~~ Amazing April Chat ~~
 

Hi everyone

Welcome to a new month!!!

Wow hard to believe 3 months are gone already :cb:

We are a group supporting each other with all the fun and challenges of life, including dealing with mood disorders and anxiety :devil: Please join us to chat!

Hi April, good news on DH!

I took the dogs to visit a friend today and the dogs had a play and ate the other dog’s bones. Saffie wasn’t too interested in playing with the other dog she just wanted to chase the balls and eat the bones but jazz had a good romp with pepper so that was good

I am v tired today think I must have overdone it yday hehe. Still have some thngs I need to do tonight before bed, dishes and stuff like that so I can be ready and organised for open home tmrw. I do hope it sells soon I want to move to the country. The place I went today was lovely and peaceful. Too far out for me but still a nice place. I felt a longing to move and get on with things but I don't want to risk buying another place without selling first.

hi everyone
 

Hello,
My name is Jenny,i'm 28, married
i live in north Ga
mom to 5 yr old daughter
and betta fish,
and mixed breed dog,
and grandma to a hamster.

I have trouble with anxiety all the time,
and depression comes and goes -more situational.

I had bulimia when i was in highshcool,
now at times i binge, but don't purge......

I'm an emotional eater.....just now had 2 pieces of pizza,
and a candy bar, is it lunch time?...no.....i just had breakfast....
not tooooo long ago..and i wasn't hungry......
first of all it was in the house....
second of all....i was upset....

nice to meet you..all
have a great day
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Good Morning everyone :wave:

And :welcome2: Jenny! Looking foreward to getting to know you. Don't beat yourself up to much, bad days happen just jump back in. You are off to a great start with the seven pound loss, good for you :carrot: I almost gave in to a binge last night, but had to tell myself that I'm finally starting to see the numbers to go down, boy was it a hard fight tho.

Hi April, glad your hubby is doing alright. Hope you had a good rest.

Sweet_pea, hope you are feeling a little better and the open house goes well. I hate it when plans are all up in the air.

Marie are you enjoying your alone time? How much more time off do you have? We had a two week spring break from school, it was ever so nice. Unfortuntly we don't get Easter Monday off, at least we get Good Friday.

Not much planned for the weekend. They finally came out and thawed the main culvert across the road and have done some digging around ours so we only have a shallow stream across our driveway instead of the lake! At least we can hop out to the road now. my middle daughter had her 16th birthday yesterday, so it was a yummy dinner. I had only a small piece of cake so I was really proud of myself for that. Actually I'm proud of myself this morning as I really had to fight to stay out of the kitchen last night before bed! April is going to be a busy month as DD14 has three judo tournaments to go to, thankfully two are in town.

Well I'm off as I should get something done, the rabbit was running laps in his cage again, so I have to vacuum up shavings, "silly wabbit"!!

Take care everyone!
K

Happy April to everyone, especially April :)

I love the format of a monthly chat. This is so great. So thank you SweetPea for starting this thread up for another month!!!!

Jenny, your name is familiar from the journals. Am I right? By far, this is my most favorite place to be. Welcome, welcome, welcome!!! I've done the binging a lot in the last few years, but am maybe getting a handle on it. I finally realized I don't like feeling stuffed. Geez, it took me 44 years. I'm not too bright. :)

Kiera, great news on the culvert. During Dec/Jan our dirt roads started to wash away. Living in the desert, two months of rain did some major damage. Driving on them, in four wheel drive was trecherous. I can't imagine having my driveway as bad. You muse be relieved. Rabbit was running laps??? Just how big is his cage? Great job on being reserved eating wise for the birthday. That's a big Way To Go!!!!

SweetPea, good luck on the open house. Selling a house is so depressing. Sent me into a big manic swing after a couple months last time I had to do it. Major manic episode. Still gives me the willys. Sounds like Jazzy had fun. Got to admit when I read your post about the house that was out in the country, it sounded perfect to me. I live in the middle of nowhere and decided that that long commute to work/town was a small price to pay for living in paradise.

April, I'm so happy DH will be home tomorrow. Give Charlie a hug from me. I just love doggies. BTW, my blue light is brightly making me happy. Thanks again for the info on it.

Well, that's about it. Again, welcome Jenny. We'd love to have you here.
Marie

:welcome3: jenny glad you could join us! granma to a hamster hehe that made me laugh! all my children are 4 legged fur kids and i like it that way...

hey i binge too! i've been doing better lately, more general overeating than bingeing. but today like jenny i have had a foul breakfast. i started the day with buzz bars. they are marshmallow and caramel covered in chocolate and come in long bars. i am addicted to them but first thing in the morning hmmmm

i agree with Keira - don't be so hard on yourself with the bingeing. emotional eating is soooo hard to overcome. it's a gradual process. for months i was incapable of having even a single day without bingeing! i have been journalling my experiences and that helps. plus the support from places like this :D well done Keira resisting the urge to binge!!!

good thing i mowed the lawns yday. it is pouring with rain, absolutely crappy day. plus the dogs are v wet. they are inside dogs but i am leaving them out so they don't track mud and smell into the house

i am wondering if i might have to change the curtains and do a few things to improve my chances of selling??? i will keep my fingers crossed for a buyer today :) an agent is selling a house down the road and has an open house too so i am hoping that will pull buyers to my place. i put my signs outside the house at 9am today so people will see it is for sale!

Marie - it's wonderful that blue light is working so well for you. I have the link somewhere I must go take another look. It's autumn here so we are getting less sunlight. the trouble is it is v expensive to get stuff shipped from the US to here. never mind it would be worth it if it worked. glad you like the monthly format ;)

i don't mind a long commute to town if they are all straight roads but i get stressed about driving on windy roads esp as there are no lights at night. that's why i moved into town. boy do i regret that LOL

i did start thinking after spending yday with my friends that i need more friends like them. i am a bit disenchanted with my other "friends" here. had a fight with one on friday and she is definitely off my list... i will have to join some new hobbies so i can meet friends

i am also thinking of learning webdesign as i need to update my website. trouble is i think it would take a long time to learn enough to make it as professional as some i have seen and that is what i want. otherwise i have to save my pennies. it will cost several thousand for what i want...

SweetPea, I took a class on Dreamweaver (3 day intensive) a year and a half ago, then took a Dynamic Dreamweaver class in Oct 2005. Dynamic database driven sites are great to create. I do them at work (since I'm the webmaster I get to literally play on many workdays). My personal site is pretty ho-hum design wise. I haven't put any effort ino it. Mostly it's for my family since I live on the other side of the country from them. By the way, I updated the site with new Grandbaby pictures. www.mariesdogs.info/grandbaby.html if you want to look. The latest drawing I did this week is at www.mariesdogs.info/drawings.html

Good luck on selling the house tomorrow (today for you). I understand about the windy roads at night. I have very bad night vision since I had lasik surgery 6 years ago. So I took care of the problem - I don't go anywhere at night. I bet that would be harder if I were single. But since DH is here, no need to go anywhere.

Really the Go-Lite is worth the shipping/cost. I can't believe how well I did this winter - even on meds I was never this upbeat. Truly between the light and exercising, I feel normal. I did notice a couple days ago that a manic swing is in the works. Sleeplessness and jumpiness are my indicators. I told DH so he'd monitor he $$$. I also cut back the amount of ligth therapy so it doesn't swing me to far. My psychiatrist warned against that with lightboxes, that they can induce manic stages. So I'm being careful.

Chatted with my sister and then later my parents. Bad to say, but I did my familial duty for the day. YEAH!!!! Except my sister, I could have chatted longer with her, but she's a real chatterbox - never stops. Even today she admitted that she didn't let me say a word - so sh'es calling again tomorrow.

Well, off I go - for now. :)
Marie

Hey everyone.

Welcome Jenny! Like so many already said, don't beat yourself up. I think we ALL binge sometimes. I used to do it more, but like Marie. the feeling of being stuffed is too much for me now. So I just overeat!!;)

Sweet Pea-Good luck selling the house. Hope it goes fast! And you can get out to the country. Won't the doggies like that!

So when I twisted my ankle the other day, I managed to tear some ligaments. They have me in an air splint, and I'm using a cane to get around. Supposed to be keeping it elevated, too, but when you have 3 kids, well, NOT gonna happen.

My parents came down today, my dad fixed some things around the house, and my mom helped the kids clean up. Then they took the kids back home with them. Yay!! I get the weekend to myself.

Marie-you said you have the Go Lite? I found that one online. I think I'm going to go ahead and order it. Can't hurt, and if it helps, wonderful.

I have my appt with the psych this Tues. I hope hope hope they can hit on the right med combo quickly. I want to get better! The ADs are just not doing it.

I think I'm going to go take a nice hot bubble bath, light some candles, read a good book. Wish I had some wine! Talk to you all later.

hi there
i am sitting here at the open home... and no one is here!!!! the last 2 times there were people here at 2pm on the dot. this time not a soul. rats rats. i can't believe all my cleaning is wasted ;) oh well 30 mins to go will keep my fingers crossed. cleaning was a major hassle. i still have constant headaches and they make it hard. the poor doggies have been locked in their little house for hours. i popped in to give them some rawhide bones and then had to go back when i heard snarling. the puppy had both the bones in her mouth! naughty puppy. i don't usually lock them in there with bones as it is too risky with a possessive doggy

marie i had a look at your website. of course i liked the golden the best cutie. others have talked about dreamweaver so if i plan to do my own designing i should think about getting it. not sure if it mightn't be better to pay and get all the bells and whistles by asking someone else to design it???

i want to go lie down but i will wait until after 3pm!!!

marcie - it takes a while to get the combo right esp if you are bipolar. did your psych agree that was the correct diagnosis? your rapid cycling will make it harder to sort out what to use. it's common for bipolar to have AD plus a mood stabiliser. i was on 3 different types of meds. i am starting to think i should check out the blue light.

marcie - how wonderful to have a break from the kids. esp as you usually have them 24/7 with the homeschooling and hubby being away.

will go back and read my book until the open home is over!

no one came!!! oh well my friend told me not to give up. i'm glad she phoned i was feeling down ;)

just got back from hunting for my slipper. found it buried in the garden. it's all dirty and revolting :rofl:

Hey everyone! I've been so busy lately. I'm really tired. Despite that, and having gone to NYC for a week, I've lost 3 lbs in the past two weeks!! I was so excited to see the scale at 158 this morning. It was amazing. I was sure that I would get stuck at 160 for awhile but I made it past and I'm feeling great.

I hope everyone is doing well. Laterz <3

Great Sunday Morning to all my favorite Chickies. I'm sorry, SweetPea that there were no lookers. Are you trying to sell your house by yourslef or do you have a realtor? I remember having two open houses when I was selling my house, and the offers never came from those. So I wouldn't worry too much. BTW, I do love my Golden, but she's dumber than a rock. My Huskies are so smart that she often fades in the background.

<3, excellent job on the weight loss. I hope you had fun in NYC. I've never been there (except when I was little and don't remember). I'm a country dweller but used to love big cities. At one point when in high school, I wanted to live in NYC but then I discovered how much I loved living in the country. I guess people do change.

Marcie, enjoy your weekend alone. How cool for you. Bubble bath and candles sounds perfect and relaxing. And soaking your ankle is probably good, too. I hope it get better quickly. The Go Lite is great. I'm sitting in front of mine at the moment. What's really nice about it is how tiny it is. Very easy to bring back and forth to work and on trips. My old full spectrum light was a pain in the butt. April's the one who recommended it and she was way right!

Right now I'm enjoying a wonderful Diet Snapple. A month ago when I went to Costco, I bought a case and DH put in the storage with all the rest of the goodies from Costco. I'd forgotten I'd slipped it into the cart. I found the case this week and yummy!!!! I love them. Now I'm drinking two or three bottles a day!!! Feast or famine with me. :)

Did my exercise this morning but I plan to go for another 2 mile walk around the block with my puppies later this afternoon. I promised them and a promise is a promise. So I'll have 5 miles in today. Also knitted part of my sister's sweater after exercising while cooling down. The knitting machine is so quick. :)

Well, of to the journals. I'll chat with you later.
Marie

morning

i just showed someone thru the house. she likes it and will send her hubby to look tmrw. fingers crossed! she is a doggy person so we talked about our dogs too :rofl:

i have to write an article for a book so i need to get into that. the hard part is deciding what to write about. it has to be something inspiring to help people improve their lives

beautiful sunny day today. have spent a bit of time outside and have to get back inside to do my writing but i don't want to. i just want to lounge around and do nothings

<3 wow sounds like you have had a busy time. NYC wahoo! personally i would be over the moon to be 160# that's my goal weight. i decided being slim isn't critical but i do need to stop being overweight. i am prediabetic and i love my fat and sugar so i have to nip that in the bud

marie i am selling privately. i will just keep persevering. it's too much money to lose and the market here is not strong it will be hard to get a good price so i need to save the pennies. esp as i am trading up and the next house will probably be 2x the price of this one

awwww no. a dumb golden??? actually mine are quite smart, altho jasmine is quite young so it's a bit early to tell. huskies are not common here. i have probably only met 2 in my life - and i;ve met a LOT of dogs!

what is snapple?

wow marie - 5 miles that is heaps. i am nowhere near tht active. last night i walked saffie on her own. she's a pleasure to walk. jasmine is just stress city. i have never had a dog that hates being restrained the way she does. hmmm maybe she's not so bright??? who knows. but it is too much for me some days. i had one good day walking her. i gave her a mcd wrapper to hold in her mouth and she behaved. i've tried sticks and she drops them so the mcd wrappers seem to be the way to go

Okay, that is too funny - a Mickey D's wrapper for your puppy??? That's cool. My doggies loved the walk and we took DGS in he jogging stroller I bought. So it was DH, the baby, and 3 dogs for a 2 mile hike around the mountain block. I'm a little tired now. :) My huskies pull the entire time and they're driving my nuts, especially Kody. Blizzard doesn't pull strongly, just always pressure on the leash. But Kody, I swear there's a reason huskies are sled dogs. Goldie walks pretty good, but stops right in front of me so I trip on her. Sort of pesty too. But I just can't not take them - it would kill them.

Snapple is a bottled drink, like Diet Iced Tea that is real, not powdery. Very popular here in the US. I love the stuff, especially the Diet Cranberry and Raspberry drink.

Good luck on selling privately. That's hard to do. I sure do understand your reasons though.

I finished my big drawing of Kody during the Nascar race. I had to take a picture of it for my website, not scan it since it was too big. Turned out pretty good, but it's not my best. I also knitted the front of my sister's cardigan. Busy, busy day. I do see signs of manic in my behavior.

Okay, I'll chat with you all tomorrow.
Marie

Well, I did a whole lotta nothing today. Read a book. I need to go to the store, but fighting a touvh af agoraphobia. Don't know if I will end up being able to talk myself into going or not. It's a crawl under the covers and hide for a week kind of day.

Sweet Pea-Don't let it get you down. You will find the perfect buyer for your house!

Marie-Wow, you are the queen of exercise! I think I would enjoy walking more if it weren't for the agoraphobia. It's not really severe, but at times it makes itself known, and I REALLY don't want to leave the house. Anyone else experience that? It's a huge pain in the butt.

Okay, I'm going to try to just do it.l Talk to you all later.

Marie it does sound a busy day. I can see why you suspect mania LOL but at least it's nice to get stuff done. Iced tea is something else we don't get here! somehow i can't see it taking off

Marcie - good on you for braving it and going (or are you hiding under the covers hehe). I have had severe social phobia in the past and hidden at home because i didn't want to see people. it was the reason i moved into town because it was dangerous for me to spend so much time without seeing people. i find for some reason i am ok about leaving the house if my dogs are with me but not on my own which is why i prefer to walk everywhere. then i can take them to the shop and tie them outside. taking them in the car is not the same. it was the only way i could get over my fear of leaving the house. i do think thought that you are right marcie to push yourself to go. i found the more i made myself do stuff the more i realised that it was safe and that it was okay. after a while i became more comfortable with being around people altho in many ways i would still enjoy being a hermit and just have everything delivered and not leave the house. but it can get so bad that i won't leave even when i need to e.g. when i need pills, groceries, etc etc. then i had no friends and no support when i needed it. vicious cycle

good morning

i had a lot of trouble sleeping last night and ended up getting up for an hour to calm down. i had a few glasses of wine so i didn't want to take a pill. i will probably nap later today

i better rush outside before it rains. need my dose of sunshine!

i will work today on my article for the book and then spend some time thinking about where i want to move. there is a house for tender closing this friday i am interested in but i think i will wait until this place sells before doing anything or make an offer conditional on selling this place. still thinking

had fettucine for dinner last night. yummy i love pasta!

SweetPEa, I'm making pasta for dinner tonight. I put the ingredients in the bread machine for fresh bread and I'm making an angel hair pasta with veges and chicken in it. Very yummy!

Also, one thing about the napping - I finally figured out that the nights I have more trouble sleeping are the days that I napped in the afternoon. I'm trying hard to not nap since I like sleeping through the night. Something you might want to think about.

Marcie, sounds like you had a good day. Reading a book is great for the soul and takes you to a wonderful place. I love fiction but I get very addicted to it. If I read a book, I read another, then another until I haven't seen my fmaily for a couple weeks. Sort of a problem. Right now I'm in a cold turkey stage.

On the walking, a lot of my walking is done with the Walk Away the Pounds DVDs so I'm inside. From the end of October until the weather improves in the spring (perhaps May this year) wlaking outside is difficult. Either too dark o too wet or both. The DVDs helped keep me in shape and the depression at bay.

Chat with you all later.
Marie

Yes I try not to nap for that exact reason but yday i did nap and it was a late nap 3.30-5.30. i think an earlier nap is better. later naps tend to see me going to bed later and undoing the good work. trouble is though i have constant headaches. they seem to be sinus headaches altho i have only very minor symptoms (slightly blocked nose). i can't understand why thge headache is there when i am not especially stuffed up. also headaches are uncommon for me

i need to get FOCUSED i am very distracted right now. thinking about too many things and getting sidetracked looking at stuff for my website which can wait. it isn't urgent.

oh well the rain started, once again i got distracted so didn't spend enough time in the light before it clouded over :dizzy:

i love reading. if i get a good book i will read all day and all night. i carry it with me everywhere even to the letterbox. lately tho i have found that the headaches mean i can stop reading. probably a good thing as some nights i used to read until 3am as i was so caught up in it all!!! sounds like my twin marie is the same hehe

only difference is i find those WATP DVD boring. admittedly i only did it once and i have the 1, 2, 3 mile tapes. truth is if i am doing a tape i'd prefer to dance. last night i tried to dance but i just couldn't get the energy up. mentally i couldn't get into the music and physically i was sluggish. have to keep persevering. walking with saffie is a pleasure. if only i could sort jasmine out so we could all go. however i think i have found some walkways i can take the dogs to. that would be better - no leads to hold

interesting i didn't really feel like wine last night, haven;t had any for ages but couldn't find any mountain dew at the shops (love that stuff) so had wine instead. no desire for it at all, and it didn't calm me or stimulate me. i think i know when it will work and when it won't. good tho that i am on the wagon. cheaper too ;)

i have to stop obsessing over my website. once i get something in my head it is hard to shake. i ahve to keep reminding myself today i need to work on my article for the book...

OMG I need help!!!

I am at a crisis with my dogs. The puppy is untrainable on a lead. I have never seen anything like it. I've had squillions of suggestions and they're all things I know to do and have been doing consistently. I will scream at the next person who says I am not being consistent or not doing it properly. I know how to walk a dog. My other dog went to obedience (Saffie) and she is perfect on a lead. Pretty good off a lead except where water is concerned. I can't stop her going into water. But off the topic.

walking one dog and leaving the other behind is simply not practical. much much easier on me but it's not fair to leave the little one behind on her own and i worry about her getting a "complex" but i am about this close {--} to smacking the living **** out of her. she is cute and adorable but absolutely stubborn and unwilling to be on a halter. I am not prepared to go back to walking her on collar and lead as I hate being pulled everywhere

what the heck can i do. walk just one dog or walk no dogs. i will ring and so if i can get another obedience person prepared to come out but honestly i doubt it will help. i am at crisis. this is the way i like to live my life. for 20 yrs i have had dogs that walk everywhere with me. it's the way i like to live my life

right now i want to run away i can't cope

Sweet Pea-I did force myself to go out. Whenever this comes up, I do make myself go, because if I didn't I know it would just get worse and worse till I was a hermit.

I really can't nap during the day. Totally messes me up, and I am useless (even more than usual, lol) for the rest of the day.

Marie and Sweet Pea-Sounds like we all have reading addictions! I start to panic if I'm down to my last book. Have to go to the library!!!! That's one place I will always go, even in the worse of the phobia times. And like you, I often stay awake till 3 AM reading. I get so tired, I will first close one eye, then the other, and keep switching back and forth so I can read even longer. What a goof. Oh well, I feel like I really need it at this point. I would hate to see myself cold turkey! You are a brave woman, Marie.

I also find exercise dvds boring. I just ordered some belly dance ones. I can't wait to try them. I've done it once or twice, and really liked it. Great for the abs! Of course, at the moment I have no abs....

Sweet Pea-Sorry, I have no ideas for your dog. I do not have the patience for training. Good luck! Hope you find a solution soon.

you've done well marcie. it's the only way. sometimes the fear is worse than not doing anything.

i'm so bad i have rung the doc. i can't get into see my doc so i'm seeing her hubby who works at the same place. i think i may need to go back on AD or something i am really really bad. i can't go on like this. mystress threshold is so low that everything is getting on top of me. i have an appintment in 50 mins. i don't even know if there is anything he can do. i am just so angry and tearful and irritable.

i've phoned the chief instructor she said she'd see if she can come out to my house so she can see her in her own environment. hopefully that might help

will go to doc anyway my stress tolerance is too low

doc thinks it may be a sinus infection so i have 3 weeks of antibiotics. hopefully that will cure the headaches!

Hello Ladies!

Hope I can join your chat if you don't mind.
I have depression and social phobia, and being overweight certainly doesn't help me with that! :dizzy: But talking with all of you is very comforting and I can be myself!
Anyway I have a golden retriever named Bailey he's my sweetheart :love: And I have two sisters one of which my twin. I live with my parents and I am a high school student.

I am an emotional eater, if I am unhappy I will try an compensate with anything sweet I can find. I usually end up feeling really lousy later on though.

Anyway, I joined 3fatchicks in December of last year, and I love it here! I really need to put more effort into losing weight but I am just not very motivated, any tips on motivation to eat right and exercise. :?:

Thanks ladies :hug:

Welcome Kristen. You live where I was born (moved so many moons ago I don't remember it). But if you're from Jersey, then you're definitely welcome. :) I too am an emotional eater, but even more than that, I eat when I'm bored. Like today, I want to munch, munch because I'm back at work. So sad for spring break to be gone - maybe for good since there are ugly rumors my contract will be upped to year round. Anyway, when I'm bored I eat. Work is boring at the moment, hence I want to eat and am doing my best to ignore it. But there are only 13 minutes left to lunch so I'm almost halfway through the day. :) Kristen, just out of curiousity, is your twin overweight? If not, I would think that's got to be so hard to handle. Give Bailey a hug from Goldilocks (who is currently at the groomer getting her summer cut - short).

SweetPea, I know that there are people that can take your dog and train them, then come back with the dog (after trained) and train you on their training. Maybe this is the only option for Jazz. I know that my Siberians are horrid to train. They're so darn smart that they act like the class royalty, performing perfectly. Bring them home and they're asses. In the past, I certainly thought of sending them away for training, but then I moved to the country and much of the problem went away.

Glad that you might be on the way to recovery with the antibiotics. Did dr. address the mood problem? did you discuss AD's?

Marcie, way to go on getting out. It is easy to become a hermit. I do that on my summer vacations. I just want to be in my little world. I hate traveling. Despise it. Dread it. Mostly because I don't want to be away from home and my doggies. (They are my life) But I am forced about 2X per year to travel. We're going to Minnesota in July and I'm already dreading it. So I'll be in your boat, forcing myself to go. I think much of my problem is the bi-polar and need for consistency and regular patterns. At home I have control of my life. At work, not as much and on vacation I have none.

Okay, back to work I suppose. Again, Kristen, welcome!!!!!
Marie

:welcome2: kristen!!! aww another golden retriever owner... I have 2 goldens and Marie has one

yup major emotional eater here haha

Marie i don't think anyone does the dog training here. i know what you are talking about there is a guy 2.5 hours away who does that sort of thing. an animal behaviourist. we will see but meanwhile i will leave her home as it is too much for me. or take her to parks where i don't need to put her on a lead. i love her but arggggh. also she has a bacterial skin infection that is spreading and the halter won't be helping.

what to do... i am meant to meet a woman this afternoon. she asked to meet giving me some blather about how much we would have in common and wanting to network with me but truthfully she just wants to pick my brain on how to promote herself. i put her off for nearly 3 mths. now i want to wriggle out of the meeting. i just can't be bothered. also not really in biz mode. instead i want to buy curtains and do the house up nice LOL so i can move on out of here! am thinking of cancelling. how do i tell her i'm not interested in helping her (altho you see that was subtext. she says it's because we can swap and share ideas but i know she just wants me to give her free advice)

oh well into the shower i go and wash my hair. see how i feel then.

Marie we are definitely twins. Jasmine is perfect at the obedience class and the instructor didn't believe me. he's like jasmine doesn't need a halter!! grrr one time tho i forgot the food treats and she was a right sod. but i don't have enough hands to walk 2 dogs and hold treats etc etc. besides i shouldn't have to

also twins - i hate leaving my dogs behind. that's why i like walking everywhere with them. and holidays mean leaving the dogs behind and they're my security blanket...

oops i forgot to answer the question on ADs. he said that he looked over the report from the p-doc and that they had stated that ADs are unlikely to be helpful. and that has proved correct in the past. they stop the crying and the suicide nothing more. of course that's a good thing but altho i am v emotional and crying i am not suicidal

i have a personality disorder and a mind that won't still and meds can't really do a lot about that. short term they can help calm my mind but after a few days they turn me into a zombie. that's why i wish i could meditate. i have done a lot of courses and never mastered it ;)

Sweet Pea-So did they give you any advice at all??? Or just turn you loose, saying they can't help? It sounds like you really need something to get you through this. I feel for you. I've been there.

Kristen-Welcome. I love coming here. I was posting on the jc site before, but connect so much better here. Because everyone understands what I'm going through.

I had my appt with the psych today. Never having been to one, it was quite the eye-opener. She was asking me the date, where we were, what was happening in the news, and if I had ever committed homicide!!!! Okay, NOOO, I'm not crazy. Anyway, she agreed with my therapist that I have a form of bipolar, and is starting my on lamictal. Then she will phase me off the Celexa. I am so hopeful. Something has to work. Although she did kind of scare the crap out of me talking about this rash associated with the med that is fairly common, and can be fatal! She went on and on about it, how to tell if you have it, how long to wait before you call her. I will be inspecting every inch of my body for the next week!!

Sweet Pea, are you the one who likes the rose oil? I tried it. Love it. It does seem to lift my mood, and the scent lasts so long.

Okay, I guess I better get back to the housework. Oh yay.

Marcie that's normal for a first appointment (except for the question about homocide - were you carrying an axe lol). they test if you are oriented to time date and place. it's part of the mental status exam. a very small number of people have no idea where they are or what the time is. of course the fact that you made it to your apptmt suggests you probably passed that test!!! they usually also ask about drugs and alcohol, suicide, thoughts, etc etc. bipolar and anxiety can be confused so they have to ask lots of questions to differentiate between them and make sure they have the right diagnosis.

i guess it was good she warned you about side effects but it sounds like she went overboard LOL. did she say what type of bipolar she thinks you may have? did you feel comfortable with her???

yes yes it's me that loves rose oil. it is divine and very uplifting. i need to get into the habit of using it daily. it is fantastic. well worth the price. i don't wear perfume so i figure it is worth the money.

they didn't really give me any help but if the antibiotics get rid of the headache i will be thrilled. anyway docs just like to give you drugs and i don't like drugs so not really a meeting of the minds there.

I did like her. She told me what it was, but I was kind of overwhelmed, and I don't remember.

I am having SUCH a hard time tonight. My nerves are jumping right out of my skin. I'm panicky, and I feel so ******* alone. I feel so alone. It's going to be a very long night.

well let's hope the meds make a difference
can you phone your parents or a friend to talk with?

Not really. My mom would tell be to go to her house, she likes it when I'm weak, so I can't do that. Have isolated myself somewhat, so no close friends. That's why I'm here with you guys.

That sounded kind of funny, like you were a last resort. That's not the way it is at all. The people on this site have been womderful, and I have been able to open up like never before.

hehe i didn't read it that way.

my mother is the same. she will never come to me when i'm upset even if it's a disaster and i've lost my job or my man or whatever. she's always "too busy"

this site is great, but a real life friend is more "immediate" well usually. sometimes we're all here at the same time but with time differences we often are many hours apart.

Hi Marciet,
how are things going this morning?

Morning everyone, wow SweetPea and Marcie almost had a chat room going. :) And yes Marcie, how are you today? Was last night the pits? Totally agree with you about the friends here - you all know way more than me "friends" except maybe one. Naw, you guys know more. :) Actually, that one friend from around here just lost her mother and so this afternoon I'm going to the funeral. It was sort of a surprise. Two weeks ago she was diagnosed with leukemia and then she passed away this past weekend. So sad. So here I am at work, all dressed up in my somber clothes (I tend to take business casual a little far most of the time) and I'm uncomfy. Just want my jeans and sweaters. But I dug out my jean skirt and luckily it still fits. Comfy - no. But it does fit. :)

Marcie, what a strange question if you ever committed homocide. I can understand if you were asked if you ever tried to commit suicide - but homocide? That's just plain strange. I agree with SweetPea, were you carrying an axe?

SweetPea, maybe Jazzy needs psycho-therapy for her behavior issues. I know after my golden was tortured and shot, my vet almost put her on prozac. Have you talked to your vet about the problem?

Oh, I suppose I should work. I really don't want to.
Marie

I'm doing better this morning. It was a very bad night, and this morning started off bad, but I'm feeling better now. I wasn't carrying an axe, just a cane!! Maybe she thought I was going to cane her. Oh well. Maybe next time. Hehe.

You guys are so great. I love being on this forum. I look forward to it every day.

hi all! jasmine pulled some more wallpaper off the wall grrrrrr. a bit hard to sell a house with chunks of wallpaper missing. i am looking into it and deciding whether to strip the walls (hideous colours) or just hid that part with a plant

the vet thinks jazz is 1 of a kind. never seen anything like it but there aren't any animal behaviourists in the area that she felt she could recommend. still waiting for the lady at the club to ring and come see her. unfortunately she can no longer wear the halter as the staph (sp) infection has spread on her face. all a bit much

ok off to have breakfast and read my mailorder clothes catelogue for stuff i like but can't fit !!!