Okay, SweetPea, some of us read this at work. Don't make me laugh out loud. They'll know I'm not working. The COW comment was hilarious. But now my secret of not working is out. :)

Marcie, SweetPea is right on all counts. I'm glad you're seeing your dr. next week. If you're not better by then, especially with a med increase, you need to discuss with him/her a change in med. BTW, what are you taking? I'm sorry that you were so bummed yesterday. And I'm glad SweetPea could make you laugh, even if it gets me fired. (just kidding on the fired part)

SweetPea, many manuscripts and some a good. The first 4 or 5 I'd never submit, they were my learning tools in writing fiction. I don't know about creativity. In a lot of ways, the creativity seems to have been executed by the meds. I was hoping that getting off them would help, but I still haven't been creative, writing wise. Drawing, crafts, etc - definitely. Writing, not so far. BTW, I don't like seeing my name in print - I'm very introverted. I like to just not be noticed. I guess we're not totally twins.

Exercise that I like. I guess that depends on when. When I was thinner - rollerblading and skiing. Now that I'm fat again, walking outside (hiking in the mountains behind my house) is what I consider fun. mostly because it makes my doggies happy, hence I'm happy. But I do love being outdoors. I used to love to swim, fat or not, but then I got my dream - a big ingroung pool. Then I HAD to swim and then I started resenting it. So when we do open the pool back up, I just play in the water. Very few times last summer did I do laps for exercise - laps for fun, definitely, but not for exercise. I did tell DH that I want to go rollerblading a couple times this year. But mostly I like to walk.

Okay, I should work. Really I should.
Marie

Hey yo!! My favorite exercises are lifting weights, riding my bike, and playing DDR. It's a lot of fun. I used to do it a lot when I was younger, so I can do most songs on heavy mode but some of the faster ones are difficult with my asthma. Swimming is fun, too, but I hate being wet afterwards.

morning all
the rain has cleared so i am going outside to read for a bit. i started with warm water and lemon juice (trying to undo the desserts from last night yummmm tartufo)

back later

Just a quick Hello!!
Very quiet in here today.
Very quiet at home here today as well. Feels cold in here. DD18 and I made a stab at cleaning our unfinished addition, its full of junk I'm hoping if we find the floors and walls it may get finished sometime this century! (I would have said decade, but I bet we would run out of time ;) great procrastinators that we are)
Hope everyone is feeling alright and taking some time for themselves.
Take care all,
K

Hey everyone. Today has been so much better. The kids are home, and we are doing well. Wow, that was a really bad one. I felt so bad I considered going to the emergency room. At least I wouldn't be alone, and there would probably be some good drugs there! But I stuck it out, and am back on the upswing. My house, while far from perfect, is nearly clean.

Marie-I started using the light box today. I couldn't use it too long, since it was fairly late when I got it. Tomorrow I'll do it in the AM.

Sweet Pea-I went to the mixed nuts website last night. When I logged on, I was in tears, but I stayed for an hour, and when I finally left, I had been able to laugh. There were about 15 people in the chat room, and while some were looking for advice, there were others who could laugh at their illnesses. And be so open and honest. It was great to have that real time connection with others who understand. I will be going there frequently.

We have a homeschool skate day on Friday, so hopefully several other women will be there, and I won't feel compelled to pass on your opinion of you know who.

So American Idol tonight. Anyone else watch?

Okay, time to do the dishes. Also, the laundry pile is bigger than my head, so I should probably do something about that. Maybe.

I'll check in with you all later.

you sound much more upbeat marcie - that's cool - and 15 people is amazing. at the times i've chatted in there it's been relatively empty. do you have phones lines you can ring over there? samaritans or lifeline? i've rung lifeline many times esp when it's the middle of the night ;

K your addition story made me laugh. quick go out and claim it so you can put all your bits n pieces there and move the rest out!!!

back later. toastmasters tonight and i have to have dinner and shower first. argh barking dogs.... later

this person's story about depression might be of interest to others??? http://www.remedyfind.com/newsletter...epression.html

also i have someone coming tmrw who is seriously keen on the place. she sent her father to see the place today! of course that means i have to tidy so you may not see me again tonight :)

still have to tidy the place. i am just so fatigued and tired it is a struggle. i had to retype this several times as i kept reversing all the letters. i need to do something to get some continuous refreshing sleep and to get energy. also would love to kick the headache into touch

marie - what about publishing under a pen name??? lots of authors are reclusive. it sort of goes with the territory

mother is putting in her bid for me to move closer to her. 2nd night in a row she has harped on about it. NOT happening. she is another hour north and in an even smaller town. ok i have to snap out of this and go do what needs to be done

i also have to work out a way to overhaul my diet that is manageable for me. with the fatigue it's unrealistic to plan on me cooking all the time so i need access to healthy prepared food and lots of snacks. one of those vicious cycle things. i don't have the energy to look after myself so altho i have some good healthy meals i also grab crap often. but that in turn saps energy. in theory it's easy to break but in practise when you're exhausted and irritable blah blah not so easy to make it happen

tried a new type of harness on the puppy today that worked quite well in controlling her for walking. so lots of good news today!

Ok SweetPea, what's the name of the new harness. I'm willing to try to get my doggies under control if possible. The Huskies like to pull. Sleddog heritage.

Marcie, sounds like you're doing better. I think when you see the cow you should moo. good luck with the light. I just love mine.

<3 I know what you mean about swimming and being wet. It takes forever to dry my hair so getting it wet just to swim is rarely a fun choice. Too bad caps don't really work. I don't mind the rest of me being wet since towels work miraculously, but wet hair bugs me.

SweetPea, naw, no pen name or anything. Just don't want to publish. Too much commitment from me and it's so personal even fiction. nope, don't want to share. I'm glad there are others that do since I love to read. Okay, I listen to audiobooks since I can't still long enough to read a whole book anymore. My ADD is currently not being treated. :)

Off to work. Really.
Marie

Okay, I don't know what's going on, I am seriously down again today, crying so much. I think it has something to do with hubby coming home next month. It's too much to handle. All my flaws. 220 pounds of crazy and lazy. whereas he is nearly perfect, disciplined, in the gym 1 1/2 hours a day, gets stuff done. TERRIBLE match. You know, I have been the loser of the relationship from day one. I am so damn tired of being the loser! I wish he would just leave me already! Then I don't have to feel so bad about letting him down all the time. There is no clear answer here. and I am running out of time.

it is a HALTI Harness by Dr Roger Mugford. Don't get any other brand!!! It stops pulling by putting pressure on the dog's shoulders. so far it is a miracle

Awww marcie :hugs: i'm sorry you feel so bad about yourself. really i don't know why you are focusing so much on the physical looks. you are a kind empathetic person who puts yourself out for people and your hubby is judgemental and impatient. don't you see you have lots to offer and that if your hubby were so perfect he would simply be there for you without judging? of course i don't want you to hate him. just remember that looks are surface stuff

hmmmm is there anyway you can get your appointment moved forward? not really sure what else to suggest as i don't know what's available where you are. only thing i can say is this is a process. there is a lot of 2 steps forward 1 step back, sometimes 3 steps back!!! :) you just have to hang in there and eventually the good days start outweighing the bad. now i must stop procrastinating and put away the washing blah blah

I know you're right, Sweet Pea, but our world is so focused on looks. And I know it bothers my husband. He is very much into appearances. What's today, Wednesday? Okay, I can make it to the appointment. She only works mon, tues, and wed anyway. But I haven't been to see my therapist fro a few weeks due to ins. crap, so maybe I'll see if I can get in to see him.

Sorry about the downs, Marcie. I sure hope you can get some answers soon. Definitely don't focus on the looks. If it's that important to DH, tough sh*t for him. Your mental health is way more important. He needs to get his priorities together. SweetPea is right that looks are just the surface of who someone is.

SweetPea, I looked a klittle bit on the net for the Halti and found both the harness and head collar. I like the idea of the head collar but don't like the idea that it looks like a muzzle so I think I'd want to try the harness - although I can't find it in the US yet. I just briefly looked. The harness is what you use?

Hello all,
Marie and Sweet_pea, glad to hear that you are both doing well. My sister has a wolf/husky cross and the only thing that works is the halti, otherwise she just pulls and charges wherever she wants. Good luck.

marcie hope you are feeling better.
Hi <3

I'm feeling really down today for some reason. Its funny how things can be going along swimmingly and then one little thing happens and I can go into a downward spiral. Took my full dose of paxil last night and used my light this morning, but still feeling blah.
Hubby is still stuck up in the Yukon. They are waiting for parts so he doesn't think he'll be able to leave until Friday, and then its a two day drive home. Hopefully they can find a load for him to bring back so he can get something out of this.

I should go now read some success stories. Gosh I hate feeling like this. Also have to get dinner in the over, at least I know what I'm cooking.

Take care all, tomorrow is another day.
K

hi just stopping quickly. i am really exhausted

i have been outside trying to get the sun to lift me but not really working. i can't carry on not sleeping!!

marie - i use the harness. i have tried the head collar and it didn't work altho i have had friends who have had a lot of success with it. it's not at all like a muzzle. the harness so far is great. she doesn't like me putting it on her and squirms and rolls over to make it hard but once it's on she settles nicely. your dogs would be much stronger than my girl. she's only 11mo and she's small for her breed - just determined!!! it's bound to be on ebay or somewhere there. look at www.companyofanimals.co.uk it was expensive but who knows what it will cost there. most of this stuff is expensive in NZ. it's a patented design so i'm not sure anything else is the same

marcie - bugger about the insurance hassles! regular therapy might help. at this stage any help would be good so i hope you find someone who can see you this week.

Keira - i know all about blah but at least you're doing what you can to lift yourself. hopefully it will pass soon :)


ok have to rest now. the people came to look at the house but turns out the have to move in 1 week and don't want to rush buying so plan to rent first. so it won't be happening quickly. i guess that's good i haven't found another place to go yet.

i should just add part of the reason the head collar didn't work is they sold me one too big and it was easy for her to escape and now even tho i have sewn it smaller to fit properly she still remembers that she used to escape and keeps trying. plus she's ridiculously clever. the dog trainers at obedience club killed themselves laughing when they heard all the ways she got out of the darn thing. i think i might have had more success if it had fitted in the first place. the harness tho is imposs for the dogs to get out of. i only use 1 lead on her back with it. that double lead stuff is too much hassle

Sweet_pea hope you get some decent sleep. It sure makes a difference.

I hope thats all I need. Gosh I hate feeling the way I do today. Sorry this is just a rant or whine. I just feel the need to connect somewhere. So in other words no need to read further on. For some stupid reason I just want to sit and have a good cry and I'm fighting the irrational urge to hurt myself. Talk about nonproductive. I don't know, I have my kids here and yet I feel so lost and totally alone. I've been depressed for so many years and I don't feel like I've done anything in my life. And yet I'm to terrified to take any steps to actually do anything. I was feeling so good on Monday, everything felt like it was clicking and now I just feel so useless. Oh well, hopefully a good nights sleep will set everything right. Sorry for doing this I just needed some place to be.
Thanks,
Take care all,
K

Buddly-Sweet pea gave me the web address of a really great site with an active chat room. It's mixednuts.net. There are always people on, even in the middle of the night. (I know, I was there last night) They can encourage you, but for me, the biggest thing is just connecting to people in real time. There is someone there RIGHT NOW who is aware of you, and that helps me when I am feeling really isolated.

hi

i was a bit disappointed. the people came to look at the house but turns out they have to move next week so they're actually planning to rent for a while and buy later

the house thing is a big hassle. i really don't know what to do whether to persevere or give it a break for a while

very tired and irritable. hope i sleep better tonight

keira and marcie - hope you feel better tmrw :D

Good morning everyone,

Feeling a bit better today. At least I feel up enough to try the "pretend to be cheerful and eventually you will" thing (wouldn't have been able to pull that off yesterday in any form) Anyway went for a quick walk in the rain and sat infront of my light. So I'm hoping for a better day today. Thanks for the suggestion Marcie. I'll definatly keep it in mind. My mom surprised me and phoned, I thought she had to work, but she didn't and knew I was feeling low. And then DD18 and I watched some music videos on the internet, so it helped to pull me out a bit anyway. Thanks again.
DD16 is staying home from school today as she caught that silly cold we have here.

Sweet_pea I hope you have a better day. Trying to sell a house is so stressful. Take care of yourself.

Well I should go, I'd like to work a little more in the addition today before I do a dump run.

Have a great day everyone and take care,
K

Morning everyone. Kiera, I'm glad the blahs' have lifted a little bit. They are so nasty. Every once in a while they smack you down just to show that there's no such thing of mind over matter. Our brains will do what they want, when they want. When my blahs hit, I always try to figure out what the trigger is and I never can. Some things just can't be explained. BTW, on Monday I had the blahs (not severe, just there) and I sat in front of my blue light for an extra session. Seemed to help a little.

SweetPea, why do you want to move? I have to say I'm "hearing" reluctance in the whole process. Maybe you need to reassess if you really want to do it. Sorry you had a bad day yesterday.

Marcie, how is it going today? I hope you've had some nice weather the last couple of days like we're having in Oregon. It sure has helped with my motivation (except in eating whcih I'm finding is getting more out of control rather than in control).

So there's the problem. Eating. I love eating. I hate the effect of eating. Seems the more I exercise, the more I eat. That makes me mad. I guess if that's my only worry at the moment, I'm damn lucky. But if I don't watch it, I will be at the store buying bigger jeans. They're aren't overly comfy anymore. So here's my mini goal - I have Fri - Monday off. For FOUR days I am going to be good. I'd start today but I was bad and bought a slice of German Choc. Cake to go with my soup (very healthy tomato and basil bisque but bad cake). And I'm going to eat it. But I think I will make up for it by taking my doggies for a 2 miler this afternoon. That should about let me break even. Of course I could be good and give the cake away. HA!!!! like that would ever happen. I did exercise this am, so I'm feeling good and I had the Starbucks (didn't finish it and threw 1/3 of it away - yeah me) so
I'm pumped on caffeine. I love caffeine.

Got to go read my email. I'll be back.
Marie

News Flash!!!
 

I just had lunch and I gave half my piece of cake to my co-worker!!! I did it, I didn't overeat. YEAH!!!

damn why don't i work with you that cake sounded divine;)

not reluctance to move just fear
- fear of making the wrong decision
- fear of still being unhappy (my capacity for misery being HUGE)
- fear of not finding a place i like
- fear i borrow up to my maximum and circumstances change and i can't afford it

newsflash! a lady coming back in 30 mins to look at the house with her hubby
better get some clothes on and untangle my hair

Hi everyone,
hope you all had a super Easter,
we went away to SC to see the inlaws..had a good time,
now i'm back, and my anxiety is back too..
didn't bother me while i was away...

my stomach isn't feeling so good today either.

my mom has diabetes and can't get on track,
she had lost 60lbs while back with southbeach,
and was doing good, but that was like 6-9 months ago,
i'm worried about her..
gosh i want to help her so badly...

i'm gonna try to start cooking some food for her,
she loves my stir frys....and in exchange she will
come over and do a little cleaning..

i feel really crappy right now..
Everything felt fresher when we were away..
now its same old...
messes, no one taking care of me, and me doing everything..
.
fun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

God Bless you all

Well, I've realized what is going on with me. This past week has been so bad. I went in for an emergency session with my therapist today, I have been crying like crazy, feeling like there is no hope. Today I realized it is because my husband is coming home next month. I ahdn't really let myself think about it, but when it comes down to it, I don't want him to come back. I don't want to go back to being the loser of the relationship. When he is here, all I can think about are my faults. I have no voice. He is always better than me. We are at opposite ends of the spectrum. I will be compelled to clean and cook more, and do things the way he likes them. And I don't think I can survive that stress. I'm barely making it as it is.

My therapist helped me focus on the good in me, and that helped. But I don't know what will happen when he gets home. The therapist feels something really has to change. If things go on as they were before my husband left, I'm going to be sucked under. He will either have to agree to marriage counseling, or we will not make it.

This is going to be a hard month, the waiting. I don't quite know how to handle this.

Anyway, my brain is really tired, and kinda foggy. I want to go to bed. I'll talk to you all later.

Hi sweet pea, and everyone, i can't sleep,

so they banned your avatar huh?
too sexy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I thought it was scary, if it is the same
one you had with the lady in the black dress..
anyways..
hope the lady coming back for the house went well!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haven't been eating good, don't want to get on the scale, guess i'll give it a few more days of that time of the month, then when i'm clean and fresh, i'll hop on....

I'm tempted to try WW again, i had some luck with that before, in like 9 weeks i lost 19 lbs, and it wasn't to depriving i mean you can eat anything, in moderation on the diet, it was just a pain in the booty, having to keep track, and i'd kinda have to figure out my meals the day before, and you definitely had to be creative, to get the most/best food, for lowest points.

Pizza drives me crazy, i want it every week, we like to have it on Friday nights, and rent a movie, well with WW, i could have an entire 1/2 of a large Papa Johns pizza and that would use up all my xtra points for the week, and then if i want ice cream, which is my other love, i could have WW pops, or TCBY-which i adore, and chocolate, i looooooooove chocolate, a nestle crunch bar, a regular size is only 3pts...
and like mcdonalds chicken nuggets are 1 pt each,
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm,
Just makes it hard,
i was single before,
now i'm married,
I reallllllllllllllllllllly don't want to cook two seperate meals ya know?

My husband is overweight he weighs like 320 i guess, been awhile since he weighed himself, i swear his shirts are getting tighter, maybe i need to get all my books out again, for WW, not like i know where they are,
and talk to him about it...

aghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
wouldn't it be so great to be one of those people who are like addicted to exercise, *Sighs*

still need to exercise, which i don't, totally need to join a gym, i don't work, my mom can watch Olivia while i work out.
My car will be paid off like next month, that will help...


God Bless
guess i better try to snooze

i do enjoy reading your posts Jenny they are very lyrical and insightful, i feel i am right inside your life with you. they are like poetry LOL

marcie i am so glad you took a session with your therapist. it did sound like you needed someone to bounce stuff off. jenny i hope you can sleep. it's a challenge i know

lady and her hubby like hte house and are talking about putting in an offer so fingers crossed

i had EFT today and still feel pretty exhuasted. off for a walk now and to get something to eat. hmmm fish n chips sound good i think

Good evening everyone,
Marcie I'm glad you got in and got some help. Hopefully you can work everything out with your husband, one way or another.

Good luck sweetpea with the buyers!

marie, good for you for not over eating. That was super.

Campbell hope you feel better and can get some sleep.

Well today was way better than yesterday. Got a few things done. Hubby phoned and he got his truck back out of the shop and has a couple of jobs to get to, but at least he should be home Sat night. I was really good with my eating today, even though I really need to hit the grocery store, all my "easy" foods are gone and I had to do some thinking. (we are down to our last egg and thats my fall back protein and I ate the last of my cottage cheese today)
Thank goodness tomorrow is Friday, this has been a long week.

Have to go and get the dishes done before bed,
Take care all,
K

hi there
went out for drinks tonight. i just had orange juice and then we had a pub meal and desserts. very nice hot chocolate!

Keira you sound much more positive - that's good!

Marie good luck with your 4 day healthy eating

Marcie & Jenny hope you feel good soon

Morning everyone. Sounds like everyone was busy posting last night. Me??? I did my bills and paperwork. Yucky chore, but it's done. DH had to go to work the morning so he's got the bills we can't pay online and will mail them so I don't have to go anywhere today.

SweetPea, upload a new avatar - please!!!! The error picture is driving me nuts. Pretty please. And I agree with Jenny, I thought the drawing was a scary looking woman, not sexy.

Kiera, great news that DH truck is fixed. Tomorrow night will be nice for you. Have fun at the store - I went after work last night and wanted to run people over. Why do people move so slow with their carts or stand side by side chatting and blocking an aisle. I was a little pissy by the time I left. And some old bat pushed in front of my to check out. Yes, I did call her an old bat and glared at her till she left. Definitely pissy. :) But I passed a few cars on the way home and that felt much better leaving them in my dust.

Marcie, I'm glad you talked to your therapist. Do you think your hubby will go to counseling with you? I hope he will. Till he comes home, try to enjoy the time you have before he returns.

Jenny, sounds like you had fun in SC. I bet it's pretty this time of year. I just love spring.

I don't have big plans today. Listen to an audio book and maybe draw or knit or play with stained glass. Anythig but eat all day. I'm going to be good this long weekend. I do need to exercise still since I did do it when I first woke up. I htought I'd sit in front of my golite first. I love the little bugger.

Marie

Sweet pea, what is EFT?

Hey everyone! Wow, have I been busy this week. It's been crazy, but I feel great. I'm just glad it's Friday, though!! I felt really good yesterday because even after dancing all morning for show choir practice, I still went to the gym and did 10 minutes on the stair stepper, 45 minutes of weight lifting, and 30 minutes on the treadmill!! Whooo!!! That made me really happy.

I hope everyone's had a good week. <3

EFT... Emotional Freedom Techniques

EFT is a new discovery that has provided thousands with relief from pain, diseases and emotional issues. Simply stated, it is a unique version of acupuncture except you don't use needles. Instead, you stimulate well established energy meridian points on your body by tapping them with your fingertips.

So how does it work? Well, simply put no one knows for sure. However there are a few theories. It uses the end points of the 12 major meridian channels and the 2 governing vessels found in Chinese medicine. It has been observed that by tapping on these points while focusing on the problem, a release takes place clearing the physical or emotional pain being worked on. This has lead to the principal that:

The Cause Of ALL Negative Emotions Is A
Disruption In The Body’s Energy System

It seems that while experiencing or focusing on a specific problem, and tapping on the meridians that carry the energy, disruptions are cleared and normal function can resume.

By clearing the disruption in the body's energy system EFT returns health to the client.

morning all
i got some sleep the last 2 nights altho i still feel a bit blah. i had EFT and Bowen treatment yday. the bowen is supposed to help my headache. last night it felt like the headache was gone but it is back today so i am not sure it worked???

i am thinking of going out for breakfast as i can't be arsed making anything. only trouble is it's raining so i'm not sure i want to walk.

i also need to do accounts and stuff. i have to send some stuff to the tax dept for my investigation GRRRR and i have gst returns and accounts to do. i also have a 3 yr catch up to do on mother's accounts that i have completely lost enthusiasm for. i boxed it all up about a month ago and have not been tempted to open up pandora's box and get back into it. guess i should just get it done. i told her she has to find her own accountant or do it herself. of course we've been through this exercise before. she had a great accountant but he referred her to someone who he thought would be cheaper. he was of course just as expensive but totally useless. completely farked up the accounts. left a huge mess. then had a heart attack. pandora's box dumped on daughter. daughter yet to saddle up and ride to the rescue.

PLUS our year end is 31 march so i have 3 sets of my own accounts to do, plus my personal accounts and 2 GST returns. all very exciting riveting stuff. yep i definitely need something nice for breakfast

marie have fun playing with your glass. my mother does leadlight windows as a hobby and plans to do it one day for other people. she's done a small job for a neighbour plus all the windows in her house and a window in a house of mine. will see if i can post a picture somewhere or maybe email it to you one day

is the pix in your avatar one you have done?

<3 i need to go lie down and rest after hearing about all your exercise. makes me feel exhausted

marie - you talk about ADD sometimes. are you diagnosed as ADD or is that just what you call it? that hyperactivity often goes with anxiety. i know i get it at times. can't concentrate on anything.

oh crap. i've lost the letter from the tax dept and my headache is back WAAAAH!!! ok tantrum over

back later

SweetPea, wonderful, great avatar. Is that Saffie or Jazzy? Thank you for getting rid of the error message. It was hard on the eyes. :) I know, I'm the one with the bright lights.

<3 sounds like you're doing great. You're a senior in HS right? Sounds like your having a good last year.

SweetPea, guess you're going to be hunting for paperwork today. Go get breakfast. I made my breakfast this morning - cheese blintzes - all for myself. It took a while, but I have 4 more breakfasts and they reheat wonderfully.

I did a no-no. I gave in and took a nap. I was chilled and woozy so I decided that I'd just have bad night sleep. So I'm in for it tonight. :( But the nap was divine. I love snuggling with Blizzard.

Yes, my avatar is mine. It's hanging in my craft room. Other than making a fancy breakfast for one, I haven't done much today. DS's GF and I took DGS and the doggies for a stroll around the big block. That first hill is just a killer. We went pretty slow so that we could make it with the stroller, but it was very nice.

Chat with you later.
Marie

that's saffie. pix was taken about 2 yrs ago. one day i will put jazz up here. well i'm glad you like it but i liked being too sexy for this mb

breakfast was heaven - french toast bananas bacon and maple syrup courtesy of the local cafe. now i want to follow in your footsteps right to the comfort of my bed!

i don't have the patience for crafts or the attention span. even when i am reading books i enjoy i stop every few pages. it is pretty miserable weather here but it's autumn so i should expect that. we were spoilt with 2 lovely hot days which i enjoyed.

ugh paperwork. yes. i have sent the fax to the IRD knowing that they will have more questions and they will be difficult and possibly expensive ones.

enthusiasm for doing my own or my mother's accounts is still in the negative.
enthusiasm for rolling around in my bed and having a nap = 10!

Okay, bad again today, This is getting old. I'll check in later.