I saw the pulmonologist this afternoon.

First time seeing him. More tests. Bleh

Lisa - tests are never fun..but the facts need to be found, to keep you healthy ::hug:

Flower - how are you managing?? please blog here if you need to release emotions or thoughts :hug:

now for me *deep breath* our dog Eddie died last night. He was under care at the animal hospital since Thursday. This all happened so fast!! :( He was FINE on Sunday. I don't remember anything out of the ordinary on Monday, except his usual hanging around me in the kitchen when I was preparing my work food :) always underfoot when the refridgerator was opened. But on Tuesday, he started being listless and didn't want to finish his breakfast. And threw up a couple times. And didn't want dinner. Did not want any food on Wednesday, but still drank a little water. Called the vet and brought him to the vet on Thursday morning. They put an IV in right away, did tests, and found he had pneumonia..possibly inhaled some vomit and it got infected. They kept him overnight Thursday . On Friday, they said we could visit him, and we did, before I went to work. I am so glad we did :( he was VERY listless, didn't even want to walk, but he did, the short distance to the visiting room. I got down on the floor to be right next to him and patted and stroked and told him how we missed him at hom and what a good boy he is. He did relax a bit and laid down on his side. We visited as long as i could, then had to leave. Vet said if he responded a bit for the better, he could come home on Saturday? That night, he was checked on around 8 pm, he was asked if he wanted to go outside to pee, and he perked up a little and walked out with them to pee. Then back inside. An hour later, he was checked n again, and he had passed.

i haven't been able to stop crying since the phone call :( Our older son came over to help dig (we have enough property for our doggie graves) We picked Eddie up from the hospital...they warned us he would be in a bag..well I guess they put people in bags too. But the 2 young women technicians who brought him out to us were SO kind, solemn and respectful !! they couldn't have been more respectful if it was a military person funeral or something. Just incredibly kind. I just about fell apart then, trying to thank them.
we came home and I got the big cashmere sweater that he loved to lie on. I put that down first in the grave. then we took him out of the awful black plastic bag and put him on a clean sheet. they had .."arranged' his body I guess, he was kinda curled up, his front paws crossed :( and he didn't look awful . He did't feel awful either, i petted him and told him how handsome he was and what a good boy . We wrapped him, placed him, and i had fresh evergreen boughs to go over him. Then the soil to fill. then more evergreen boughs on top. I will make it beautiful when the weather gets better.
we adopted him when he was 1 1/2 or maybe 2 years old, in August of 2008.
I see him everywhere around the house :(
so hard!!!

The test on my heart is scheduled for May 10th. It'll probably come back ok


I have another lung test also. I think he just wants to know my lung capacity because of the pulmonary hypertension.

Pulmonary hypertension affects arteries in the lungs and the right side of the heart.

Holly I am so deeply sorry for your loss. Dogs are such important family members, pure love they are. The loss of a quadruped family member is so deeply painful. My thoughts to out to you during this time of grieving. it is my personal belief that when we see a passed on loved one, they are truly there with us. Not in their regular form. But in their soul form. IDK if you believe that. But when you wrote that you see him everywhere around the house, I did want to share my belief.

Lisa please continue to let us know how things are going with you medically and otherwise. best thoughts for you during this time of medical challenges