I had a similar situation. After a breakup, I couldn't eat so I lost 10 lbs in a month, then gained it back over the next few months. Just like you, I LOVED my 10 lb slimmer figure. However, it didn't come to be in a healthy way....really, it came by starvation. So when you started to eat again, of course the weight came back on! And you are hungry because you kind of whacked out your metabolism. It will stabilize, just give it time. For now, just think of it as you are at your "normal" again.
It's a good thing you're noticing that your relationship with food has gone to the other extreme, because now you can do something about it before it gets out of control! When I am successful at eating (meaning I have good portions, healthy foods, no emotional binging/snacking), it's because I am looking at food only as fuel for my body. I choose foods for what they are doing for my body, NOT for my tastebuds. I still try make those things taste good, but the focus is on nutrition. Do I still make mistakes? Of course! I still have times where I have those cookies are solely because I had a bad day and want chocolate, or I'm not hungry but I'm eating that bagel anyways. But those days happen less and less. What keeps me going is how GOOD my body feels when I feed it properly.
Good luck, and hugs! I know this is a hard time for you, I'm glad you're here to find support.
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