Been way off plan. Just have set up new counterproductive eating habits now. So there is nothing positive to report. Not even bothering to detail my food. However, it could be worse. I probably am 5 lbs above where I was last year. 10 lbs above where I would be when I would go to see my mother. lol, now she can see me all the time.

Flower You are still working through things so that's good. You will get to where you need to be in time.

Thank you. Blessings to you Diana <3

okay, this food thing is getting way out of control. Cannot do this alone secluded on a thread. Will have to figure out another tactic. I am way into a new eating pattern that is not okay. I have to stop it now. Even though the habit of it is set in. Enough is enough!! Sitting here with a gut is not okay.

I made 4 dark chocolate things today. melted bittersweet Belgian chocolate. Roasted peanuts. Granola and diced dried apricots all mixed together. Then spread like a cookie shape on wax paper. They were supposed to be for dessert for a friend and me tomorrow. I ate mine tonight. I cannot do this alone. No way. Its gotten a lot worse in the past several days. Maybe since I found out my aunt has cancer. That really hit me hard after the death of my mother. They were very close friends for more than 70 years. Scared I will lose my aunt. Have lost too many people now. Almost no one left.
food today:

coffee 200
hot chocolate 160?
popchips 350
watermelon 200
pint of halo gold top low cal vegan ice cream 360
shrimp with coconut aminos, onion, sesame oil garlic and ginger 300
salad with low fat feta and low cal blue cheese dressing. 250
2 chocolate candy things written about above. I do not even want to think about calories
I am on a one way road to weight gain **** and I need to turn it around

Writing daily intake here is not helping. Eating been increasingly out of control for 3 months. So I am switching to the daily accountability thread where i hopefully will feel more pressure to stay accountable. My hope is that in 3 weeks time I will be back down to where I feel good in my clothes and more comfortable in my body. the cost will be higher for the food I buy. But then, I will be buying less food. So I am hoping to even save. I am hoping this is the last time I will be posting on this thread.

I also reported it last night.

Sorry to hear this. I hope you are feeling better. Great food choice!

Hello Flower!! I am so sorry to hear the struggling in your words

Today:
early morning mindless eating: 2 summer squash with butter 170
coffee 150
carrot and squash soup with bone broth 400
rice 180
butter 60
halo top ice cream 360 (very strange color)
total: 1320

Today I feel better about the calories i ate

coffee 200?
4 chocolate covered malted peanutbutter balls. 200?
cooked apple slices 100?
Carrot soup with zucchini squash, bone broth powder, better than bouillon, and a bit of sesame oil. 420
basmati rice 180
Total 1100