[janney]

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Hi everyone. I've not posted in quite some time but have been periodically going in to check how all of you are doing. Missed communicating with you.

You have all been so busy joining gyms and getting in shape, having litters of puppies (well not you but you know what I mean) and stuff. You are great!!!

Went back to work the 7-30 after being off for 7 1/2 months. Going back was great at first. Then I found out that some of the Managers didn't want me back because they were afraid I'd be off again. Don't understand this, as it's the first time I've ever had to take a long term sick leave. Been working 12 to 16 hour days, 6 to 7 days a week. Was fine at first but now I'm getting dragged down.

Hadn't had any panic attacks in over 2 months and now they've started back up. The depression is also starting. There for awhile, I was so busy with work I wasn't taking the medication like I should. I soon learned that that was not good. I've been taking it regularly now for the last 2 weeks. Tuesday night I had an attack so bad that I fell and bruised up my face and side. Boy oh boy does that hurt. Oh well......should have known to sit when the attack came on. One day I'll learn.

We have some of those curve gyms by my home too. I checked them out but found them to be expensive for what they offered. I'm still looking for a place I'll feel comfortable. I'm over weight by a lot and I feel very self concious. I'll have to get over that though. I just want to go with other over weight people and not Linda Hamilton until at least I lose some of it.....

Thanks. It's been great to just talk again. Like I said, I've been reading your post and getting alot from it. I should have taken the time to write as well and for that I'm sorry. I'll try to do better.

Take care and God bless.

Jan

[daytona1]

Good morning all,

Glad to hear from you again Janney, you are just having a little set back. Don't let it bum you out to much. Try to remember all the things you have learned when you were in bad shape befoe and start taking your meds regular. Sounds like you were pushing yourself way to hard and not taking very good care of you! Don't let some of your co workers opions up set you, there are always the few that have so much to say about something they know so little about. When I went to check out Curves I didn't like the way the lady just told me to get on the machines and change stations when the voice came over the intercom. She gave me no instructions, all she wanted was to have me sign on the dotted line and I didn't. I think I would get to bored with going in circles forever. The Y suited me much better. It is more of a family atmosphear.

Mygirl, way to go on the exercise. Isn't it funny how we notice muscles we never knew we had? I can't believe how many hurt when you don't use them. Must be a good thing. Your gym must be good if everyone was busy doing their own thing and you felt comfortable. That is just the greatest when "real" people exercise and not just the body builders LOL.

Jennifa, you will loose the weight, just take it slow and try and binge on lite candy or whatever. I am also a binge eater, I can go for a week and be perfect then I eat everything in site and undo all the good I have done. I been making sugar free fat free finger jello and eating that with cool whip free when I start getting hungry and it seems to help.

Everyone got their plans for Thanksgiving? Hope we all have a clam and peaceful day.

Daytona

[jennifa]

Hello, all,

Maybe I am just being picky but I like the threads to be on one page - anybody up for starting a new one?

Janney, good to hear from you again. Don't work too hard, girl! You don't have to prove anything, do you? Take it easy!

Daytona, thank you for your kind words of encouragement. I had a hideous dressing room awakening last week and am definitely locked back onto the wagon... it was 3 days ago and I am still not over the self loathing. I know all the things to tell myself like it was bad lighting etc. etc. but the fact is I just did not ever want to see that in the mirror, ever. Way worse than the first gray hair. I am trying really hard not to beat myself up over this. I know I will get there, it is just a matter of time and effort.

I had a lot of stress last week and didn't do so hot. But now I am relaxing and getting a better grip on things and I am going back to the Chopra methods because they actually work for me. I am also re-committing to the fact that my body is a wonderful temple and should be respected and revered, especially by me.

I don't like gyms but I do like running, yoga, and cycling. I exercise because it is fun. If it isn't fun I won't do it. So... I tend to get outside and get that great vast American sky over my head, it does wonders for my attitude.

[MyGirl]

Hi everyone,
it's nice to see everyone getting active again... no matter what we do I think it's important to keep moving (listen to me talking...like I am an expert or something...lol) I read somewhere that if you keep moving ie; walking, or anything involving getting up and about, that only 3-5 minutes of it is enough to get rid of the excess adrenaline that our body produces when we are feeling panicky and anxious...if you burn up all that excess adrenaline then you feel MUCH better. I'll have to try that one next time I am feeling on edge!

jennifa
I'll start that new thread right after I post this reply...I think you're right about 1 page being easier. Great to hear that you're enjoying your exercise...I do Yoga once a week and I find it VERY therapeutic, I am fortunate that my teacher is excellent. Last week we all practised the Yogic breath and this she said helps to slow down the breath & therefore feel calmer- which is exactly what I need to do when I feel panicky and anxious.

daytona
thanks for the peaceful wishes for Thanksgiving - I am sure we will all have so much to be thankful for this year and offer hope to others for a brighter future. It's times like these that I find renewed strength within me that I never even knew I had!

janney
hi ! don't be too hard on yourself - in fact you ought to be congratulated on your HUGE effort of going back to work that is an accomplishment in itself not to be overlooked! Don't be put off by setbacks - we all have them even people who DON"T suffer from anxiety have bad days. Sometimes we just have to be let them be and take courage and have faith in teh knowledge that this too will pass. I often find that a comforting thought.

gobbie
how are you doing on WW? What about the Wedding? Please keep us posted we would love to know how it all went.