You know, they say losing weight is about calories in versus calories out, but no one ever tells you about the head stuff that goes on!!! I enjoy exercise and eating healthily, but sometimes, I can get these irrational feelings that I can't quite verbalise. But almost like, what are you doing this for? You're a fat chick and proud of it why the struggle?
Or sometimes I will just find myself wanting to eat, for eating's sake, like I used to.
I have my own strategies in place for these times, like exercising, going on the internet, doing something with my hands like art or craft. But the head stuff is a constant battle and theirs all sorts of places my inner fat chick likes to wander, threatening to take me with her.
I don't know what it's like for you, or how heavy you are, but I have been morbidly obese for most of my adult life. And I wasn't that stressed about my weight. For me, both my parents being diagnosed with type 2 diabetes shook me about of my fat and happy apathy, and that's why, nine months later, I am the lightest I have ever been in my adult life! It's bound to be scary. My fat is my identity, it's part of me, and now that it's going, it's quite a bit confronting! I love my emerging body, but it has raised so many issues in my head that I never knew were there!
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