My high weight was probably around 257. (I say "probably" because I wouldn't even get on a scale for the longest time.) When I'm at my gym, if I see someone of my height at about that weight or higher who's working out, all I think is that she is a stronger person than I am.
Because when I was at my high weight, I was so afraid of going to a gym that I walked & walked & walked outside in bitter cold weather, when it rained or snowed, & once during a lightning storm that happened when I was a couple miles from home. I made myself uncomfortable for nothing. (I mean, it's not like nobody ran or walked by me or drove past me during that time.) Actually, I got plantar fasciitis because of all that pounding on pavement & concrete, when I could have been using low-impact machines.
All because I was afraid, and scared of getting out of my comfort zone.
After I lost a little weight, I went into the gym & promptly discovered that there were people there who were as heavy as me, and heavier, only they were having fun in Zumba, were good at spinning, and knew their way around the Nautilus machine circuit -- unlike me, who'd been cowering outside.
I just think of me out alone in the rain & cold doggedly walking when I could've been inside in the warmth and making new friends and learning new things.
(I've got nothing against walking, BTW -- great way to experience the outdoors, see the neighborhood, take a break from your own room -- but why did I completely shut myself off from any other option? Fear. Shyness. Don't be like me!)
Last edited by saef; 07-29-2013 at 02:45 PM.
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