[KylieH]

I haven't posted in about six months. In that time, I have systematically undone all the good habits I worked so hard to create.

Now, as I approach my year anniversary, I realize that I'm about five pounds lighter than I was then. However, at this rate, I'll be right back where I was.

All the while, I knew what I was doing and yet I kept on doing it. It's like I can't handle being happy and healthy. Now, I feel like everyone is laughing about how I gained all the weight back.

I feel like crud, but I'm here and willing to give it another go.

Thanks for listening everyone.

[jillnicole03]

I'm the same way... I went from my lowest weight of 135 up to 150 last April and Jan 1st up to 190 now im back on the site and down 12+ lbs.... is all we can do is pick ourselves up off the ground and get back at it!

[Mudpie]

Sometimes I think success - losing the weight and maintaining the loss - is much harder than failure - gaining the weight back.

I find it hard to deal with the fact that this is a lifelong commitment to good habits. I want my cookies and my skinny jeans

Dagmar

[thinnythighs]

i agree. Cookies AND skinny jeans.

[Scenestealer]

Even though I DEFINITELY indulge from time to time, I hate the idea that I'm really never going to be able to eat whatever I want. There were definitely times in the past when I would eat entire bags of chips or pints of ice cream in one sitting, and even though I know that's really unhealthy, I wish I could still do that again on occasion. I suppose I could once, but now that I know how bad it is for me I really wouldn't enjoy it.

I hope all that made sense - hard to explain what I'm thinking here.

[KylieH]

Thanks, guys. it felt so good to vent and know that other people know what I'm talking about.

This has been such a pattern in my life that I think I should talk to someone about it. I suspect there are lingering issues of self-worth at play.

Has anyone done that and was it helpful?

[Ilene]

Kylie back ...

I love this saying : Falling down is not failure....Failure is staying down.

So, Kylie, get back up, we're here for you!!

[justdoit37]

I'm in the same boat. Lost 60, gained 8. Want to lose 20 now. This is my very first day on this website. I am loving it. Thank-you to all you motivators out there. We can do this. I have went back to some of my bad habits (late night eating, just before bed. Not just a snack) I know it is a no no. I pledge to not eat after supper for the next week. Anyone else have a pledge?

[KylieH]

Originally Posted by Ilene

Kylie back ...

I love this saying : Falling down is not failure....Failure is staying down.

So, Kylie, get back up, we're here for you!!

Thanks so much. You guys are seriously the best.

I had a rough day (bad choices). My husband has committed to better eating and working out regularly, so hopefully having him as a partner will help.