@krampus - Aw, what a sweet kitty! How's he doing?

@olehcat - Hold steady, girl! You've had maybe an overdose of sodium lately and just taken up running again, your bod will catch up momentarily - I'm sure of it!

@Hoopty - Omg, if I ate all the yummy things you describe, I'd be as wide as I am tall! LOL Hope next month is less turbulent for you. ;)

@Moving Forward - Grats on two teenagers in residence! And kudos on holding steady with your weight; it's awesome, though personally I'd consider it more of a grace period than a guaranteed thing. :D

By the by, I'm a Niners fan, and really excited about Kaepernick; he's inspired my mom to watch football now, too, since he went to school in Reno which is right near her. I'm a very bad fan, though, always asking DH "What happened? What did they do? Was that good?" I love to see the really long passes and runs, though, those are exciting.

My weight was back down to 123 yesterday, back to 125 this morning? Baah...the important thing is I feel really good and my trouble spot, the belly, is looking less bulgy than ever and feeling more cinched in. So I'm happy, and motivated to keep on keeping on! Gonna try a longer, slower run this morning and see how that goes, even though my throat is a tiny bit sore today (son's home with a cold, poor guy).

Still bingeing, still being a mindless eater, still on-and-off bleeding and still bad poops. I was doing great yesterday, even went for a 4.8 mile jog and worked out like a beast and guess what? Even though I felt super great afterwards I was still craving junk food and I gave in. It's really never this bad, especially after having worked out and I want it to end, right now.

I didn't bother weighing myself this morning. I went to work at 9am only for my boss to tell me that I'm not on the schedule. So I went back home, got a couple of things done around the house, napped and ate like a monster. I am so full right now, I seriously wanna puke.

I don't understand why it's so hard for me to say no to all the crap food. It's the same thing every day - I wake up full of regret, eat healthy breakfast and then the cravings kick in. I eat and tell myself "you'll be back on track once you start the new pack of BCP" and use that as an excuse. Then I feel a little bit of regret but nothing that would stop me from doing it again. Then once I lay down, I feel like crap again and tell myself that I will be healthy tomorrow which doesn't happen, or hasn't happened in a few days now.

Does anyone have any advice? Tips? Something that I can use to stay on plan? What should I do? I drink plenty, I eat enough protein, healthy fats, veggies and fruits so that is not the problem, it's the whole hormonal thing that's going on. Should I just wait it out? I really don't know right now.

I'm gonna wait for all this food to go down and then I'm gonna work out, not because I feel guilty but because I'm actually in the mood to lift some weights.

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olehcat - One day at a time is right, I should write it on a piece of paper and tape it in front of my eyes. Did you manage to flush some of the sodium out yet? How were you feeling today?

Moving Forward - If it is true then you're one lucky woman! :D I'm glad to hear you had a great time. Do you weigh yourself daily or on a weekly basis?

Cattails - Thank you, I hope so too :( I'm telling you, all this food is EVIL! My DH is the biggest, and I mean the biggest Niner fan in the whole wide world. He doesn't like Kaepernick (though he appreciates his game play) and wanted to keep Alex Smith. I felt bad for that guy too and hope he does well in Kansas City. I can't wait for regular season to start, omg! I'm not a Niner fan though, Packers all the way! I looooveeee Rodgers and cannot wait to see him play :)

Still chugging along, but not much success. 150.6 today. That's higher than the 150.2 that was last week at this time. I have to do something different, but I promised myself to at least wait until Saturday (which will have to be my official weigh-in day this week, as I will be out of town Sunday morning AND it will be the morning after attending a wedding). So my body has 3 more days to get down below 149.8. It seems like it would be a piece of cake since I'm only .8 above that, but you know...who knows!

@hoopty - I'm sorry you're having such a rough time with binging! I hope things are smoothing out a little for you!

@cattails - it probably IS sodium, but so frustrating. I love making homemade stirfries. They are otherwise healthy, but yeah, definitely more sodium than other foods sometimes (even though I try to use lower salt soy sauce, etc.)

@moving - whoo hoo, two teenagers! Let the fun begin! ;)

@olehcat - It is so hard to avoid sodium. I'm sure I take in waay too much! My DH takes me out to eat at least 3 or 4 times a week and you know restaurants use the stuff liberally. :p I love stirfries too! My favorite is cooking some chunks of chicken and tons of veggies, then throwing in a splash of almond milk, a squirt of Sriracha sauce and a dollop of Szechaun stirfry sauce. Yum! There's never any left over. :D Anyway, hang in there, I'm pulling for you to see the 140's really, really soon!

@Hoopty - You know, it seems to me that you've been under a lot of stress for the past few months, what with uprooting and moving to Germany with a new husband, living with your parents as an adult which is always a difficult transition to work through, and reinserting yourself into your 'old' life (and old ways?). Could it be some of the cravings/bingeing is a response to those stresses? The BCP of course mucks things up, too, but I was thinking (since you were asking for advice, tips and such) maybe taking up something like yoga would help. I've found the breathing and movement of yoga to be very mind-calming and helpful in keeping me mindful in a lot of aspects of my life. Anyway, just a thought. :)

I feel bad for Alex Smith, too - just bad, bad luck that concussion gave Kaepernick the opportunity to show his stuff. I can only imagine how frustrated Alex must have been last season, sitting the bench after he was cleared. Hopefully the Chiefs work out well for him. Wow, your husband is a diehard Niners' fan and you a Packers'? That must make for some interesting game days!!


Went out for the long slow jog yesterday but my stupid knee developed a sharp stabbing pain that wouldn't quit. :( So I walked a couple miles instead - why does this body betray me?! Ah, well, I do what I can. Hard to make much progress, though, when aches and pains make me start and stop.

whoo hoo, finally 149.4. I can't call minigoal goal yet because I want it to be just at 149 or below, especially because things will go up again by Monday a bit, I imagine, because I have some things going on this weekend that translate into me not being completely on plan.

I have a wedding this Saturday. I'm actually not as worried about wedding food. I probably won't like it that much and won't eat much of it. I'm not much of a "meat and potatoes" person and that's the type of food that is usually catered at weddings. And the cake will have to be REALLY delicious for me to care to have more than a bite or two of it.

But I do worry about stress eating. I'll be driving to an unfamiliar city and having to find my way between two different locations for the wedding/reception as well as the hotel. I will be by myself at a wedding which is awkward. What would I do besides eat? But I'm REALLY hoping that it will be a buffet style maybe (like my sister's was) and I can pile up on veggies or salad because who cares if I binge on that out of boredom?

I hate it when I've finally maybe found my weight loss groove and then special circumstances come up *flail flail* :D

I need to stop by a grocery store today and pick up some fresh veggies for dinner. I'm bored with what I've been having the last few days (stir fry) but it's too hot to really cook...

@Cattails - sorry about the pain. I absolutely HATE when my body does that to me when I'm making good running progress!

For my stirfry, I use sesame oil to stirfry in, then I add sriracha sauce (very generous, I love spicy), a squirt of lemon juice (fresh), a splash of sherry, a little bit of the non-wheat soy sauce (tamari sauce, I think?), and a tiny dollop of this ginger-sesame flavor for stirfries (a tiny amount because I think it's loaded with sugar). And YUM!

@olehcat - Way to go!!! :woohoo: Hm, an unfamiliar city? Sounds like a perfect opportunity to explore! Will you have any time to? Mm, your stirfry sounds yummy. Enjoy the wedding.

whoo hoo, I made first mini goal! I'm almost afraid to celebrate too much because I'm afraid I'll ruin it this weekend somehow since 148 is sooo close to 150, but maybe that will help me regulate myself a bit!

I feel good! I didn't even eat THAT healthy last night (sloppy joes and I don't even eat beef very often, if ever, lol). But today I'm motivated to eat VERY well so that I have a good official weigh-in tomorrow!

@cattails - thank you!! Yeah, there won't be too much time to explore since I'm getting there, going the wedding, figuring out where the reception is, and then going home very first thing the next morning, but that's okay! I will have a few hours in the afternoon and I may spend that working out in the fitness center haha, we'll see!

Finally things are going to be getting back to normal for me, the holiday routine has really threw me. Look out for more posts, I promise I'll be making more of a regular effort now!

Sadly, it seems I'm up about 8lbs, but after what has probably been at least 4 weeks of gorging or eating whatever the heck I want, I guess that's not so bad. Now the cruise is over I'm feeling a bit deflated motivation wise, as that was what I was aiming for. But hey, it's Christmas soon, gotta get into those little black dresses!

P.S, congrats Olehcat! :D

So I registered for this site this morning and I am proud to say that day 1 is nearing its completion and I have been able to stick to my diet, NO unhealthy foods!

One thing that I am having trouble beating though is the sense of being "hungry," it seems like everything I eat leaves me hungry again 5 minutes later... and I HATE feeling hungry! Any advice??

Today was my "official" weigh-in for the week since I will be without a scale tomorrow morning. I was 148.8, so still under 149, whew, but I do think that I shouldn't weigh in too much this coming week. I know that I will be unable to stay on plan easily today and tomorrow. I'm going to try to not go over the top, but traveling stresses me out, I have to admit, and going to a wedding alone stresses me out a bit. So I am going to try to think of ways I can survive this, haha. Plus a family gathering tomorrow with picnic-y type foods. So maybe this weekend I'll just focus on portions, not healthy foods and see how things go...

Next goal is 144! I can do this!

@archaic - go you on getting through Day 1! That's always the hardest for me! To avoid hunger, eat healthy food that is high in fat and/or protein (like avocados, eggs, etc.). I always find those to be satiating. I make my breakfasts very low carb and high in fat and I'm not hungry for like five hours after I eat (which is necessary because I don't have time to snack at work). I stick to the "lighter" veggies and fruits later in the day.

@Leaves - thank you!! And I sympathize on the "getting back to routine." SO hard after being "off" for awhile!

Hi ladies. I hope everyone is enjoying labor day weekend.

Olehcat--Congrats on the mini-goal! I hope you enjoy your trip and the wedding. Your portion control approach sounds sensible.

Archac1--I hope you are into day 2 now and still at it. I agree with Olehcats's advice. Also realize that hunger is not an emergency. Once you have that mindset, you can wait it out. I also discovered that tea worked to squash hunger pangs for me. Good luck and keep going.

Leaves--Sorry about the 8 pounds. Hopefully that drops away pretty quickly once you get back into your routine. I'm not sure how you go on a cruise and not gain weight. I can't wait to go on one of those--even if a gain is inevitable.

I have no idea how I did this weekend as I will NOT be weighing myself for a few days, lol. I would say I didn't go over the top as far as portions, but I was completely off plan for two days in a row. Let me tell you, though, if I see ANY loss this coming week. As in, if my next official weigh in is UNDER 148.8, I will be really satisfied. That means that I don't really care how slow the weight loss is as long as it happens -- if I can have weekends and special occasions where I can enjoy whatever I want to eat and drink and still enjoy a glass of wine every day during the week, too. I mean, people who weigh a lot less than me enjoy their weekends, yes?

That being said, I'm going to eat super clean this week just to clear out the bloating from this weekend. Sodium bloat, eep, I can feel it in my ankles even this morning. We had Mexican food last night, and it wasn't from a very good place at all. I ate probably 1/4 of my portion of food, but I DID make up for that with lots of chips and salsa and a big margarita!

The wedding was really great, but I did feel socially awkward at times since I didn't know anyone at the wedding besides the bride. Also driving back was very stressful (thick, thick fog where I could not even see the dividing line on the highway a few times and had to concentrate with all my might to avoid driving off the road).

Anyway, hope you all are doing well!

@Moving forward - thanks! I think I DID actually do pretty (relatively) well with the portion control. I specifically made myself be mindful of when I didn't actually want anymore food and was just picking at it for the sake of picking. Made myself stop.

Good for you Olehcat! I'm of the same mindset as you. I will never sustain this weight loss if I can't go to social functions and enjoy myself once in a while. The fact is, food is an enjoyable part of life and I want to enjoy life. Everything in moderation, right?

I finally worked out yesterday for the first time in many weeks. I kept putting it off with many clever excuses. I'm not sure what that was about. My goal is to get back into a routine of three workouts a week. It was discouraging to see that I've lost some of my strength since my last workout. Something to work towards. I'm feeling pleasantly sore today all over, which will remind me I did the right thing. :woohoo: