Thanks for the support, it is greatly appreciated. Instead of sitting in my office, skulking about

(eating chocolates)

.....I went to the gym, managed 35 mins. on the Elliptical and 4 weight machines. Instead of {{{{worrying}}}} about the cat's haematoma, imagining surgery I looked up feline ear disorders and found it is probably just an inner blood blister, a common occurence brought on by either a skirmish or scratch and made an appt. with vet for thurs. night....(I am the queen of anxiety, i love that cat like my child, I've now memorized the feline ear parts). I had my BP checked and it is a nice healthy 110/72 even after dealing with my 86 year old mother who wants me to take her to my X-FIL's funeral although I've been divorced for 18 years......and don't speak to my X-H
I'm finally learning to deal with road-blocks instead of sabatoging myself and self-medicating with food and alcohol.
I'm sure that many will benefit from anti-depressants, but I could not tolerate the side-effects. (its hard to be happy when you are sweating so much your bra and underwear are wet!) I've found that exercise gives me a sense of control and I have to concentrate on the work-out (or fall off the machines)

My bad periods are much shorter in duration and i no longer spend my free time in bed.....yeah, no wonder I gained weight, all that laying around sure doesn't do anything to perk up my buns, am I right?
So to complete my long-winded-ness...just KNOWING that I could come and tell you guys I worked through my little mess, picked me out of it...THANK YOU< THANK YOU!!!!!!

I sincerely appreciate all of your kindnesses. I' will learn everyone's name in time, I know Kathy, KO, Lynnie, Leenie, homebound, April99, I hope I haven't forgotten anyone