Everything Sucks
Ugh. I'm sorry to start out that way, but DANG that's all I've got!
Background: about a year ago I decided to YES I AM GOING TO LOSE WEIGHT RAWR I WANT TO LOSE 100 POUNDS AND I WILL DO IT IN A YEAR.
I have bipolar disorder, heavy on the depression and PTSD with crap anxiety.
I was doing well for about 6 months, then my schedule changed, which messed up my workout schedule. I couldn't get to the gym anymore (so I tell myself), and it went down hill from there. I have been lowering my antidepressant meds because the withdrawal and sideaffects weren't great. That hasn't helped.
About 4 months ago, my transmission went out, into depression I went again because we did not have 2 grand to put into that. Got it fixed a month and a half ago.
Then July 2nd, I was in an accident and now my truck is kaputz and the insurance people are taking for freaking ever to do anything.
And now I'm just beyond blah and done and tired and I am in therapy, and talking about it helps.
I have zero, zero, zero energy and just talking myself into making the family dinner, much less going for a walk, has been dang near impossible. What can I do to help this? It's it really just get up by my bootstraps and will it into being? Because my will power right now sucks.
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Thank yall.
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