[SueMarie301]

Well, I talked with a person in the Psychological Counseling Department at the campus. I had my first appointment today. Nothing like being nervous and on top of that I'm stresing out over finals. I explained that I'm not to comfy with medications and a few other things. The one good thing is, this person actually listens and respects my fears. They want to go slow, do some talking, asking questions and so on. It was a brief "Getting to know you" appointment, but all in all I'll be rescheduling when the next term begins at the end of March.

I know a few of you here mentioned some medications, and I've kept notes and will discuss this with the counselor and go from there. I don't know if I feel relieved talking a bit, since I've been so stressed out for the past three weeks with my research paper. That's finally turned in though, and now it's just finals that I've gotta study for. Maybe I'll feel a bit better once we talk some more...

I have to admit, it's a bit awkward talking in person about this... it's easier to hide your tears and emotions behind this monitor.

Just thought I'd give you guys an update on this situation.

Sue...

[Leenie]

YEAH SUEMARIE !!!

Bravo Girlie for taking the first steps, I'm so happy for you and I'm delighted you didn't wait and let this get further out of control, I wish I could give you a big hug I waited over 5 years to get help sigh~

I'm sooooooo PROUD of YOU.

[cathyxxx]

Good Morning SueMarie!

I'm so glad that you faced your fears and are doing what you need to do to take care of yourself!

hugs,
cathy

[SueMarie301]

Hello there you two...

I probably would have still been putting off. However with my research paper stressing me big time and me not being home like I have been because I've een hiding in the library, things at home have been pretty stressful as well. I found myself wanting to throw things and I actually packed my bags and went back to my parents for two nights. My mother and I had a long talk, and she was actually pretty decent about things too. Sigh, of course then she told me that her tendonitus is getting worse and that she may have to have surgery and the doctor says she may not be able to go to work and now she has Arthritus in her hips and legs to the point of where she can barely walk. Needless to say that impacted my depression even more. I was ready to quit school, leave my fiance and go find a place to hide. But I came back home last Wednesday night at 5am and I decided that I was tired of feeling this way. All you had to do was look at me funny and I started to get angry. I'm so stressed out that I don't remember things any more. Like I couldn't remember what the days were or I would be driving and forget where I was going because I kept thinking about all the crap I had to do and how little time there was.

I mentioned a brief portion of this to the doctor. I will definately be going back. Who knowes, maybe I'll give in and try medication if it is suggested. Course that's easier to say than do LOL! I don't even like to take excedrine for my migraines.

We shall see...
Thanks again ladies!
Sue...

[lynnie24]

Wtg Sue!!!!!