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hi ladies
bailey gives all the golden retrievers hugs! he loves other dogs, and he loves walking me, but when he wears his harness he listens because if he pulls the harness pulls back a little. I was so good today...stayed in my calorie range and exercised a little didn't have much time and still recovering from my terrible sinus infection. Didn't binege or anything either!! so proud hows everyone else doing? Hope all the pooches are well, I don't have much time to discuss today but be on again friday :) |
I ate so much pizza tonight and birthday cake, that my tummy hurt,
and it wasn't all that tasty either... i really hate when i do that!! |
can i ask an opinion from you???
here is the house listing http://www.trademe.co.nz/Browse/List...px?id=51028489 i would like to know whether you find the colours ok or blech. i was thinking of changing the bedrooms to cream (currently cream/red, green, violet blue) or maybe changing the curtains. all costs money and takes time. any thoughts on whether the house looks appealing as is??? thanks everyone take care i am off for a walk with the monsters |
oh i forgot to go the next page silly me haha
jenny - was it your bday??? i love cake and pizza too. altho i really only like chocolate cake, fruit cake doesn't do it for me. hope your tummy feels better soon. boy do i know what that is like!!! well done kristen on the good eating |
Way to go Kristen!!! You're doing great. No binging is fabulous!!
Jenny, sorry about the tummy ache. It'll settle in a while. I overate big time a couple weeks ago - cake - and made myself walk 5 miles instead of 3. Thought I was going to fall over. I'm hoping I learned my lesson. Went to my friend's mother's funeral. So sad. But I did something amazing. At the reception with the yummy, heartwarming (read fattening) foods, I didn't have anything. I WASN'T HUNGRY!!! So I didn't eat. Hoely smokes, did I finally learn????? SweetPea, your house is lovely. I'm not a one wall brightly painted type of gal (soft and one color is my style) BUT I thought it looked very nice. Don't paint it. Being the type that doesn't go for that type of decorating, I could see the possibilities with what I do like. So will others. I would fix the wallpaper thought. Hiding it isn't honest. :( Beautiful kitchen and if the pups go with the house, you should have buyers in no time. :) |
Sweet Pea- VERY nice house. I love the colors! I wouldn't change anything. It's very appealing.
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ok here i am back again hehe
didn't go for the walk instead i spoke on the phone to one of those 24 hour counselling services called lifeline. i was at my wits end and overloaded. reading the comments i may be overreacting the house might be okay. really it's okay it's just that people seem to want so much. it's nice to know it has some appeal hehe oh marie that's a bright idea. imagine leaving the puppies here!!! they are nice girls. the lady on the phone gave me an idea of a place to take the dogs that i didn't know about. it's a big park. most of the ones around here are so small it takes 5 mins to walk around them marie - wow what self control you are amazing. seems like you've quite balance now and that is helping you keep on top of things |
Not my birthday, today was my daughter Olivia's 5th birthday.
I'm anxious tonight. Just took some klonopin, it's been awhile since i've had to take any. I'm tired..but there is just too much on my mind. I feel overwhelmed kinda....sad, and i feel like a whale. |
do you guys know how to make your pictures small enough to post them on here?
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campbellredhead-The avatar page will tell you the dimensions, and then if you have picture manager or something similar you can edit the size of your pictures there. That's what I did.
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JENNY i hope you feel well soon :hug: i am in the same boat. i just had a big pig out on pasta, garlic bread, chocolate mousse etc. i feel bloated. i don't know why i ate it all. i've just taken a klonopin too. i need to calm down
the loneliness is getting to me today. i simply don't have enough real life friends. and no one who i feel really close to. i am thinking of taking a holiday. i am not sure when i would do it tho because of selling the house. in the meantime i think i will look into going to massage or a day spa or something for some pampering. last night the klonopin didn't help my sleep but i will try again. i have a script for something else but i have lost it oops!!!! anyway i am sure if i get some sleep and some r+r and get my head around a few things i will feel much better! i started reading a book today and spent a lot of time humming and hawing about curtains. marcie is that pix of you at your current weight? you look slim in that picture lol. i tried to change my avatar to one i saw but i don't think i copied it right. i will have to hunt around and find something else ;) |
I dont' feel any better than i did last night,
And the klonopin didn't help me either last night, i don’t feel good, i was up until 2am, so i’m tired, and have to take care of my 5 yr old. I feel like hiding in bed, i feel like crying, screaming, breaking things, just...feel like sh*t. Gosh the day is starting out....completely awful. Supposed to do some fun things with daughter today. Tried on several clothes, yuck-don’t like to look in the mirror… Oh my...... What a day so far........................stresssssssssssssssssss ssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss ssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss ssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss sssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss and it isn't the time of the month, i almost wish it was, then i'd feel a little better about my mood... I'm married, but not to Olivia's daddy, we live in Ga, her daddy lives in Fl. and she struggles with going back and forth, she always wants to know why i didn't marry her dad, and stuff, she was tired yesterday evening, and crying about wanting to be with her dad, and that extended family on dads side hadn't called to sing her happy birthday, and her birthday was a disaster, etc... it completely and totally breaks my heart when she talks like that and she is sad. Why didn't i marry her dad? How do i explain that at first i wanted to marry her dad, but we had issues, he had issues and wouldn't get help. How do i explain drinking and drugs, and addiction, and cheating. How do i explain someone who verbally abuses you, someone who messes with your mind, until you think you are going crazy. How do i explain that her entire life, i've done everything in my power to do what is best for her and her dad makes life difficult, and fights everything, and lies about me, and makes her watch scary movies, and go on scary rides, and he doesn't follow her medicine regime right-she has asthma and acid reflux, How do i explain why at our house, she has to sleep in her room, and at daddys she sleeps with him, How do i explain so many things, and sometimes i get gripped with the worst fear that something will happen to me, and i'll never get the chance when she is older to explain things to her,and her dad, would blame it all on me, like he does now, and i'd be the enemy. She adores my husband and calls him daddy bear-he is hairy*S* i never asked her to call him that-she came up with it, her dad wants her to call him by his first name. She deserves a life with parents who are together, loving one another, not what she has. Please just keep us in your prayers today, i don't want to ruin the day, but i have little to no patience, and Olivia is very energetic and spunky, i dont' want to yell at her today... thanks for listening.. i wish right now...you could all give me a big hug... sorry if that sounds lame... How do i explain all that....i can't she is too young. So that is why i feel like i've been run over by a truck. My counselor is on vacation too, i don't see her till 4/18 that is way to far away.............................................. ............................................ |
Good morning everyone :wave:
Welcome Campbellredhead:welcome: I sure hope you feel better today:hug: It sounds to me that you need a good nights sleep, when I can get one I feel better. :hug: Happy Birthday to Olivia, five is a big year! Sweet_pea hope you are feeling better as well :hug: Must be a change in the weather thats making things so tough for a lot of us. Your house is quite lovely. I would think the back yard would be a big selling point as well. Hi Marie, Maricie, Kristen! Sorry I haven't been around much. My DD14 and I are going to be going to another judo tournament this weekend and I'm stressing a little about that. (Its and 8 - 9 hours drive away) The plans keep changing. And this morning DD14 got her monthly visitor, so of course she doesn't want to go to the tournament and deal with it as well. On Saturday our septic box flooded, it turned out run off water was getting in through a pipe under our modular home and the pump couldn't keep up with it. So I'm not really sleeping and of course in PMS and letting all this stuff get to me, so I've been hiding. Sleeping away my days and reading until the wee hours. At least the weather has been beautiful with blue skies and sunshine :) Oh and the culvert at the end of our driveway is now open so no more lakes yea! After this weekend we have two more tournaments in town and then she will just have to work on her belt test, so it will just be the normal stuff, a lot less stress for me. I have to start working on my DD18's costume as she is planning on going to an anime convention this summer and wants to dress up. Anyway I should get going I have to do a quick trip to town to pick up a few last minute things as my DD18 and DD16 will be home alone for the one night while I'm gone and DD18 only has her learners license and isn't allowed to drive alone yet. So I need to make sure they are well stocked at home here. Take care everyone and I hope you have a wonderfull day and take it easy! K |
Hi everyone, can you believe it??? I'm at work, and I actually had to work!!!!! The nerve. :)
Campbell, I am so sorry that you're the "bad" one when it's her father that's the problem. I think you've done something amazing - making sure she didn't grow up in that atmosphere and you don't bad mouth the father. Go job to you. I think to ward off the worry of if something happens to you, who will protect her image of you has to be you. Write her a letter telling her how you feel at her age 5 and why you've done what you've done. Seal it and put it with your will. Maybe she'll never see it and if the worst does happen she has the love letter and will know you. But if nothing else, it'll put your mind at ease about something you need not worry about. Wish I could giv eyou the big hug, it's not lame. It's human. I hope your night goes better. You, too SweetPea. I really hope that you get some good rest. good for you for calling the hotline. Definitely use it when you need it. Hey, one thing that I've noticed during my life is that I don't make friends easily. I was severely burned by "friends" in high school and I protect myself with a cloak of armor. In the middle of the night, I have only one friend I would call. And I'd probably wait till morning. My DH is by far my best friend in the world and if I didn't have him, I'd be very alone too. See we are twins. Anyway, what I learned is that I have 2 friends (DH and my friend whose mom died) and many acquaintances. By expecting less of my acquaintances, I'm better able to deal with the fact that I have two friends. Labels, I know. But it helped. I have low expectations for "friends". You all are way better friends than most of my acquaintances. Scary, huh? Okay, off the soap box. I got up early to exercise. YEAH!!!! But the weather is sort of sunny so I'm going to go for another walk with the doggies. Exercise two times today. I should be able to have that Oreo in my other desk. Right??? No, Marie. Bad, Marie. Buddly, I'd hate to have to go to the tournament too. Too far from home. And I don't blame DD for not wanting to deal with TOM and a loose fitting (usually white, right??) outfit. Nope, I don't blame her at all. Marcie, how's it going today???? Marie |
Hi everyone.
Campbell- BIG HUGS COMING YOUR WAY!!!!! What a hard thing to deal with. Your daughter will understand when she gets older. You are doing the right thing by not stooping to her dad's level. Just try to do on;y what has to be done today. Don't put any more stress and pressure on yourself than you already have. I think the letter to your dd is a good idea. At least you would get it all out. But hang in there. We are all here for you. Sweet Pea-It is a current pic. But I had to have my daughter take about 40 pictures before I found one that didn't make me look like a complete cow. You definately need some you time. I know how you feel not having real life friends. I always feel I am putting them out when I call, so I don't. That's one thing about this site I love. Everyone comes because they want to, and respond when they want to. Buddly-Wow, take a few deep breaths. Sounds like it's going to be a busy trip. I don't envy you the drive. Marie-Good job on the exercise! I'm so glad your dh is your best friend. I have wished for that for so long, but I just don't think I can make it happen. It takes two and all that. I'm not doing so hot myself today. The lamictal I started 2 days ago seems to rev me up when I take it, and she told me to be sure to take it at night. So then I can't sleep. I am SO tired today, and feeling down. Too bad life doesn't stop when we do. I really hate night. Always have. That is when my mind and thoughts get out of control, and all the worst case scenerios (sp?) race through my feeble brain. That's why I read until I can't see anymore. So I can't think. Also, and I'm trying to get away from this, but I tend to drink at night. Wine to dull the fear. Bad, I know. I'm trying to stop doing that. But then I usually end up having to take xanax. Just something, anything, to stop the thoughts. The longer I am awake at night, the better. Morning is so much safer, it's easier to sleep then. I don't know why the night scares me so much, except that maybe I feel so alone. Esp. with kids. Whatever happens, I am responsible, and I don't feel I can handle it. So I have to try to make it through today. Well, what's left of it. Talk to you all later tonight. |
ok...so today i bingde and i need to exercise but im still not well (and it's been a week!) ugg!!! so frustrating
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kristen - don't push yourself too hard with exercise. try and find something gentle and low key as you may set yourself back days or weeks if you overdo things. take care!
i will come back and finish this later LOL sunshine calls me (and food) am a bit frustrated - my publisher is changing things on me and i am ready to throw the towel in so instead i will go9 outside and take a few deep breaths then come back and read all your news!!! plus i will eat and eat haha |
Back again!!! still feeling a bit overwhelmed but hoping to just sort out one little thing at a time...
i ended up emailing the publisher telling them to return the countersigned contract and that nothing could happen without it. i know there is a risk they may decide to pull out. i will just accept that risk as i won't let them change the contract. the contract wording is that my chapter will be submitted and be included. now they are saying it is included subject to their approval!!! so i am cross. anyway i have sent the email so we will see. i am still highly irritated and wanting to maim kill scream MKS!!! hi keira. sounds like the judo is keeping you busy busy! ugh flooding septic tank nasty ;) you are as busy as ever jenny - oh i really relate. stresssssssssssss :rofl: it's tough. i can only suggest you do what i am trying to do. just deal with one thing at a time. choose one thing and try to sort it out and leave the rest. 80% of what we do is unimportant anyway :D jenny you're right you can't explain all that to her. it wouldn't be fair right now and it is a big burden for you to carry, but one day she will learn. you are being wonderfully unselfish and you deserve big hugs for that. we will support you as much as we can marie - i started crying when i read about you and friends because altho you may not think it is much to me having 2 friends and in particular your DH is so much more than i have. i really have noone right now. and that's the god honest truth. i have one friend that is simply too busy for me. we talked about it and she said i was being realistic. that in her mind she has put me in the category of being a movie buddy and that's really all it is to her. i mean she likes to chat to me and all that but we see each other once every month or 2. i have another i talk to all the time but i would never call her at midnight and i don't think she would either. it's hard to explain. although we talk every day there isn;t that feeling of intimacy. we do talk about some deep stuff but there's somethng missing. it's not a warm fuzzy place to land. none of the are friends they are all associates. the first person i described energises me in teh way that friends you have a bond with do, the other i enjoy and like but not that click. the rest of the people i know are definitely jsut associates. some of them are very very nice people but we don't spend time together. we know each other say through toastmasters and that's the only time we spend together. i think i feel more of a "click" with some of my online friends. marcie it sounds like you're going through a tough time too. those first few days with meds can have nasty side effects that's for sure. and i sense that like me you feel isolated. it's so good we have all found each other. oh the wine. yes that is familiar. i used to self medicate with wine. i still have occasional binges but thankfully i have lost the "taste" for it of late. how often do you see your therapist marcie? i have been thinking of getting one but it is hard to find one you feel comfortable with. some of them are too clinical and i just feel like it is just a job that they really don't care. i should hunt around for one but i guess i keep hoping i will do it on my own!!! maybe i will. i can't give up that would be a bad idea ;) |
THE FINAL STRAW!!!!
i have just received notice i am being investigated by the tax department. it is too much for me to cope with. |
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Oh Sweet_pea I don't know what to say, its just one thing after another.:hug: The only thing I can think of is breath and take things 15 minutes at a time. I'm so sorry.:hug: Marcie I understand about the night time thing. I've done that so much, I always figured that I had dealt with everything and I could finally relax, no phone calls, no demands, kids sleeping etc so I'd stay up reading till 3 or 4 am. But then of course I'd be exhausted the next day and it would start all over again. Another thing I use to do was to stay up till 3 and then I'd convince myself I could go to sleep as my neighbour across the street would be getting up at 4am and I knew he would be able to keep an eye on everything. I have a little blue golite that I've been using and I'm finding that is helping with getting me to sleep at night. Other things I use are "Calms" "rescue remedy" or "gelsemium" They are all homeopathic remedies. The gelsemium is for stage fright and it helps with the butterflies. The rescue remedy seems to help a little for the nerves. I still need my paxil those are alternatives that I've found helpfull. Marie - I sure don't blame my daughter about not wanting to compete at this time. I bought her some bike short to hold everything in place. We got her a blue gi so that she wouldn't have to worry so much during practices as I would let her skip practices during TOM. Thankfully it will just be the two of us in the hotel room. The last tournament we shared the room with another mom and two other girls. She's feeling a bit better tonight. I'm just not looking foreward to the long drive. I'll feel better Sunday night when we drive back into the driveway. One good thing is that we are travelling with someone else in their van, so I don't have to worry about the car and driving. Kristen I hope you feel better soon. Well I have to go and get packed, so take care everyone, K |
Sweet Pea-When it rains it pours, huh? One thing at a time, darlin. And I am so glad we are all here together. It seems we have some of the same issues to deal with. I see my therapist once a week. It has helped so much. I used to get self help books, but I just got so overwhelmed. He is able to walk me through my thought records, and change the way I think. I know I could not have done that myself. I was so frtunate in that I hit the bullseye my first time around. He is so wonderful, understanding, and knowledgeable. My insurance only covers 20 visits a year, though, and I am already up to 13. Hopefully I will be able to take it from here, and use what he has taught me. I definatley recommend therapy for anyone dealing with depression/anxiety. Just talking it out and hearing a different point of view is worth it!
Buddly-I would have loved to have a neighbor who gets up at 4. It would make the night seem much shorter. Hopefully after the meds kick in, and the side effects wear off, I will be able to sleep a little better. I have tried all kinds of herbal remedies, as my mother is totally into that kind of thing, but the only thing that works at all is melatonin. And even that only works some of the time. I eally wanted to take a nap today, but made myself stay up, so I will be so tired I will be able to sleep tonight. Kristin-I just did the same thing. Every night I tell myself that I will start my diet in the morning. Morning rolls around, and I'm like, hmmm, twinkies! So here I go again. TOMORROW I will start again. My husband somes home in 7 weeks, and we are going on vacation, and he and the kids have decided it would be so much fun to go to a waterslide park. Um, right. 215 pounds shoved into a bathing suit? Not likely. |
Originally Posted by Marciet: i wrote to the tax dept and asked if we could do it all by correspondence - i don't want them to come visit me!!! we will see what they say i feel slightly better after going for a walk with the dogs. now i am trying to decide what to do tonight. whether to buy some dinner or go dancing or stay home. not sure if i mightn't be too emotional to go out. but i may be ok. all depends. sometimes the guys there can be annoying. depends who is there i need to relax. off now to see what is on tv tonight:p |
keira i am intrigued that the golite helps with sleep? how does it help sleep? i am desperate for decent sleep
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Sweet_pea - the go lite changes your circadian rhythms. I use it first thing in the morning and then I find that I'm tired at a "normal" time. I was surprised when it started working. There is a test on the apollo site, and that is where I got my schedual from. All be it I haven't been using it consistently for the last week or so and I'm really off, I thought there was enough oomph in the sun, but not quite for me, I tell my girls I'm "solar powered" and they call my golite my "sun"
Marcie - I hope your meds start to work for you. I just thought I would mention the homeopathic things that I've had some success with. My neighbour has moved so its just me again. To be honest another thing that helped me was getting a dog, as I know he will bark if someone were to come in. My hubby is gone a lot so that made a huge difference. And of course the paxil helps with the rediculous door checking I had to do. I'm finally starting to consider some counselling. I asked my doc about it and he told me to just go to mental health and say I need help......well......that may take some doing. I've been told that meds and counselling together is the best treatment, so its nice to hear a positive testamonial. Well I have to get off to bed I have to get up at 5:30am as we are leaving at 6:30 and I don't do mornings!! Take care all and I'll "see" you next week, K |
Keira that makes sense on the circadian rhythms. my doc told me to go outisde in the sun as soon as i wake and not to get up in the night if i can't sleep as turning the light on will upset the circadian rhythms
dogs definitely do help. i got my first one when i was married and my hubby was often home late. it made me feel much much safer plus of course they are so loving and sweet. i wouldn't be without them meds + counselling are the best approach i'm sure of it. i've done some therapy in the past, plus i've read a lot of self-help books that have helped me but might be time to try again. it's definitely worth thinking about K |
off to bed now! feeling a little calmer. i was very panicky about the tax investigation and still am. i will have to "justify" everything and that could get nasty. never mind will worry about it later. hoping for a good night's sleep and that my house sells this weekend. that will be a load off my mind. altho of course i would then have to find another place :D and pack all my stuff.
the best thing that every helped me was rational emotive therapy which i read in a book and journalling. i don't do it often enough. i esp like journalling by hand. i find there is something about writing with my hand that integrates everything in my head and helps me make sense of things. a lot of the time i am too agitated to sit still to do it. i try to do at least 2 full pages of writing. i haven't done proper journalling for ages. i have tried many days to do some writing about things over the last few weeks but i end up writing half a dozen words and then running off because i can't sit in one place! anyway it is worth a try if you can't afford or are not ready for therapy. or of course as well as therapy. there are lots of good books and courses on it. |
Hi everyone, things are going good today. I woke up this morning singing happy, happy Friday!!! Then today, I started figuring out the rest of my time off for work before July 1 (fiscal year - use or lose type of thing) and I'm not working a heck of a lot in the next two months. For a few weeks I'll be doing 3 day weeks. Since December I've been only working 4 days/week. Unfortunately the last 2 weeks of June and the first week of July I have to work the entire 5 day week. I don't know if I can do that anymore. :) I'm spoiled rotten.
Marcie, when your therapy with insurance runs out (don't use all of them so that you have some in the bank in an emergency) try the base family center. I know that there are resources for military spouses, especially when the spouse is deployed. SweetPea, yikes, tax investigation. Are you self employed? I know here in the US that self-employed gets audited way more often then other returns. If you have all your receipts and such, you'll do fine. I know you to be honest so there's no way they'll find anything. You're in my prayers. buddly, have a good time even though it's hard to go (I know you've probably already left). I'm glad that your DD is going still. Good job on the bike shorts. You're very smart. Kristen, I'm sorry you're not feeling well. Definitely don't push yourself. You're body will recover in it's own time. I got a cold in December and then another in January. I thought I was never going to feel better. Eating healthy (most of the time) and exercising (mild at first) was my way out of the virus cycle. Hugs to you. Well, I should probably get soemthing done. :( Chat with you later. Marie |
Another sleepless night. I do have a great dog, but the problem isn't someone breaking in. It's other, weird stuff, like the kids getting sick. This week, several people in our homeschool group came down with a very nasty stomach bug, and that brought my anxiety and panic back to the surface, with me checking the kids all night. And last night my daughter spent the night with a friend who lives half an hour away, so I kept having thoughts of her callig me in the middle of the night, sick, and me not knowing how I was going to be able to go get her, since I'm home alone with the boys. BUT of course, none of that happened. I have GOT to get some sleep. My house is a mess, laundry is seriously piling up, and if the kids eat one more pop tart, I think they will turn into one.
Yeah, so much for starting the diet again today. I'm too tired to even try. Sweet Pea-Do what you can in preparation, get your receipts, and accounts, etc. ready, and maybe that will help put your mind at ease. Good luck. |
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one of the dogs peed inside last night SCREAM!!! not great when house is on the market. i better go have another go at cleaning it up. just waiting ofor it to dry before having another go at it. back soon :D |
marie working 3 days a week sounds great. bet tht will take a lot of the hassle out of life. you're singng ;) how cute!!!
tax investigation is because i used to own a farm. so yes self employed. they are checking i paid the right amount of tax. i need to get a valuation to support the amount i charged and how i split it over building and land (different tax rates for each). i don't have a valuation so that could cause problems. not sure what else they will poke into but definitely the sale as it is the major amount. marcie - did you talk to your psychiatrist about all your anxiety? i found when i was dx bipolar they sort of overlooked the anxiety. later they decided it was anxious depression rather than bipolar. it may be that you need something specifically for the anxiety. it's hard but somehow you have to tell yourself that everything is ok. you're safe and there is nothing to worry about i am not sure what i will do today. i still have my daily headache. the antibiotics haven't cleared it yet and i feel tired. i took a sleeping pill last night but it was still a restless night. i feel defeated. somehow i have to keep things together until the open house on sunday and then i have to just take off somewhere. don't know where and right now i don't care what it costs. i just want someone to make me feel better. massage nice food etc etc etc. today i need to mow lawns and do poo patrol and a few other things for tmrw open home. then tmrw all the vacuuming etc. i might buy flowers for the house altho if i'm going away they will be wasted!!! |
Good evening, all. I'm doing better tonight. Sat outside in the sun for a while. That felt really good. Now that the weather has cleared up, the boys have been playing outside much more. Therefore, the house isn't getting as messy!!! LOVE summer.
Well, still gotta do laundry. Yucky. |
OH ya this weather is the greatest
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weather here was ok until i started mowing the lawns then drop drop drop. then the mower belt broke and i couldn't start it again - hey presto fine weather
anyway been out and about today. screamed at someone in a shop who interrupted but otherwise incident free. not sure what i will do next. jsut try and relax i think. i bought some curtains for one room now i can't be arsed putting them up hehe. still a bit of daylight so popping outside marcie i love summer too. glad today is better for you |
okies!!! the decision is made. the dogs are booked into the boarding kennels from tmrw night and then i will be off to auckland for a couple of nights. i have booked a hotel so all should be situation go. i just hope nothing goes wrong. i'd hate to get to the kennels and have them say no ma'am your dogs can't stay here. should be ok. one is already up to date with shots. the other gets hers tmrw and she's only a few weeks late so fingers crossed
tonight i have to finish getting ready for open house. i am also needing to finish writing the article. i have taken a fresh look at it and it isn't good enough. i just hope i can get my brain into gear in time to submit it. i am meant to have 3 articles for them which makes it even tougher. i was hoping that i would write one that is so razzmatazz zinging good they wouldn't need the others!!! still time let's hope really looking forward to getting away... |
Hi everyone,
sweet pea i know what you mean about not having many real friends. I haven't had real true friends in years, well my best friend lives in TX. Highschool was easy, but then i moved away, i had one or two friends on and off, but not like best friends, something always...came in between us some how and now, i moved again, i have one friend a neighbour..with 3 kids, she is moving soon from our complex, i hope we keep in touch, for each other, and for the kids... My husband was my best friend for ahwile, but lately he is distant, he is a very quiet man to begin with, and keeps to himself, and lately he does that more, so i get very lonely.... My mom lives here too...but moms are too , i dont' know...they bring things up later, that you told them one time, in a moment of frustration etc.. like i want my mom to make comments about my husband...or something.. i don't think so.. in Fl...i had a terrific christian counselor at our church and for like 3 years i went to her...every other week, she wasn't a friend, but she felt like one, she gave terrific advice, and i knew i could trust her, with out her...i feel lost......... We took Olivia to see Aquamarine on her birthday,and it is a lot about best friends, i cried a lot at the end, how i long for friendships like that again, like i had in highschool. anyways..enough of me babbling. God Bless you all Jenny |
Hi marcie,
i missed the post i guess that you talked about your therapy ins. running out.. you are allowed so many visits a year right? if your counselor/psychiatrist believes it is in your best interest to have more, they usually can contact the insurance company and request more.. Forgive me if this is info you already know.. i just know that my insurance works this way, and all the others that i've had., God Bless you, Keep looking there has to be help out there, non profit or something |
Hey everyone! I'm sorry it's been so long. I've been incredibly busy this week. This morning I was supposed to have a CPR refresher class, so all of us lifeguards showed up and hung around at the junior high for an hour and fifteen minutes. The teacher didn't show up and never answered his phone so we left. Gah!
I hope everyone is doing well. <3 you all! Laterz. |
Morning everyone. Good advice Jenny on having the therapist contact the insurance. Sure worth a try. I'm sorry you feel lonely. My DH is very quiet too but so am I (so is DS1). We're probably pretty boring. :) DS2 is very outgoing - drive the 3 of us nuts. Anyway, I used to get very jealous of his alone time but now I realize how much I like mine, so I've gotten better. Definitely you should keep trying to find a confidant, though. If your DH is getting more distant, that's not a good sign.
Marcie, I love summer too. Just being outside is so nice. DH and I took the doggies around the big block, the 3 mile one - big hills and everything. It sleeted and drizzled on us a few times, but it was so wonderful to breath the fresh air. Cold air aggravates my asthma so I don't like walking outside in the winter. Now that the calendar says spring (not sure Mother Nature got the notice), I just want to be outdoors. SweetPea, what are you going to do on your mini trip. You're more brave than me. I hate traveling and would never do it voluntarily. Like in July, I HAVE to go to visit my family. I got it down to 7 days and two of those days are for traveling. So 5 days for both DH and my family. Too bad for them, I don't want to go even for the 7 days. <3, sorry about the class. That would be frustrating. When I was a lifeguard, I always thought it was goofy to have the refresher classes for CPR (I was also an instructor). Sure couldn't understand the need when I taught the darn thing. :) Well, time to do other things. I'll chat with you later. Marie |
Today is not a good day. I am so tired, and so irritable. Went to the store with the kids, almost strangled them. Then took them to lunch. Should have learned my lesson at the store, right? Anyway, just checking in here. I'm going back to bed.
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Marie - Yeah, it's pretty pointless, although I can understand it for this year because I guess the way CPR is done changed. I'm not sure who has the authority to change it, but they've increased the number of compressions now. Eh, whatever.
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