I haven't posted in about six months. In that time, I have systematically undone all the good habits I worked so hard to create.

Now, as I approach my year anniversary, I realize that I'm about five pounds lighter than I was then. However, at this rate, I'll be right back where I was.

All the while, I knew what I was doing and yet I kept on doing it. It's like I can't handle being happy and healthy. Now, I feel like everyone is laughing about how I gained all the weight back.

I feel like crud, but I'm here and willing to give it another go.

Thanks for listening everyone.

I'm the same way... I went from my lowest weight of 135 up to 150 last April and Jan 1st up to 190 now im back on the site and down 12+ lbs.... is all we can do is pick ourselves up off the ground and get back at it!

Sometimes I think success - losing the weight and maintaining the loss - is much harder than failure - gaining the weight back.

I find it hard to deal with the fact that this is a lifelong commitment to good habits. I want my cookies and my skinny jeans

Dagmar

i agree. Cookies AND skinny jeans.

Even though I DEFINITELY indulge from time to time, I hate the idea that I'm really never going to be able to eat whatever I want. There were definitely times in the past when I would eat entire bags of chips or pints of ice cream in one sitting, and even though I know that's really unhealthy, I wish I could still do that again on occasion. I suppose I could once, but now that I know how bad it is for me I really wouldn't enjoy it.

I hope all that made sense - hard to explain what I'm thinking here.

Thanks, guys. it felt so good to vent and know that other people know what I'm talking about.

This has been such a pattern in my life that I think I should talk to someone about it. I suspect there are lingering issues of self-worth at play.

Has anyone done that and was it helpful?

Kylie back ...

I love this saying : Falling down is not failure....Failure is staying down.

So, Kylie, get back up, we're here for you!!

I'm in the same boat. Lost 60, gained 8. Want to lose 20 now. This is my very first day on this website. I am loving it. Thank-you to all you motivators out there. We can do this. I have went back to some of my bad habits (late night eating, just before bed. Not just a snack) I know it is a no no. I pledge to not eat after supper for the next week. Anyone else have a pledge?

Thanks so much. You guys are seriously the best.

I had a rough day (bad choices). My husband has committed to better eating and working out regularly, so hopefully having him as a partner will help.