)

@Moving Forward - yes, you're right! Things will go back to normal soon enough! I thought I'd never get into a rhythm of eating healthy again after this past summer and vacation. My eating habits were thrown SO badly off. But after a few days, it felt natural and good and today is day 2 of running for me and it's starting to feel like okay, this is what I just have to do every day, no option!

@Hoopty - that's great that your weigh-in wasn't as bad as you thought! That's awesome and should give you that little "umph" to get back into being on plan! :)

Grrrrrr. I binged again last night, had 2 vanilla cream-filled croissants, 2 mug-brownies with nutella, more nutella, bread with nutella, 2 coconut macaroons and more nutella. And the thing is, I could've avoided it if I had made the right choice. I was sitting down painting my nails and while they were drying I was thinking of going for a jog next and then working out. But at the same time I was also thinking about those delicious croissants. For some reason, and I don't know why, I just got up, walked downstairs and grabbed the croissants. WRONG DECISION! So mindless. And of course, I ended up not jogging or working out.
Needless to say, my weight was up to 142.6 lbs. I still haven't peed though, so I know some of it is still water retention, plus I am still on-and-off bleeding and my BM's have been really weird lately. I'm wearing these jeans that still feel super loose so I am trying to see that as a good thing and I try to tell myself that I've probably only gained about 1-2 pounds of actual fat which I can still get rid of this last week of August IF, and only IF I eat healthy and work out. On September 1st my niece is celebrating her 4th birthday and I've already marked that day as "food-fest" in my calendar. Now because I added 2 days of junk food to my list this week it's like I probably shouldn't enjoy myself that day (I will though, I will, lol!)
Today is the last BCP of the current pack, so we'll see how the 7-day break will affect my body and how things change (for the better, hopefully!) once I start the new pack. No more forgetting the pill, that's happened to me maybe twice in Jesus...6 years? And yes, I am blaming my current state on that, I am so sure all this wouldn't be happening if I hadn't forgotten to take it. I was doing so well. Shame on me!

It's 12pm over here and it's beautiful outside. You better believe I am going for a jog later this afternoon and I am lifting weights afterwards. I wanna see the numbers on the scale drop.

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Moving Forward - Sounds like you're having a good time! I wouldn't stress over it, like you said, things will be back to normal soon and then you can focus on getting some workouts in as well. By the way, I see that you're from San Francisco, are you a Niner fan at all?

olehcat - :hug: I hope you will find a way to combine social life with healthy eating, one that you can stick to. Here's to a good weigh-in next Sunday! You're very close to your mini goal and I can't wait for you to share it with us!

eh, I am feeling discouraged. I didn't weigh myself today because I was feeling bloated (I could feel my stomach jutting out) and I KNEW my weight would not be down. I don't know. I don't know. My clothes seem to fit all right, but I do feel bloated, like I've been eating things too high in sodium or something? I'm trying to drink a bunch of water today. We'll see.

One day at a time.

Olehcat--So sorry you're discouraged. I like your one day at a time sentiment. Tomorrow is a brand new day.

Hoopty--I am actually pretty uninterested in professional football. I think I got turned off because I grew up in a super macho, super sports oriented family where some game or another was always on the TV. I just tuned out. The only football team I can get into is Cal since I'm an alum.

It's official. I now have two teenagers in the house. Today is my son's birthday and we went out to dinner at a steakhouse. As predicted, I ate waaayyy toooo much. I enjoyed every bite, but now I'm feeling kind of guilty. It's very strange to me that I seem to be splurging often enough (interspersed with good days too) and my weight seems to be holding steady. And I'm not exercising. Is this too good to be true? I would love to hear from people who have been maintaining if this sounds reasonable.