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Alright. I'm going to say some tough things. You probably want to hear it, but you need to.

Here's the thing. It isn't your mom's job to make you better. It's YOUR job to make you better. Be thankful you have somewhere to live and it sounds like you live there for free. That's HUGE!!

It doesn't matter how crappy your family is. YOU are still responsible for yourself.

I've been depressed. Seriously depressed. And you don't get out of it until you WANT out of it and you don't REALLY want out of it until you start DOING things to get out of it.

You've done some good things: got on a med. Switched when it didn't work. That's good, but it isn't enough.

Next. You need to quit wasting your life on that game. You need to quit it. Now. Cold turkey.

You cannot find a job when you are playing a game. Whoever said all retail is hiring right now is RIGHT. There is NO excuse for you not to have a job.

Until you have a job, you need to be out looking for one. Every day. Fill out 2 applications per day until you have something.

Until you have a job, you can VOLUNTEER!! There are LOTS of worthy organizations who would LOVE to have some help!! Again, there are NO excuses for sitting around all day on the stupid computer.

When you're not job hunting or volunteering, you STILL need to be out of your house every single day. Maybe not all day, but you need to go out every day. Have cramps? Sinus infection? Too bad. We all have cramps and life can't stop because you don't feel good. That said, I DO think you need to make sure you have had a really good physical and cover all your bases to make sure this ISN"T something physical.

Don't like workout videos? Lots of folks don't. Grab a pair of shoes and go for a walk. Walking is some of the best exercise you can do.

You CAN do this. 25 is a great time to start!!

But, you need to DO stuff. and DO stuff and DO stuff.

We can all sympathise with where you are, and many of us have been there. But, feeling sorry for yourself only adds to the negativity that has you in this spot to begin with.

If you are doing things outside of your house during the day, you WILL get better.

Oh, and I think the person who said to check out local colleges for cheap therapy had a GREAT idea. You DO need some professional help......but that doesn't excuse you from doing other things while you're looking for a therapist.

You do have a problem and it can be a serious one. But, you can't continue to use it as a crutch and hope to magically get better. I wish it worked that way, but it just doesn't.

Now, get out there girl! It really IS a wonderful world, you just have to join it.

[Sassy_Chick]

I have to say I agree whole heartily with everything everyone has said so far.

I have been where you are and its not pretty and its not easy, but everybody here is right, I know it may be hard to read, but they are right! Sitting around feeling sorry for yourself, doesn't do diddly but make you feel WORSE! Trust me I should know! lol.

But seriously, getting out is a good thing. I know. I went out, got a job, making decent money, meeting new people, talking to people everyday (work in a call center), and yet I'm not perfect, I know I need to get outside and walk and do things, but I do get out at least, even if it is only work and home for now (mass Overtime) but I plan on enjoying my days/nights (work nights) off. So go out, enjoy! Take a walk, volunteer, go to various businesses and talk to them about a job or maybe even an internship.

Push yourself, everyday to do something, even if you don't wanna. In the end you will enjoy life a lot more and have some cash too! Also once you get a job, I would definately look into a small apt. for yourself. Indpendence can do wonders for you!

Just wanted to add: that you may also want to try your local churches for councilling and you maybe could possibly even volunteer there as well!

Just a thought!

Good Luck and Keep Trying!!!!!!!!

[Celesteral]

Start weaning yourself off the gaming.

Earlier this year, I wouldn't have dared say that to anyone or even myself!!!! Gamers do get defensive when told to not play so much or when accused of playing too much (when it is the truth). I sure as heck did!!!!

It does not help with the depression and though it may seem as a means for escape, it isn't. Plus it makes you feel guilty after doing it so much when you know you should be out walking and moving around!!!

After 14 years of depression and an abusive marriage, I found this out. I was trying to escape all the bad stuff by gaming for the past 9 or so years. I've played most of the major MMORPG's, sometimes for 15+ consecutive hours a day, every day. Issues and life do not go away even if we think we're doing good at blocking them out. We have to face them sometime and the sooner the better.

Gaming fills a bit empty hole in our lives and it is hard to get away from. It's an addiction and it is every bit as difficult to quit as smoking is. You have to try, it will make your life better.

[sweet_pea]

I agree with what the others have said. Gaming, food, shopping, drugs, alcohol. All those things are to fill gaps in your life. They are a way of self-medicating. But the best medication is to get out there and get into life.

Even though you are gaming on the computer you are not in the game of life. You're standing on the sidelines - if you did that on a virtual reality game you would get nowhere. I'm afraid it's exactly the same in real life. Things improve because you do something to make them improve.

Nothing changes until you do.
Good luck