[daytona1]

Hi everyone,

Great news MyGirl, you feel so much better after confronting something like that. I started working for WW, I am only doing one "at work" meeting, but it is a start. The first week was not too bad because the leader sat right with me. This week, I had a lot of anxiety going on, I was on my own and I get real nervous that I am going to make mistakes! I had mysef to the point of physcially shaking, anxiety is the worst problem. I almost decided to quit, but I don't think that would be in my best interest. It is a terrible feeling when anxiety makes you so stressed out you just don't want to do anything for fear it will send you into another tail spin. Maybe it is low self esteem, lack of self confidence, or something like that? Who knows where is comes from, but I am tired of giving into it, so I am going to keep at it till I feel comfortable! Exercise helps a lot, it does relieve the tension. Hope things continue to go well for you, this board has been pretty slow lately. Are you still working? The fall weather is setting in around here, it is my favourite time of year.

Have a relaxing day,

Daytona

[MyGirl]

hi daytona!
fall really is pretty! thanks for your good wishes - I'm really happy that I am feeling better - I have been listening to these tapes that I bought on dealing with anxiety and they help a whole lot. So, even though I feel a level of discomfort I make it a point to try to get out EVERY day even if it just means walking to the gate and checking for mail

I am not working now, I think that I need a break for a little while so I can get myself back to what I used to be - ahhh those were the days.

I was really happy to read that you are doing WW meetings! That is great news - I know how bad that trembling feeling can get but perserverence is the key especially when you are feeling at your worst - don't give in to it. You will find that the feelings of anxiety go away quicker.

How are the rest of you girls going? Hope you're doing ok - drop us a post when you can we'd love to hear from you.


In the meantime take care of yourselves,
MyGirl

[jennifa]

hey howdy hey all,

ok, I just watched Toy Story.

Well, it sounds like we are all struggling. MyGirl and Daytona, I too have been having panic attacks; the world goes a bit flat,
I feel like the world is pounding and all I could do was stare at a stuffed animal cartoon turkey in the gift wrap aisle. I
was lucky enough to be able to focus on the turkey and get it together enough to leave, but girls, I know the feeling.

How are we going to deal with the holidays? I just want to go somewhere fun for Thanksgiving, I don't know how I will
deal with it at all, I can't even think of how to get out of it, either. I have all the plans but telling my family - yeah right.

The thyroid meds cause anxiety and I fear they are not going to be the silver bullet for me.

I'll post more later.

Hugs to you all - you are closer to perfect than most!

Jennifa

[daytona1]

Hi Girls,

Wow, we are all in the same boat. Wouldn't it be nice if we could just go to the DR. and get a magic pill and be back to normal? Remember those days when we were kids? Strep throat and a shot of antibotic and we were all better in a day or two. Yep, those were the days. I wouldn't wish anxiety problems on anyone. The problem is you look perfectly normal and people just don't get what your problem is. I am so glad to have you guys to talk to, at least we understand completely.

MyGirl, where did you find tapes? I saw some advertised at one point but I am not sure where. Do you think they are helping? I am still doing my meeting, and they added one more. The second one is a lot more involved, you have to deal with money, merchansie, stamp books, etc. It is overwhelming me. My instincts are to quit the second one and keep the first meeting. The first meeting is just recording wts and things like that. I am trying to make mysef keep the second meeting just to prove to myself that I can learn all the info and actually get good at doing it. I have little self confidence, I am sure that is part of the anxiety. It is such a pain.

Jennifa, I have just started thinking about the holidays, they will be here sooner than later. I dread all the faimily stuff, I have a war going on within my family, my oldest son and his wife are being real jerks and the other 4 of my kids are fighting with them. I get put in the middle, I am not looking for things to improve anytime soon. So the holidays are not going to be pleasant!!

Have a clam and peaceful day,

Daytona

[mygirl1]

hi girls,
have been having some trouble logging in so I had to re-register as mygirl1 anyway, here I am and happy to be able to post again.

nice to hear from you jennifa and thanks for the kind words - I don't how close to perfect I am - some days feel awful but overall I am doing much better now that I was this time a couple of yeras ago I suppose knowledge is everything with anxiety (at least I know I am not dying when I'm having a panic attack).

hmmm the holidays - how are we going to deal with them indeed! I am already dreading them and thinking how I can get out of them I have decided I will only do what I want to do and nothing else. I will tell my family that this is all I can cope with right now one step at a time. I've also decided that no-one will dictate my life and what I am to do.

sorry to hear the thyrioid meds are causing anxiety - bummer! main thing is to keep trying to find a solution.

daytona,
how are you doing? I am so poud of you for doing the ww meetings one step and day at a time you will see that it will get better each time - the main thing is that you are doing something to get out of the house. Give yourself credit for that.

I'm sorry to hear about your eldest son and his wife being jerks - families can do that and it doesn't make life much fun for all involved. Try to ignore their behavior and focus on the positives.

The tapes I've been listening to I bought a while ago from anxiety busters.com the woman who wrote them is called Ronnie, she used to suffer from anxiety herself and is now over it completely - the tapes help me a lot. I think I'd mentioned this site once before - good forum there too.

I've been doing ok overall - there is some anxiety which is always there and it's severity varies depending on what else is happening - my doc says that my anxiety and panic is reactive that is, it depends on who I am with and the situation. I can handle some better than others - I hate that this dictates my life and what I can and can't do!

It's very hard to explain to friends why I pull out of things at the last minute and why I don't go to too many places....ugghh I HATE that.

I will try to stretch myself beyond my comfort zone everyday - just to prove that I haven't let this big, ugly anxiety monster take over my life totally.

Yesterday I stepped on the treadmill and went for more than
10 minutes hip hip hooray! I loved that I could do that. Have to keep that up - my goal is to walk everyday.

One step at a time,
MyGirl

[mygirl1]

hey gals,
just pulling up.

MyGirl

[daytona1]

Hi girls,

Wow, long time since we been in touch. Things here have been crazy as usual. I am not doing the w/w meetings anymore. The one at work fizzled out and the other one had their number of members drop too low to warrant a receptionist. They did offer me another "at work" meeting but it was downtown and the parking is totally not worth the anxiety it gives me. So I am back to my usual, and that is really ok with me. Sometimes we just need to try things we think we want just to find out we are really happy with the way things are. Does that make sense? I am still working on the family stuff and that gives me anxiety too. Along with that we are in the process of re-finacing our house and the paperwork is unreal! Details make me crazy, I am too much of a perfectionist and that doesn't help. I put myself right in the mist of an anxiety attack last night worrying about all this stuff. I was able to finally calm down and get things in reality! That is something I wouldn't have been able to do a couple years ago. It is like you said Mygirl, we have made a lot of progress. I like the phrase, direction, not perfection. I am going to check out that site on anxiety, seems you did tell me about it B4 but I forgot. I am for anything that helps.

So how are the holidays shaping up? Today is Halloween and I am going to try and keep out of the candy! I will do ok till tonight when I am tired and hungry, but I am trying anyway. For Thanksgiving I will be making the dinner so I can have some diet friendly food. I like the w/w pumpkin moouse, it has few calories and I fill up on it B4 I eat my piece of real pumpkin pie.

How are you doing Jennifa?

take care and think calm thoughts!

Daytona