I have been avoiding the scale expecting the worst. High BS I expected weight to be up too but no I am down another pound to 181. This reinforces my belief that the high blood sugar is due to stress and not food. I have only had black coffee so far today and also grabbed a slice of deli meat. I will eat my eggs around lunch time and check BS again then. I hope it comes down by then. It went up during the night from 150 to 180 and last time I checked it was 150. I want it down to at least 120 by the time I eat.

The past few days when it was up my pain has been returning so it looks like BS is effecting my pain levels. I want to be pain free again.

DH refused one of his meds this morning. The PCP did not take him off of it but felt that his EKG is gold and that the cardiologist would take him off of it. DH thinks it is what is making him so tired so he doesn't want to take it. Its his decision. I have taken myself off meds too so I can't say anything.

Still no more signs of the mice. Keeping fingers crossed.

Carol Sue It made me smile when you said the chicken noodle soup seems to be DH comfort food as that is what I was thinking when I shared that last night. I seem to always want chicken noodle soup when I don't feel good.

I'm glad you aren't catching any more mice. Fingers crossed that they are gone.

You know the day that my FBS was so high was during the time I was feeling so bad. I think I also got stressed out about DS sleep apnea test. She seems to always think because she has a problem that I do too, but we are different and don't have the same health issues. In fact, I often wonder if her asthma is caused from her being so over weight. I have no idea what she weighs and she won't tell, but always says things like, "I've got a lot of clothes you could have but they are way to big for you" or "I wish I weighed what you do". I do worry about her. Just as I worry about my DH because they won't change a lot of things about their eating because they don't think it is necessary. However, I do have both of them moving more so that makes me hopeful.

My FBS was 141 and my weight is back down to 212.4 this morning. I've logged today's food plan for today and will have just under 1400 calories. I think that is a good place. Now my goal is to get under 210.

I was talking to my beautician who eats semi-Atkin's low carb all the time to keep her weight down. I was telling her that I had been thinking about the fact that the only time that I really felt good and never was hungry was when I did Atkins. I told her that I didn't know why that I am hungry all the time and that DH had just said the same thing the night before. I had mentioned to her about how good all of us on our diabetic thread had done so well during holidays etc and in the process mentioned about fatmad having to eat gluten free foods along with IF. She said, "You know gluten will make you feel hungry all the time?" I said, "You mean my one serving of toast in the morning might be making me hungry all day?" So I am going to cut it out for a while and see what happens. I will share that info with DH later when he gets awake. It could be some of the little crackers he eats are doing the same thing to him. I guess I need to check more into gluten free eating. Perhaps isn't some of the starchy foods that are bad, but the processed ones like bread even multigrain foods. I didn't really want to go there, but oh well. We do what we have to do.

I've decide to eat similar to CAD but to do it my way. I don't like drinking shakes for breakfast except for busy mornings when I need to save time. So most mornings when not going any where, I will have my low carb meals. I'm back to trying 1/2 an avocado for good fat, but higher carb in the morning and will keep my 1/2 banana as well. Then I will eat whatever we have for our main meal and make it balanced and then have the Slimfast shake in the evening for a snack and I love popcorn so I think I will have a 100 calorie bag along with it. I should be able to keep my calories within 1400 to 1500 or lower most days. I'm a routine person so this will be a good routine for me.
House cleaning is my exercise today. Man when I clean house, every muscle in my body hurts.

Oh, I got some lemons today after you mentioned them yesterday Carol. Mama used to tell us that her Granny drank warm lemon water every morning and that when she died she didn't have hardly any wrinkles. So I made some this morning to start my day off. I put Stevia in mine. I also made a glass of iced lemon aid with the other half of the lemon and drink it with the main meal. I remember that I always take the lemon water when we go out to eat and add Splenda and make lemonade and no matter what I eat my weight would always be down the next day. So I decided that I should do that at home. I took just enough of the lemon and squeezed it on my avocado hoping to keep it from turning brown so I can have it tomorrow or the next day.

I guess I better see if I can get my Daddy again. He didn't answer when I called earlier and I also need to read my lesson for Bible study before DH gets up because I won't be able to concentrate when he turns on the tv.

Hope everyone has a good weekend.

Trish I am so impressed with the 212. It seems you were stuck at 220 for so long then something clicked. Keep going

Your sister has to make her own decision to make a change. Seeing the change in you just might be what she needs to give her incentive.

I have always said that it's not what I eat...it's how much. When DH was in the hospital I ate his roll every day. I would open it up and add a small piece of whatever meat they gave him for a little sandwich. Blood sugar stayed low and weight went down because it was a small amount. He never ate more than half of what they gave him. If I have a small amount of something I really like I am satisfied more than having a big meal of something else. I have deli meat now and a small amount of that satisfies me. I don't always buy it but I did now in case the power goes out during the snow storm and I can't cook. I'm surprised the snow didn't start yet. DH likes fried bologna bit he can eat it cold too.

I never noticed that gluten makes me hungry but if I eat bread I often want more. Bread is my biggest weakness.

Hope you get to talk to your dad.

Blood sugar is down to 124 now. I'm avoiding carbs to try to keep it down. I'm hoping it doesn't go up overnight again, but I know that depends on how much glucose I have stored in my liver. It will take a while to use that up, maybe a few days, I don't know.

I sure wish they would make up their mind on this weather. It's making me so nervous. It was supposed to start around noon, but it started around 3 in the form of rain. The temps are still a bit above freezing. They originally said once it started snowing early tomorrow we would have 3-4 hours of snow but now they said the time period would be a lot less and we would get less than an inch, but whatever we get is going to end up freezing because the temps are going to drop. If they treat the roads good that shouldn't really be a problem. I should quit watching the weather reports. LOL Each one says something different.

I do see that other parts of the country have it a lot worse than we do.

My eating went fine today. I'm pleased with how this is going and surely hope I will be able to keep this up. I like being able to eat pretty much what I want within reason. I didn't miss the bread today and I hope that will become the norm. Any way, I can only take it one day at a time. I did exercise today so I hope that will become a routine as well.

I did get to talk to Daddy. He was fine. I think DH and I will just go to church tomorrow and then go to Walmart to get his meds and a few things and come home because DS and BIL are going to go see him tomorrow. DH and I can go during the week. We might just wait and go see him Wednesday after we go get our blood work done. I get mine done at 9 am and he goes at 1:30. Then I will dress and go see him Friday even though I'm not going to the beauty shop that day. I can go see him and go to the store like I always do. I try to go 2 days a week.

It is supposed to get down to 28 degrees tonight and high tomorrow will be 42. It will be freezing when we go to church in the morning. I'm glad I still have my coat I wore in SC. I would stay home but the minister should be there and since he was sick last week, I want to go when he is there. I know he travels a lot too. He goes to DC to meet with other ministers sometimes to pray over our country and the president and congress as well as ministers in other countries. So I don't know if he always makes it home for Sundays or what so I want to go while he is here. Also having gone last week, I would like to get into a habit of going. It took me a long time to find a place I want to go to so I would like to become a faithful member if we decide to eventually join. Just me.

I'm glad your bs was down to 124 today Carol Sue and hope it continues to improve.

Have a good night rest and I'll check back in tomorrow after I get home from church and things get settled.

Good night.

My BS was 124 at bedtime but when I checked during the night it was 155. When I finally got up at 7 it was 150. I think that's the remaining glucose stored in my liver and I will work to get it down more.

We ended up with about 1-2 inches of snow by this morning. There is no doubt ice underneath from all the rain we got. If it had been a little colder all that rain would have been snow. The colder air went farther north and they got the snow. I hope SIL is going to come over later and clear the driveway. DH will tell him not to but I want him to. Right now, there is no one on the road. Most of the churches cancelled their services and not a lot of people have to go to work.

If roads aren't cleared by tomorrow we might not be going to DHs doctor appointment. I hope we go. I want this overwith and to find out how he's doing. Some days he seems good and some days he seems terrible.

A quick flyby this morning. FBS 147 but new low weight of 211.8. YAY!!!! Scales are moving down. I had a Slimfast shake for breakfast and we are going to go to Walmart after church to get DH medicine and some milk and I will pick up some more Slimfast shakes. I am excited and ready to get this taken care of. Since DS & BIL are going to se Daddy today, we will go tomorrow.

Carol Sue I hope your SIL comes to clean your drive way and that the weather will permit y'all to go for DH doctor appointment tomorrow. Stay warm dear friend.

BBL

Well, today was official weigh in day. My scale talked sternly to me "Weight loss requires serious effort and your starting weight has been reset to give you a renew sense of purpose" and reset itself. Typically, I would wait to until next week to confirm the gain. However, because my scale reset I will reset my stats here too. I cannot seem to focus well enough to get this weight off.

Carol- Stress affects my BS a lot too. I feel like the impact of stress is poorly understood and not considered enough.

Hello Patty, Mad and lurkers.

SIl came and did the driveway, front steps, and back deck. He is very fast and does a good job. We told him he could use our small electric snow blower but he just wanted to use the shovel. It wasn't a lot of snow.

They still didn't treat our road. It is state maintained, so they don't do it until all other state roads are done. Today is a weekend, plus tomorrow is a holiday, so I hope they get to it. Step-son is coming to help with the doctor's appointment so he will have no trouble driving.

211. WOW doing great, Trish. You will be in Onderland before you know it at this rate. Glad to see you have found your way. I bet you are thrilled!

I was looking for something in my kitchen cabinet and found a microwave egg poacher I bought and never used. I tried it out today and really liked it. You wipe the 2 cups with butter or oil, add 1 tsp of water, crack the eggs in, pierce them with a fork and microwave for 45-120 seconds. I did 60 seconds and they were done a little more than I wanted. Next time I will do 45 seconds so the yolks are a little runny. I think this will be my go-to breakfast when DH does not want scrambled eggs. I don't know why I didn't use this before. I probably put it in the cupboard and forgot I had it.

Trish: that is wonderful news, I am very happy for you. Whatever you are doing is working, so keep it up.
Carol and Trish both: don't worry about the higher fasting blood sugars if you are losing, you are dumping stored glucose from your liver and getting it out of your body, so keep doing what you are doing. If its lower during the day, don't worry about it.
Pipsicle: I hope you can find a path that will help you get back to better eating patterns and weight loss again.
I am struggling a lot these days. I have not been able to fast when I plan it.
I may have mentioned that we have a sport pad for our community beside my townhouse.
In warmer weather, volleyball, basketball and badminton are usually played. Recently, with the good cold weather, it has been flooded and we have the rink there, with people skating and playing hockey. It is very cold right now, -16 most of today and yesterday, so I made some hot chocolate to take out for the players. But I forgot and tasted it, and that broke my fast. So then I had a small cup to keep company with everyone. Then I had a late lunch. I may eat with DH and DD tonight as a result. SO I guess I am still doing IF, but not able to fast longer than 16 hours most days, occasionally 23-24. So no weight loss. Have not gotten on a scale, because I have had chocolate and some sugar. Had a diet soda last night too. SO I may be up a bit with weight. Clothes feel ok still.
I will cast my mind back to the stiff neck earlier in the week, when I had to take codeine. That has affected my ever since. I am not in any way addicted to pain killers, (just had 1 and 1/2 pills, about 45 mg in total, less than 2 Tylenol 3's) but they affect my profoundly, causing constipation, and disordered eating every time I have taken them. I still have some mild pain, but have not needed further medications, just hot tub and some massage.
Also had a video call with older DD, who is now in Germany with her ship, at the shipyard where is was built, for some renovations. I hope to visit her there at the end of March if all goes well. My sister is going to Berlin for a conference and just like in Lisbon, I will tag along and sightsee with her a bit, then join DD for the weekend. We shall see, that's two months away.
We leave Tuesday for Quebec, get through that first.
Best wishes, stay warm friends.

Wt 180 .FBG 124 .Big smile for me! Lowest Wt ever since my original high so it's probably been 20 years. I got down to 181 in 2011 but regained.

I slept great last night. Forgot to drink my sleepy time tea. It is still in the microwave. Yesterday I found a Cpap mask in the spare room almost new. The one I've been using is all stretched out and doesn't stay in place very well. That probably helped me sleep better.

Mad Dr Fung and some others have said that under 500 calories such as in JUDDD down day has the same effect on the body as a total fast even though the fast is broken. So you don't have to be perfect to be effective. I do not make my 16 hr fast all the time and I am fine with that. Read my siggy! I am doing OK with it a couple times a week. Slower but still gradually downward.

The trip to visit DD and DS sounds great! I've never been to Europe.

Weight 154.5 this am. Definitely a good day to stay fasting. Its very cold. Currently -22 C. DH was out for a bit with his telescope last night for the lunar eclipse. I barely stuck my nose out to look. Definitely feeling the blues. They are calling this blue Monday. I guess it always will be, same time of year as Dad died. Anniversary on Wednesday, I will likely be talking about that a lot this week. It IS the point of going to Quebec this week to be with his family during this time.
I no longer have nightmares, and this mornings memories were not a "flashback". I guess I am grieving normally now, and this is normal to really feel sad on near the anniversary. I don't want to fast to make weight loss happen, more to find a healthy way to manage these hard days. If I don't fast all day, will make it an OMAD day and eat tonight.
Will do a couple of short walks with DD's dog, its too cold to have her out too long, don't want frostbite on her paws.
Hope everyone has a good day.

45 sec is not long enough for my poached eggs. Whites were still runny. Can't eat that. 60 sec was too long so I will go with 55 and adjust from there.

Mad a period of adjustment is expected with grieving. I'm glad you are .no longer having nightmares. For whatever reason I did not have a grieving period for my parents. Am I a hard person? I don't know. I was only 11 when my dad died and I never knew him before he got sick. I was only 4. I was 34 when .my mother passed. I miss her but no grieving as others know it.

Carol: we all experience loss in our own way. Its only "wrong" if it becomes harmful to you. I went for help because of the nightmares/flashbacks, it didn't get better on its own after several months, and was paralyzing when it happened. What you experienced with your parents was your way at your time. Different people, relationships etc.
I don't think you are a "hard" person, you had what you had. You seem a caring person when we chat here. You obviously care for DH and your family through him.
I had more relief than grief for my mother. It was so hard dealing with her the last several years. But I was always close to my Dad, and that became more so after Mum died.
I will always miss him. I am much closer to my Quebecois relatives than my sister is. Its just my way, and not hers. I am learning not to judge, and accept her as different.
She is being really good to me and my family, in her own way, and I will go with that. With DH's family mostly out of the picture now, things are more insular, so I am hanging on to what I have.
SO, I am also trying to go easier on myself. I know I am having trouble fasting right now, so I will do my best and that's what will be. But I won't let myself give up or allow myself to regain a lot of weight. SO many discomforts are so much better now, with the weight loss and blood sugar regulation. I only hope each of us continues to succeed or finds the path to successful weight and blood sugar regulation, whatever that may be.

The one thing I remember from my mother's death was that her sister got angry because I didn't cry. She said I acted like I didn't care that that was my mother in the casket. She didn't realize what I was feeling. I keep it all inside.

DH saw the heart surgeon and was released. All is well. His attitude improves with each doctor that releases him. He is released to drive but seems hesitant. That's ok. Whenever he is ready.