Wow, December 1st...come on Spring it is barely 4:10 p.m. and dusky/dark!! ugh.

As Kathleen ("IBelieve") has said before, we are a small but mighty group that share in our Ups and Downs. We are always welcoming to newcomers. You can post as much or as little as you feel up to.

Kathleen how frustrating to lose one's well-thought-out post!! anyway you wrote a nice recovery one first, that is great news about your son being safely home for now, you are such a loving mother and it must tear you apart when he is having troubles, at least he is HOME with you now

We should all follow your plan for PROGRESS, not perfection. It is so easy to beat ourselves up isn't it!! Let's be mindful of the things we do that are good for us and focus on that.

Uh oh the big 5-0 this Sunday? we'll help you celebrate being 50 years YOUNG

I have had a really "down" afternoon and I'm trying SO hard to pull myself out of it. I;ve had to almost kick myself in my own butt to make myself go forward. Forward with just daily tasks, instead of hiding in bed. Something I realized, it is only on days I have off, that I am so despairing...if I am at work, I am at least focused on dealing with that. It just doesn't give me the time to dwell.

I've made a couple hundred of those meringue mushrooms, yet before I can try to sell them, I have to work up details such as item tags and ribbons..and I need a business card. I asked DH for help almost 2 weeks ago. I know it isn't his full time job to make pastry labels for me, but he has been in marketing for over 20 years and does stellar desktop publishing..he could make what I need in just 2 hours..yet I am not gonna nag. So I might just not do it. It was just something I was thinking might help me with focusing on looking forward . Back to feeling meh about the next day.

Been taking my Wellbutrin daily for over a week now, guess it is not going its job yet.

see if I can post a pic of the mushrooms (Ooops a double copy, sorry)

here is the other pic i meant to find

Hi Lisa thanks for your encouragement about being patient and giving the med a chance. So glad you have a good feeling about the contractor! that is great news. And I do not think $200 is too bad for all that you got. That is GREAT about being down a whole pant size!!

I would have also been at hearing the friends say that...I would want to just go with the simple answer that sometimes our mind is racing ahead more quickly than we're putting together words, and then we just 'blank'. Are you having any problems with reading comprehension, or writing also, or is it just when you're speaking? I guess if it continues, you could see a doc about it..but also remember that you ARE in a stessful situation, even if you are getting along smoothly with your daughter, you are still not in your own home due to a traumatic event and maybe that is messing with you. BEST wishes and love to you Lisa!!

Oh the mushroom things they are like candy, individual treats, like a bonbon or truffle. But they are made of baked meringue so they are crisp and dry and light, but have the undercoating of semisweet chocolate. Yummy they were originally invented to decorate the Christmas cake Yule Log.

AND a reassurance to Kathleen (and Lisa) that there is life after 50 I myself turned 56 today. Yeah today was my birthday, I keep my expectations low so I am not disappointed

Went to dollar general today and bought some Micellar Water. I cleaned my face with it tonight, it is so soft now. I heard good things about this stuff and decided I needed to start taking better care of my skin. My face tends to be kind of ruddy, I love it tonight.

Hello and thank you Lisa for the beautiful cookie message!

and a big HAPPY BIRTHDAY to KATHLEEN today!!

Lisa I had never heard of that water, it sounds fantastic.

gotta get ready for work have a good day everyone

Hello everyone! Happy December

I hope everyone has kicked off the month to a good start!

And I see we have a Birthday! WhooHoo!! Happy Birthday!!

Just wanted to pop in and say hello. It's a rainy, dreary day here in Houston, TX. Cold too. Or at least for us! LOL!

Have a great day everyone

So I had an "ah-hah" moment yesterday. Let me give a bit of background, then I'll get to my moment

I'm 11 years recovered from Anorexia and Bulimia, after battling both for over 12 years. It was a very long journey, which included multiple hospitalizations, treatment programs, therapy, etc. etc., but eventually I recovered. I also became active in 12 step programs Overeaters Anonymous and Eating Disorders Anonymous.

So, fast forward shortly after my recovery began - I began binging without purging. I gained weight, and quickly. I saw a dietician, joined weight watchers, and did ok (for a while.) Until I didn't. I became depressed in a relationship I was in, generally not happy with where I was at in my life, and the weight just continued to pile on

I got out of the relationship, and a year later met, my now, wife.

Things began to improve with my life. But my wife is also an emotional eater, so that didn't help any. Just around a year into our relationship, I was diagnosed with Celiac Disease and Cancer. My life drastically changed at this point. I became very motivated to get myself healthy

And so began my 140 pound weight loss journey (I've lost 90 pounds so far and have 50 to go until my goal weight.)

I beat Cancer, continued focusing on my health, and THOUGHT I was doing well.


Until last night's AH HAH moment.

You see, I have Celiac Disease (I have to adhere to a gluten free diet.) - BUT... while I am not binging, and haven't 'binged' in a long time, I realized I still very much emotionally eat. The problem lies in WHAT I eat and HOW I eat. I eat to fill an emotional need when I'm not hungry - even if it's a normal amount, BUT 99% of the time it is gluten filled foods. Ugh. Definitely NOT good for my health

So here I am. I was feeling VERY low last night. The shade of denial was ripped off. I'm feeling a little better today, just... raw...

Anyway, I wanted to share. Any feedback is greatly appreciated

Hi ladies, thanks to JesikaBeth for sharing your story, you have battled so much!

Lisa, yay to you for taking the steps to have the healthy lighter snacks available, and taking good care of your skin I also love yogurt. One of my 'tricks' is to buy the cheaper store brand of plain nonfat yogurt, the quart size, and then buy some Jello Lemon flavor sugar free jello . I sprinkle some of the jello powder on the plain yogurt and it tastes so tangy lemony good.

Lisa, how are things going with the contractor and renovations?

OH jeez, the holiday blitz of bad choices has already begun!! was given a tin of homemade chocolate candies tonight and a bag of that delicious White Crack chex mix and nuts and raisins held together by melted white chocolate.

Hope to see some of our other regulars here soon, miss you all

Thanks guys!



I'm feeling pretty good thus far today... I'm sure the coffee has something to do with that LOL j/k

I hope everyone has a fantastic day and upcoming weekend. I'll be back on Monday

Holly, I have not heard back from that contractor yet. It usually takes them a good week or longer to get those estimates back. I may call him tomorrow, to see how much longer.


I had a sandwich and carrots for a late lunch. I am still a little hungry, I'll try to hold off until I make supper later. I haven't been drinking as much water lately but I still do have a water open in front of me, right now, so I think I'm ok.

I might try your yogurt trick, it sounds good. Thanks for telling me about it. I do eat light yogurt. I buy 12 packs of it, at least 2, and keep them in the fridge. Been buying bananas too, the last ones were pretty much, no good. Yuck!

Much love to you, Holly.